Wednesday, March 23, 2005
8:56 PM
Aw crap~~shoulders achin~~din slp well, dat's y i suppose...Yippie!!Tmr's the last day of the week!!Good friday holiday!!!Muahahax...*grins* Got loads to do on dat day~~Home the whole day~~Chiong art and chiong revise my sci~skipped one chem practical last wk den lost track of wot Mrs Chua is tokin bout. yAwnzY~sianx 1/2...gotta figure out my colour scheme soon~~teachers naggin liaox...=.=
Saturday cut hair...Sunday go airport study wif zhiyi dey allx...Ask Sebehbeh teach mie some stuff~den go der study poa bahx...dis few topics is totally a blur to mi lorx...gotta read from scratch~*focus*
Wtf~backstabbin? Ha...wotever...dun care the hell of it nemore~Backstab all you want manx...because we dislike u anyway~And ppl don't even believe you~cummon manx..Before you backstab us, tink of a better person whom you can speak ill of us to? Dumbass~Tink!U idiot...tink...got brains not?! la~la~la~la~la~
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Monday, March 21, 2005
9:02 PM
Waah!!!Stomach hurt lyk shyt in school today...After recess jiu yun yun lidat...wanna faint wanna faint le~piang ehx...den after dat all the lessons i pa crocodile style on table clutching my bag tite...Waah!!!Why girls must so xin ku de!!!T.T Friends say i pale till cannot during assembly...dunno...went straight home after sch...
First day of school~yAwnZ...Sianzational~dunno how to describe larx. Sianx jiu dui le...Went home jiu slept a while~
Have the urge to go shoppin nehx...dunno y...shou yang yang de~So long nver go shop liaox...Wanted to go on Sunday wif dear de~budden he gonna be trasferred to somewhere else to work on Sunday~Sianx 1/2...He tmr off den goin out wif frenx...and i got CO...bloody~ His off always on da days i got somethin on de!!! *low* It's been ages since i went to town~Guess gotta wait till next wk le...He's getting his posting tmr newae~~
Ah...gonna find time to change blogskin lex...kinda sick of this skin liaox...teehee~! Lazy to do html maself...
Watchin Jay Chou's concert VCD now~he sho talented!!!Harhar...tata~*
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Sunday, March 20, 2005
10:38 PM
Hmmx..went to replenish my contacts in the mornin today~hmmx..$230 bucks...Ex horx!!! Moreover is month contacts de~~bought half a year de supply~Bloody~Degree increased by 50 each eye again!!!T.T...Nono!!! Gonna collect em by Tue.
Finished my hols hmk lex...except for my art...need more sketches bahx..Think gonna do these sketches in the mornin when i reach sch everyday bahx...Sometimes aso nth to do newae...Wanna complete my art asap so can use the time to do other stuff~Do a bit a day can finish up soon bahx...=D
Went swimming in the afternoon today...and erm...nearly drowned...yea..ya didn't read wrongly...Drowned. Leg cramp...Swallowed mouthfuls of swimming pool water before managing to swim a lil to the metal bar~Bu shi gu yi de~Sorry teddy..should've told ya i goin swimmin~Dui bu qi~hai ni dan xin le..Wo bu gan le...
Today last day of March hols le worx...hmmx...it would be a fresh start! I hope.
Tata~
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Saturday, March 19, 2005
11:24 PM
Waah!!!!Bloody!~Stupid idiotic lizard!!Waah!!!Saw a lizard climbin on my bedroom's wall and screamed my head off~T.T....T.T....T.T...Nobody at home summore! Remembered seeing so many cockroaches scrabling here and der at the HDB blocks der after CO nightwalk dat day...Xinning and I screamed so loud till got ppl look at us..well...waddaya expect? It was already 10+...Nearly cried manx...Pests!!!Shoo~T.T...T.T...Hope tmr morning wun see da lizard climbing here and der. Sobx...Dearie!!!!Hugx tite tite!
Hmmx..1 week of holidays is gone just like that...Poof! 9 days gone~~~GonE! Hmmx...finally finished the last touches of my hmk today...left 1 short summary~aiyahx..tmr morning den do~will take no longer den 15 min~Mua art? Bahx...
Hmmx...steph and I say wanna go out on a girls grp date aso no time..~sobbie~It's been so long we've hang out...We've all been busy i guess...Well...outta all the 20 peeps who were online today...at least half of em all chiongin hmk~sianx 1/2...Schools reopenin soon~gotta get back on track wif work now gurl
Guess dat's all fer today bahx...eye hurtx..dunno y~Newae gonna get my new supply of contacts tmr after....waah ex~ $200+ Daddy pay??=p
Tata~
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Friday, March 18, 2005
10:34 PM
You said i'm trying to be sacarstic...You said i keep complaining....yea....it's me alright....Mebbe i've changed...I don't recognise who this fucking bitch in the mirror anymore~She looks familiar but at the same time..distant. Who am i? I take things for granted? Maybe~ Who's gonna pull mi out of this shadow? You? Will you? Can you? The Rena you have known for years have changed i suppose~ I've told you. I hate myself~ I don't deserved to be loved?You tell me bout it. Don't sigh. I know u will when u read this post. I'll change...I'll try...But if i exceed my limits...That'll be me then....You can't change me further then. Can you?
I'm sorry for all the wrong i've done....I've said a zillion million times of 'sorrys'. Doubt u wanna hear it again.
-Na shi wo men dou hui bu qu de cong qian-
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Wednesday, March 16, 2005
5:53 PM
Hmmx...sianx...at dear's house...he's asleep...snorex~Well, nvm..i still av my bloggie to pei wo...Haven been updating the past few days...hehe...lazy...Blahx! Nothing much happened actually lorx..
Waah~March hols are already coming to an end...and guess what? I'm still slackin as usual...Bahx...all the crap bout revision have gone down the drain lar...din make time fer it newae...tmr still got CO camp...doubt av time for it lex...Not forgettin the tons of hmk i hav~god....i'm dead....@.@
Went back for art session today~ hmmx, did the frames for the printing....heex...Accept the fact Mr Bling...hehex...me and Angelia still make up the most efficient pair! =p muahahhax...
Well...guess i'd better get goin~~gotta go home le~~update soon=D Mish ya bloggie~tata~
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Thursday, March 10, 2005
8:51 PM
It might be you
Time...
I've been passing time watching trains go by
All of my life
Lying on the sand watching sea birds fly
Wishing there would be
Someone waiting home for me
Something's telling me it might be you
It's telling me it might be you
All of my life
Looking back as lovers go walking past
All of my life
Wondering how they met and what makes it last
If I found the place
Would I recognize the face
Something's telling me it might be you
Yeah, it's telling me it might be you
So many quiet walks to take
So many dreams to make
And with so much love to make
I think we're gonna need some time
Maybe all we need is time...
And it's telling me it might be you
All of my life
I've been saving love songs and lullabies
And there's so much more
No one's ever heard before
Something's telling me it might be you
Yeah, it's telling me it must be you
And I'm feeling it'll just be you all of my life
It's you, It's you
I've been waiting for all of my life
Maybe it's you (It's you), maybe it's you (It's you)
I've been waiting for you all of my life
Maybe it's you, maybe it's you
I've been waiting for all of my life
Man~ this theme song from Tootsie can really send tears trickling down my cheeks.Dunno why aso~hmmx...Tootsie's a nice show~~Quite an old film lex...but it's nice~
Feelins have been all mixed up in me totally~Sighx~ found out dat you know, sumtimes..nobody sincerely cares bout you~good friends are said to be the ones to be always be ya side~but how many of these good friends do you really have? Your loved one? Well, nah...they're too busy at times with their own stuff as well to have the time to pay attention to your every emotional needs.I've to admit i'm one such person who hasn't much time for my loved one and close friends either.Ah~ Why is human life such a trouble at times? I mean, where are my "good friends" and "loved one" when i really need them? A msg or call might be sweet~ but where are the shoulders i can securely lean on when i feel like crying my heart out? No such person has crossed my path before so far who can come up to me and say,"My shoulders are always here for you to lean on,let it all out gurl." I've times when i get real depressed and emotionally unbalanced and stuff but who comes to my aid? Well, i end up confiding in my blog~ here i am..wetting the keyboard as i type out today's entry~Don't bother askin me why am i feeling like dat...cos it'll make me feel doubly worse~yes, i beg you, don't probe. Pls...jus treat it as if i'm havin mua PMS or stuff~ Cos this is yet another private space i need to have within muaself~I need to learn to be stronger~
Tata...
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
9:34 PM
Bah~~had a weird dream bout dinosaurs eatin ppl up~Heck~wat was dat aniwae~Weird dream~Image still vivid in mua mind though~ Hmmx...ppl say dreamx can tell u wot would happen to ya in real life~Dinosaurs? ermx....No link to mua life? Ah...^heck^
Hmmx, got back mua PoA~damn! So many careless mistakes!!!Got a b3~ Cannot!!!POA must get A1 de!!!Though needs lotsa memo wk and proper understanding but can be done de lorx~ i know it muaself but didn't put in effort to study for this particular test~ ermx...to be honest, not onli this test i guess..some other subjects as well~Math ah!!!B3~lotsa careless mistakes too! Yes, and i mean LOTS! Wad da hell was i thinking when i was doing the freakin paper! Guess i was drained out of all mua energy le bahx...after sch lehx...Ahh!!!Rena!!!Why aren't you settled yet!!??Cummon gurl!!!It's O level yr!!! Wake up!!!!!!Argh! Hate this. Damn! Try to smack myself awake at times but...didn't work out dat well~ okie~~got sum As...but not gd enuff~~Spent too much time on my Art lex~~and of course, too much time online~ Argh! March hols is the only time now dat i can use to catch up on most of the revision i missed out bah~But where got time! Got hol assignments, co practises, sci practical and theory sessions, poa lessons, projects, mae term! I mean~ cummon~i'm human! I need rest~I need mua personal space and time!!!Ahh!! 24/7? Not enuff!!!!Waah!~How nehx~*no focus*Wa liewx!
Phew~went to watch Hitch with steph and xinning todae~waah....dunno how long never watch movie le lor~normally watch at least once a wk wif teddy de~now he workin so bo bian~ Movie was not bad~~wanna watch it again, and i guess dis time round wif dear le bahx~ heex. Date doc~ha-ha!
Jay chow's an jing is playing on mua winamp~~bloody nice song~
O yes, i wanna say this, I DESPISE attached guys who hook up wif another girl! Bloody fuckers. Watch your ass man! People dun admire your charm of being able to "attract" girls. They look down on you bloody asshole! Dun act smart! Get a life jerk! If i were your girlfriend, i'd have dumped you long ago~Catch you fooling around AGAIN even in my prescence and u'll get it from me you bastard! Gurl~ leave him alone man,he sleeps with other girls and you know he's not fuckin worth it!You can tolerate dat? I'd have smacked him right in his damn face if i were you.(sorry for da vulgarities~)May you become a woman in your next life bastard,get hooked with a man like u. O...no~~i forgot....you'll still be a bitch even if you reincarnate as a woman...whoops~my mistake. Fuck off~
GrRrr~!
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
9:24 PM
Nobody's perfect~I make mistakes too ya know~I need to be forgiven~
I try not to tink
About the pain i feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now i try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
Cuz we lost it all
Nothin lasts forever
I'm sorry, i can't be perfect
Now it's just too late, and we can't go back on
I'm sorry, i can't be perfect
Nothing's gonna change the things tat you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard jus to talk to you
But you don't understand~
Hmmx, old song huh~listening to this songs let me engage deep in my tots~
*-Broken Relationships-*caused severe damage to peoples' hearts~ My dear friend~Dont be upset...I know it's hard to let go~It's only thru falls which makes you stronger~Learn to let go and gradually, you will .Dun let it affect your studies...It's an important year for all yea? Dat guy is a bastard~not worth sacrificing so much for him when he doesn't even care to look at you when you tear~Give it up babe~U deserve more than dat~Dat fuggin jerk will get his retribution~No freakin gal will lay their eyes on him~ever~hush hush kkx? You still have us, your friends! =)
Sighx~sighx~so many break-up cases nowadayx~Broken hearted peepx are all around mi~~aah~~! -.- TEachers also get involved~wad de~~~
Tata~!
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Monday, March 07, 2005
10:15 PM
Bloody! Think u so gd in your so called "art" is ur business! Dunid to go show off de! Go away ah! WTH~
Lessons went on as per normal today~Rain rain rain! hee~ After so many days of hot weather, mother nature has finally showered us with some love~erh~hehe...Had poa test! Waah~die le~ My B/s never balance~sobby sob sobx~overall was oki~Din study much on this chapter though~Full of tots on mua mind when i did studyin last night*no focus~*
Sakae sushi! waah!!!!Love Jap food~ spend bout $13++...eat till i bao till cannot~~~muahahax~
Met teddy today after his work at 6.30! MIss him SoOooOo MUch! Muackx...talked bout sum stuff after that....shh..cannot reveal~~Hmmx, I seriously dun like people to lie to me or keep anything from me. Will make mi even angrier compared to tellin mi the truth~ Well~hope he remembered wot i said~~Muackx!
Wanna cut hair!!March holidays are marching round the corner! Tata~*
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Saturday, March 05, 2005
8:53 PM
Men~ bloody hell~~ saw so many men peeking down at chabors' shirt today near whitesands..Damn~Bian Tai! Hope they'll get sore eyes forever! Have big boobs got prob isit! Must stare at em like sumting you've never seen before like dat! They nver wear bra their prob la! Stare Stare stare wot shit! Bunch of perverts! Old man stare, army guys aso stare! Eyes drop out den know ah! Turn me off manx! Got gf beside them still look at other woman! Jerks!BAsTaRds! See till fall down summore! Kaox! Dunno how to zi dong! Gf not appealing enough isit? Must look at other women look until lidat! Hope you all will turn into busty bitches in your next lives! Let men of your type ogle at you till you fan wei! To hell with these bastards! &%$#!
Dun understand guys sumtimes, got gf le still ogle at other women ogle till lidat! Pathetic man~ like to ogle at women go change sex la! Can admire your body the whole day...Girls look at hunks too~ but not to the extend of see till fall down right! Walao~ See girls jiu see, dun make sum stupid comments say wot da part not big enuff~butt too small~~WtH! Not all women you see are sex symbols, so get a grip guys! If Singaporean girls don't meet ur HIGH standards, go find some caucasian girl who fits YOUR size~
Phew~oki...anger vented~ =p....
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
10:07 PM
Heex, read da lyrics neh~~Blog entry is written below newae...
Beautiful Soul
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me
CHORUS
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I want to chase
You're the one I want to hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You might need time to think it over
But I'm just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry
C'mon let's try
REPEAT CHORUS
Woohoo~nice song~~I dun wan another pretty face, i dun wan jus anyone to hold~~
Muahax! Teddy sent mie dis song not long ago~~nice neh~heex...
Hmmx...didn't slp well last nite..had nightmare...Waah~~! Sian 1/2~ Wake up le den had difficulty slpin liaox...No jing shen today~
Took a long time to decide whether i wanna go for the sec 3 camp or notx...but guess, i'll jus forgo it bahx...3 days can do lots of stuff lorx...though it's one of the last camp, i dun think i'll miss out much bahx. Moreover still got Co camp lehx...sacrifice~~hahax...need rest too.....yAwnZ!
STayed bac fer aRT today~~~Mr *Pinky* Ng was der to help~haha...we gals had fun poking fun at him~(no flirtin pls...) he very humorous...muahaha. People told me he looks a bit like teddy~~and i was like....
-.-" Say side view look a bit lyk him....dunno larx...I don't tink so. Dun care~
Went to find Teddy after that....hmmx...mebbe shouldn't av gone to see him in the first place~~dunno lar....but it was nice seeing him since it was quite a few days that we didn't get together...~Blah blah blahx~Den got one stupid guy ask for mua no. on my way home~ ERpx....
-.- I diaox him and walked away.No way am i interested to know someone who picks up girls jus like tat.Bastards.Idiots. Whateva ya call em!=X By da way~He sho tall siax...a bit scary lorx...den wif 2 of his frenx aso~
Hmmx...nth much happened le bahx~tmr got oral...muahahx! tata~!
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