;i keep up with a fake smile.Do you ever notice?



I FAKE A SMILE ALL THIS WHILE

DID YOU EVER REALISE?

It's me.So what?
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*Rena Heng
*aka Tiny,Nana
*17*
*30/5/89*
*TP,Hospitality and Tourism*
*PRSS,QNPS*

Her world revolves around...
*her friends
*family
*you
*her lovelies =3
*clubs
*drinking
*shopping
*bitching
*freedom

BEWARE,SHE SNAPS
I'm not who you think i really am. Don't like reading wat's here? Buzz off. =)
DO NOT JUDGE ME,period.

HER WANTS
*New navel stud*
*plain bikini*
*Waist belt*
*A pair of flats*
*Grey/white off shoulder*
*tan*
*Vintage dress*
*New phone*


THE ONES

Abigail
Adler
Arjuna
Audrina
Alpharian
Alvin
Boon Ern
Daphne
Daryl
Dixon
de-bonbons
Eugene
Genevieve
Hailing
Hakim
Hidayu
Hisa
Idy
Jacquelin
Jeslyn
Jingxuan
Justin
Jie Hui
Karen
Kok Sheng
Letitia
Pauline
Quan Zhang
Qiao
Royston
Stephanie
Shihan
Siok Wen
Sihan
Wei Li
Wei Jie
Weslie
Xiuqing
Yi ting
Yiwen
Yu Heng
Zhiyi
Zhu Xiaoming
Ziying
CUT THE CRAP

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Friday, December 29, 2006

12:05 PM

Listening to: Just So You Know -Jesse McCartney
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It's getting hard to, be around you.
There's so much I can't say.
Do you want me to have the feelings?
And look the other way.

And I don't know, how to be fine when I'm not.
Cause I don't know, how to make the feeling stop.
Just so you know.
This feeling's taking control of me, and I can't help it.
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now.
Thought you should know,
I tried my best to let go of you, but I don't want to.
Just gotta say it all before I go.

-i love the MTV!!!!!! -
I'm off to Thailand tonight!!!!Shopping shopping SHOPPING!!!! Au Revoir! =]

[I promise i'll be fine when i'm back. Really.I will be.The shopping's gonna drive those woes away!!!!!!!!!!! =D]
[wonder why i'm waiting so long]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Tuesday, December 26, 2006

10:20 PM

Let pics do the talkin.
Ministry of Food, Marina.Mmmm...

There's something in our tea!



K box Suntec City, A mess. The clock strikes 12!
The Mr Pigu. Thanks for the company.Mr Pigu was nice enough that day at Vivo. Talked loads at Starbucks. See, told you Java Chip was nice. He can't stop makin fun of me. Boo ya la!!!!! All those untruths. Humph! RAWRS. *snorts* I kick ur butt ah pigu... And stop askin ppl to sa jiao, cos it's uncomfortable. BOOOO.
Days out wit my gurls was great at Marina. Cam whored the whole while. Dessert at MOF was not too bad. Not a bad place for catching up with pals. Shall go there more often. =)

Been drinking pretty much lately. Beer belly! lols. It's time to hit the gym. BAH~~~~
Met up with Qing and bf, Sharon and bf, Angelia and dearest Stephy today at downtown. Hur. Opp my house for Sakae Sushi. It feels great to meet up after so long...=)
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It's to camp tmr till 29th and off to Thailand straight after till 2nd Jan. Won't be in Singapore for New Year in this case. It's time to think about resolutions!!! It's the first time ever I'm spending it overseas. I tend to look back at previous years and recall how i've spent my Xmas and New Year days.It's kinda sad that this year ain't as special as compared to the rest. OH wells. *sighs* My wish for this Xmas, it won't come true, i know it. So let just keep things this way bah..Perhaps it's for the better. =)
However! I'm glad that bestie will be with me at Thailand la!!! =D
Ah, dat's all for now peepx, miss me yah!!! ciao~*
[i'm glad i'm not forgotten by A...at least there was a reply]
[Everytime i say goodbye....my heart pains a lil. It's the same this time around, But it's alright...]
the rain never fails to make me feel gloomier...boo..
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Saturday, December 23, 2006

8:44 PM

Hung out with XY jie, Weibin and Eugan last night. Went to safra to bowl and back to my house to chat till 4am. Lols~ =]

I'm gonna make myself enjoy tonight. DXO with my gurl, Mich and some other ppl i dunno from her workplace. Oh wells. It's been so long since i've last stepped into a club. Ah... Just what i need at this point of time. A party.

Tmr's Xmas eve. Yet, it's nothing much to look forward to. Family plans are kinda messed up. Mood's kinda fucked up. That sums it up i guess. Boo.

Ah~* I'm off. DXO here i come.

[tell me, what you thinking about? Cos i've been thinking about all the possibilities. I don't even know you.-Christina Aguilera,P.Diddy.]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Thursday, December 21, 2006

11:40 PM

Currently listening to: No Promises -Shayne Ward

I don't wanna run away.i don wanna be alone.no promises.
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I find myself falling into the same trap over and over again. Heck. That's life ain't it? She's miss piggy, so she's dumb enough to step into it knowing it's a ditch. Damn. I can never get enough of my dumb-ness can i? Someone, just kill me. I will feel better. I always do. I know it. It always happens.Over and over again. It's time i got used to it. Sigh. For once, i hope, i won't need to go through this again.

It was to school for Econs. Didn't meet Aaron in the end.

Pics up.


My pig family

Xiao Ding dang! Heavy heavy!

=]Classic pic. Lol!

Daryl promised to make me drunk.Michelle suggested going drinking with her friends. I feel like drinking. Really. Anybody? Bestie's gone at the wrong time...

[everytime i tink you take a step closer, in actual fact, you just drifted the same distance away]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;

12:15 AM

This is a random post.
Here goes.

-I'm feeling blue.
-I hope the rain doesn't stop. I like cuddling under covers. It'd be better if i have someone with me though. =(
-I hope the rain stops(contradicting i know.told you it's random),so i can get outta the house. Quarrelled with mum the whole day. Shit this thing.
-I'm meeting Aaron tmr. Hmm. It's been so long.
-Stephy's off to camp tmr. Ah~*I hope i can wake up in time to meet her for breakfast at 10am
-I got Econs meeting tmr. I nearly forgot.
-A few ppl can't seem to access my blog. Oh well.
-Yes steph, i read ur blog. I got your hint *wink*
-I've finished preparing Xmas pressies. Nth fantastic. But it took me kinda long to do it up.
-I can't wait for Thailand trip. =)
-Wei Li was right. I should jus let things come naturally.
-Stop thinking Rena. You dumbo. It's not gonna work out. Karen may be right.
-I think, i'm gonna listen to Wei Li.
-Xmas is coming! But there's nth much to look forward to.
-Mei you an quan gan.

- WE'LL TAKE THINGS AS THEY COME, period.


Ah...those thoughts. As usual.
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Tuesday, December 19, 2006

1:28 AM

Currently listening to: Here with me-Michelle Branch
I know you had to go away

I died just a little
And I feel that now you're the one I need
I believe that I
Would cry just a little
Just to have you back now, here with me
Here with me
(the lyrics do not link to what i am feeling. So stop telling me i'm thinking too much ok~ =x)
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Ah kor you good. Pangseh me!!!! Boo ya.

Hmph!

Met up with Steph at PS after going to the temple to pray godmum. I jus felt like people watching today...It was to Starbucks. And yes, the photowhoring...=X

Hung out wit Wj,Roy and their friends at Taka. Super awkward at first lar!!!! But oh wells. All was fine. Hope u'll like the pressie kuku. =)

[AH!!!!!!!!!!! =( It's strumming in again. Must be the weather.Blame it on the weather...yeah yea~~~ =.= sigh]
[i'd die just a lil, and cry just a lil]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Wednesday, December 13, 2006

6:50 PM

currently listening to : I wanna be with you-徐婕儿 & Xu Hui Xin's Wei ni si mi lu(lost in Venice)
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Why do i always need to force myself to break into a smile when i see you? I hate it when it happens. Don't say i'm thinknig too much now. For I'm not.It's time to think about it once and for all and stop this nonsense. I want to face you and not feel this way anymore. NEVER. =[ And stop questioning why.

One last paper left on friday. Fundamentals of Food and Beverage. In short, FB.FUN. How fun can it really get when all you do is memorize facts. Tons of facts. Hehe. Fun.....*rolls eyes* Sigh. Jia you Rena.
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Random:
-I'm not one who will make first moves.For once i hoped i was more initiative.
-I've been staring at the phone for the whole day, scrolling down my contact list, wondering who should i call.
-I'm feeling ditsy. No. It's not the pms. =.=
-I'm repeating two songs over and over again. One of which i hope i can sing out loud. LOUD. t spells exactly how i'm feeling.
-I kinda regret not going to Stephy's house.
-I love Venice.
-The things i always hope for to happen, doesn't. Why?!
-It's something so simple to say, but i can't bring myself to say it.
-I'm beginning to doubt. And when i have doubts, it just ends here. Sigh.
-I'm jaded.
-This is shit, because I'm feeling this way due to something stupid. And I know it's stupid.

Rite, enuff i guess. My mind's in a whirl. Meeting Daryl later. Go pay for his stuff at Loyang Point. Sigh. Good time to take mind off stuff. He asked at the right time.

I WanNa be HAPPY. It's dat simple. =(
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Tuesday, December 12, 2006

1:58 AM

Hehe. Super paiseh. Stephy came over in the morn and i was still fast asleep. I only remembered opening my eyes and thinkin "OH. Steph's here, " and then closing my eyes again until she stepped into the room screaming , "Qi lai le Rena!!! "(Rena wake up!!!, in chinese). Hurhur. I'm not called Miss Piggy for nothing. Sleep is everything. Lols. But when it comes to falling asleep. You won't find me in bed until 2am. =]

It was to the National Library to study. I didn't know there was this study corner on the 5th floor. Not too bad. At least i completed 4 out of 5 topics notes for Principles of Management. We spent a good 5-6 hrs studying ok!!!! Dat's an accomplishment. Hehe.

Went on to Bugis for a walk. Christmas decorations are up!!! =]
The cheery season is coming soon!!!! =]

Managed to talk for quite a bit at Mac. I asked Steph this question. I shall post it here to keep you thinking about it too. Here goes:
Do you treasure something that was given to you more? Or would you treasure something you gave away more?
A simple question. However,it speaks all about your personality with your answer. It isn't as simple as saying it's either. It kept me thinking for a while.

My bestie makes the best out of me and i hope i do the same for her. =] You're loved Stephy! I will definitely need your 20%. And I shall give you my 20% as well.

[who's gonna break this shield of mine?]
[please don't lift it up high and let it go. It'll break.]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Saturday, December 09, 2006

7:24 PM

EDITED.*
Currently listening to:只说给你听

People tend to take for granted what they have and come to realise how much they've not treasured the past, and regret. I am no exception. See, i hate stayin home for the whole day. It makes me things of unhappy stuff and makes me feel down down down!

I MISS U MAMA(godmum). =( I haven dreamt of you ever since you passed away. Flashes of your face have been appearing on my mind so often lately it makes me wanna cry thinking about the day i arrived at the hospital and saw you lying cold, motionless. It hurts to even think about it. People tell me to come to terms with your death and forget those unhappy happenings. I have come to terms with it. But I will never forget what happened. Never. It's gonna be a 100 days tmr since the day you passed away.
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I feel so much like a couch potato today. I sat in front of the tv from 2 till 7+ today. Tat's like 5 long hours.....RAWRS. I'm so bored. I have studying to do, but i have totally no mood to get started. Bah~ *Smack*

Nth's worth holding on to. Let it go. You'll feel better, i assure you. =)

[wash away my sanity]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;

1:44 AM


Finally. Marketing is over and done with!!!!!!!!Woot. =)

Stephy came over to study. Exams are nxt Wed and Fri. But i'm in no mood at all to start mugging.Gambate!!!!

Met up with Roy for supper at Changi V. =] It was to the carwash after dat, and home! Ah. Life's been pretty boring lately. Nth much to update on.

So, for now, Abientot!!!!!

[i tink.......]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Tuesday, December 05, 2006

11:31 PM

It's been so long since my last update. Oh wells. Been busy with school work. It's totally weighing me down man! But I'd rather be weighed down than have nth to do. =)
First and foremost, photos from CommSk 2 interview today!!! I wore formal the whole day ok...first time lehs! d=
Fiona.We are the "nana-s" ok, i know i got goldfish eyes. Boo. *stares*
Baobei!!! =D You're loved lar gurl. =)
Other pics are with JessyBessy! I love 1H09 lar. You people rawk. =D I can't imagine being without you guys next year.

There are so many things i wanna talk about! Oh yes, I'm the class's SODIUM Queen. Sodium queen can!!! I got the highest intake of sodium based on one of my FB report for one of the day's food intake. So that's where my aggressiveness comes from eh!!! Hur hur. =p I shall not tell you my percentage of sodum intake. I think you'll fall off your chair lar....=X
*wails. Like the dot on Xiu Mai!!!! *wails!
There're so many things to complete!
1)Marketing individual case study
2)Marketing PBL
3) Subject tutorials
4)CommSk individual report
5)Econs outline
6)French cabaret show research
7)POM PBL
8)Econs newsarticles & USA economy research
etc...
etc....
and guess what, EXAMS ARE LIKE NXT WED AND FRI!!!
Boo, jiayou Miss Piggy.
WE're missing FLOW at MOS. *shrugs* oh well.
Au revoir!
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Sunday, December 03, 2006

12:00 AM

I enjoyed the girl's night out yesterday. However, i didn't think Jam and Hop was much fun....boo.

[i know what i want, and what to do]
[i tink i.m.u]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Friday, December 01, 2006

12:00 AM

currently listenin to : THE VERONICAS, speechless.

I'm in this very dazed mood. For the whole week. =.= So just lemme whine here aite?
I'm irritated. Seriously, very irritated. Cos one of my ear feels blocked. Boooo! =(

Tmr's Jam and Hop. =) Lol, Khai's going as well~Haha. Hope I'll meet him there tmr! He made me laugh.
*♫Ņåñå♫* >.< kukuhead!
ya gimme a msg tmr lar!

ks;
haha my phone screwed up eh ):

ks;
you go as my date ah !

*♫Ņåñå♫* >.< kukuhead!
lols!

*♫Ņåñå♫* >.< kukuhead!
waah..."date"!

ks;
haha why not .im single. youre single too right ! : D

*♫Ņåñå♫* >.< kukuhead!
haha,yea....=)

ks;
haha awesome then what.

Right.JAM AND HOP at the erms...sports...complex.. HMM. And he made me realise one thing, I AM SINGLE. Yet another reminder eh.."Rena, go get yourself a boyfriend lar hor? Later older nobody want." =( Fine lor.Ok lor.....*wails* People keep telling me what i can do when i'm still single and what fun they'll miss out when they're not. Then for goodness sake don't get attached lar! Why complain then?~ Pui.
Okok,wo ye shi chi bu dao pu tao, shuo pu tao suan la. ok? boo.
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Just go
I gave you my word and I promised to love you
go, it's overyou had your chance
Just Go
there's nothing inside of me that still feels connected to you
to me
you're already gone
[You're the drug, i wanna kick the habit for good]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;