Wednesday, September 27, 2006
11:30 PM
M.I.S.U.N.D.E.R.S.T.O.O.D
I'm feeling darn horrible.Because it really sucks to feel ignored. But i'd rather feel this way than to hurt you time and time again.
Down to cafe again today.Met Stephy at PS. Mum's sick, had to rush home prepare dinner and go to doctor's to fetch her medicine. So couldn't attend today's grouping. Bah~ Wonder what was that about.
Sigh, my thoughts are all over the fuckin place. I jus need a day out with my friends. But sadly, we don't do the things we used to do anymore. We don't talk the way we used to anymore. WE'RE NOT THE WAY WE WERE ANYMORE...
*don't use that tone on me.You know i fuckin don't like it.And it's not funny.*
To that guy who tried to threaten my bestie's cousin, fuck you jerk. Think of your own consequences you must face. Grow up dude. Fuckin 18 and still acting like a child. *tsk tsk*Try posting up that darn video! You try! You can be easily charged with 2 charges.... Wise up lar. STUPID PPL WITH STUPID TRICKS THEY TRY TO PULL OFF.
[-----ah-----]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
2:26 AM
[playing:Tui Hou. those lyrics speak for my heart.]
I'm freaking tired. And I'm waiting for my stupid hair to dry(as always).
Didn't manage to sleep well last night. My mind was practically stuffed with thoughts i didn't realise exist. That explains why I feel pretty restless and all now. Furthermore, I had PaceSetter's workshop today. Mrs Thomas's interesting. =) I enjoyed the way she teaches and yadda on and on with her supposedly "god-sent experiences" stories. However, i feel exactly how Karen feels. I don't like rules. =( I'm beginning to have doubts about joining Pace. I suddenly have this thought of just quitting it all and leave myself without a CCA. Urgh.
It was then to Far East Plaza with Karen tweety bird. =) Retail therapy is really no therapy at all!!!!You'll just get a big hole in your pocket.The amount of satisfaction decreases as the number of times retail therapy occurs increases. Bought a top, a pair of heels. And guess what, I wanted to deposit money but i ended up spending it all. Bah~ WTF...boohoo. I'm dead broke now. Fuck lar. HOw?! Sponsors anyone? =X
Went on down to BlendInn. Da jie came on down to have dinner with stephy darl and me. It's been ages since we've last talked like how we did. I do miss those dearest moments, when we used to spend the whole night at Pasir Ris park talking about nothing at all. It just seems so difficult to do that anymore...*Sigh*
Talking about reminiscing about the past eh. Stephy wants to turn back time to when she was in Sec 2, da jie on the other hand, Sec 4. Come to think of it, i have outlived the stage of wanting to turn back time. I just plainly miss secondary school life, dat's all but not to the extent of wanting to turn back time i guess. Dat's pretty weird, because so far, secondary school days were the most memorable days of my life . Perhaps i'm just hoping for better moments to start with tomorrow. I don't mean literally, tomorrow. As you know, tomorrow never ends...
Ah, my head's spinning. And my stomach's churning. I've been feeling this way the whole day. Ah, it's not a good feelin~
[Things happen for a reason...]
[Stay.the.same.I.wanna.be.free.i'm.sorry.i.jus.can't.bear.to.speak.my.mind.
it's.definitely.killing.me.you.know.you're.a.precious.friend.let's stay.that.way.]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Monday, September 25, 2006
8:24 PM
there's sumting i can't wait to get off my chest. I'm dreading the thought of hurting you. fuck.
RENA. FUCK YOU. =(
I'm accumulating bad karma...
I wish my darlin was with me.
*sob*
[leave me alone.]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Saturday, September 23, 2006
9:46 PM
My head's spinning. My nose feels as if it's not part of me. It's gonna drop off anytime.I'm down with flu. >.<>
I've been searching for contacts and lookin through the nxt possible appointment i can fix up nxt week ever since i got home...Some people who're condemning this job are helping no further by pretending they want to help me..WTF..This job may not be the one i'll be in for long, i must be true to myself, for i know the path i want to take,and this is not it.. However, it's a platform for growth.Self-growth. Steph's right, you get to learn loads. And i mean, LOADS you won't get to experience in other forms of jobs. You get to see how people really are behind their pretty masks they put on all the time. You learn how to cope with rejections and disagreements. You learn that it's important to work as a team together....etc.
I find Mr Kenny's advices very true and from the heart. I find myself nodding and agreeing to a lot of things he says. He's a great advisor i must say. Not many people can make me so impressed. I've always thought advisors are stuck-up ppl. Haha.
You get to understand what true friendship means. When the so called "a friend" refuses to pick up your calls, avoids meeting up with you, no matter how "true" he/she describes this particular friendship, you know it's not real. He/she just don wanna get involved in your so called "network". A friend tells you, he/she is not interested. A friend do not ignore you to send the same message across.
You get to see how one can mature so drastically workin in this line. I've seen my own friends grow. I'm seeing them mature and lead people so well i can't believe they're the same people they were before.=) However, the common topic we find sharing most of the time would always be work related and it's no longer as easy to come up with anything much to talk about. Oh well.
I jus missed those days we could hang out and go to movies, pool,Sentosa trip blah blah whenever, wherever we want to. Without arranging beforehand that is.. I think the Sentosa trip will never come around. Ah...
Lastly.
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY WEIBIN! MAY YA HAVE MANY OTHER HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAYS! =)
[yadda yadda~*]
Latest favourite....
Mouth shut-The veronicas
I kept my mouth shut from the start
I guess I left you in the dark
You thought you knew me but you don't
You say you love me but you won't
When you find out who I am
I kept my mouth shut for too long
All this time you got me wrong
And now I'm in this way too far
I'm about to break your heart
Tear everything we had apart
Coz I'm feeling lost
When I'm in your arms
The reasons are gone
For why I was holding onto you
I tried so hard
To be the one (be the one)
I don't like who I've become
Won't keep my mouth shut any more
I've had my share of closing doors
And now I know
I'm not afraid
I know exactly what you'll say
But I'm sorry it's too late
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
2:08 AM
Ah. Mum's sick. =( I'm worried, she doesn't wanna see a doc.
Ah....>.<
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Friday, September 22, 2006
1:24 AM
Ah. I'm too tired to blog. A lot of thoughts running through my mind. Not to mention i'm having a headache now.
boo. HOW HOW HOW HOW!!!!!!!!!! =( Sigh. I'm so bothered! Fuck lar. KNS. KNN. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Before i end here,
FRENZY TINY WISHES CINDY A HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Meet up soon ok!!!!!!!!! =D
[it's driving me up against the wall]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Thursday, September 21, 2006
12:14 AM
I was bored and fiddled with my sunnies after reachin home. There. The toot face i was tryin to pull off.
3 days in a row, 3rd argument with mum. I don't wanna give a damn anymore. *rolls eyes*
She's an elder, whatever i say won't count but hers will. So why waste my breath talkin and saying things she won't even listen to? WATEVER LA.
It's been a few days i've last seen darling Stephy. Miss ya gurl. =) I'm craving for a drinking session. Boo. Ok, i sound like an alcoholic. Bah~
Watched "The Devil Wear's Prada" for the second time. Don't scold me siao ok. It's a damn nice show i won't mind watching it for a third, forth time. Was out with Qing the day...omg...feel so guilty lar! Next time spend time with your boi lar, he jealous of me le lor.Your off day spend with me, not with him... =X And when i said " never talk to your boi boi ah?" on msn, to this dear girl, she told me her boi boi is boxer(her dog) and he's not at home. =.= And she's talking to her darling (me). Oh my tian~ I'm speechless. Haha. =D Joey! I nver snatch Qing from you!!! I return her to you ok!!! >.<>.<>.< oh my tian!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Met Bling at the junction between CS and TM. Oh my....Say he too lazy do hair so wear cap out. Haha. Oh wells. It's been a long time eh lao shi? =)
[.the faint smile.]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
12:33 AM
2nd post of the day...or rather, 1st post of 20/th Sept...I did up another collage out of boredom. bah~ here it is! Gave me a chance to look thru the amount of fotos i have in my com. Lookin at certain pics made me look back at the days that have passed by.
Managed to talk to Bling online for a while. He was in school. Haha. Hao lao shi wor......=)
I miss secondary school life. Sigh. Wait till i'm 18!!!You wait!!!Then can club ler....TGT! lols.
3 people i know with the same name. 3 different relations. 3 different feelings. 3 different attitudes. Why must it be you! =( sigh. why must things be so fuckin outta place. Somebody put it right please? >.<
I've been ignorin a few ppl recently. And i don't feel the least guilty. The number of people i block on msn is on the increase. Perhaps i just don't feel like talking. Tat's all. I'm sorry. Perhaps just feeling the "EARLY pms-y symdrome"?...Bah...You don't know what PMS can do to girls. (however, i somehow feel tat it's not the pms-y thing tat's drivin me nuts. The way i'm blabbering nonsense using tat excuse is already nonsensical for i seldom get PMS get the better of me often.) ah. I TINK FRENZY TINY IS ON THE LOOSE.
[i wish i can shut ______'s(fill in the blanks) mouth with some tape. Tmd. The world don revolve around you YoU yOU YOU. fucking get things right lar. WTH. It's getting on people's nerves you know tat?! Urgh. Stupid ppl.Perhaps only my darlings can understand why. Stephy? Qing? any idea what i'm referring to?]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
8:22 PM
New layout. =) i was bored so i decided to change the blogskin.
Right...Daryl taught me a new word today...
PRECOCIOUS.
Meaning: unusually advanced or mature in development, esp. mental development: a precocious child. He said he is precocious. I don't think i agree.....lols.
=p
Ah~ suddenly got so many things to fret about. Henry and Joshua keep telling me not to worry. =( I'm trying. Seems so stuck lor everything. OH well.
So many things are cropping up suddenly. Have to go to Suntec on Friday to collect cert at 3.30pm and to return all the badges and stuff. There goes my Sentosa trip with my beloved STephy! TMD.$%^#$&$%&^.
Gotta go down to school for Pacesetter's stuff nxt Mon. Ah~*
Meeting up with Qing tmr! Wee =)
HAPPY 18TH BDAY ALVIN.Good luck for ur sup paper. (you may not read this but...oh well. )
[conked.out.]
[I think the love's gone.]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Monday, September 18, 2006
10:50 PM
Sigh. I do not know wat to do to convince. My mum's stubborn to the core and i know how far this will go . She said she'd rather not have this daughter who don listen to her. WTF.My heart sank.Worse. My dad listens to her. Heart breaking.She rather want me to stay home and not work. And that's not what i fuckin want.However, i do wish i have more support on my side. I'm not the type to be defeated by these words. I know what i want. I hope i can hold on longer. I will try my best. I hope my words will hold true and make them believe. Fuck. This feeling definitely suck.
This may not be the direction i want to head in the future. I know it.But there's no harm tryin. It won't kill would it? Sigh. =( I'm stuck.
For once i'd just hope she'd just put her trust and faith in me.
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
2:06 AM
It's disheartening. But i won't give up. =)
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Sunday, September 17, 2006
12:52 AM
I'm jus dead tired.
Was out with Stephy darl. Town. Watched "The Banquet". Ending sucked. Loads of bloodshed.
Suan le, too tired to care. Why should i bother when you don't even give a damn. -.-
[i.am.guai.lan. Who gives a fuck bout tat.]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
10:11 PM
Wat's left of me..
I'm bored. Everyday's dat stupid routine. Wake up,imf,home,lunch,sleep,dinner,online,sleep. And it repeats itself.Sigh.
Credits to Angel....from her b'day party. =] 
With the b'day gurl!! i look like a toot. Woo. newaes...
Muacks! (look at Eugan's face)
Eugan.Rena.Angel
=e.n.d=
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
11:29 PM
Hmm. I have another fetish. Hehe.Shh......
It's off day today. =] Hung out with Sharon, CH and Angelia at Bugis. Right...as always, i ended up spending the most today. =.= And i was offered a job at Bugis...Hmm, if i receive a call from her, then i have a job!!! Hey, the person approached me to work ok...First time sia....lol. =]
Went to Marina. Urgh. I've been goin there for the freakin past week. I'm so sick of the place i can die.
Oh well, tmr's the day! Work resumes and more delegates are comin in. Omgomg...my level serves the ministers. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wish mi luck.
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Monday, September 11, 2006
10:59 PM
First day at work at IMF. Security was tight but could be better. We were stuck at security checkpoints. Even the 5.30am shift ppl were also stuck outside. So in short, all of us were late. Lol. I only sold like 2 cups of coffee. Haha. And tmr's off day. =] Wee. Pasir Ris Dr 3 in the mornin is practically like a ghost town in the wee hours. Not a single vehicle in sight. And for the first time i saw a 3A. I used to think it was only 3. Bah~
Saw Shawn at work too! Same group as Kok Sheng so i suppose he's an ice man as well...hurhur. I'm glad the banquet co staff are damn fun. =] And it happens i know em all!
I'm darn bored lar. Was dead beat by the time i got home. Luckily tmr's off day. Daddy went like, "woah, work one day off one day ah?! " =.= Lols....next off is on Sunday! I know we made the policemen's day at the checkpoint today. Lols. Felt damn dumb can?! We were spinning round and round the area tryin to get outta Suntec. Lols.
Will be makin a trip down to PRSS tmr. No plans after dat. Bah~ guess i'll jus go home and crash in bed or wad bah...Life's boring, when everyone around you has something on hand. *sigh*
ciao~
currently playin:
Irresistable-Jessica Simpson
You know
I don't know what it is
But everything about you is so irresistible
Don't you try to tell me that he's not my type
To hide what I feel inside
When he makes me weak with desire
I know that I'm supposed to make him wait
Let him think I like the chase
But I can't stop fanning the fire
I know I'm meant to say no
But he's irresistible
Up close and personal
Now inescapable
I can hardly breathe
More than just physical
Deeper than spiritual
His ways are powerful
Irresistible to me
Oh I can hardly breathe, yeah
Don't you think I'm trying to tell my heart what's right
That I should really say goodnight
But I just can't stop myself
Maybe I'll tell him that I feel the same
That I don't want to play no game
Cause when I feel his arms hooked around me
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Sunday, September 10, 2006
1:45 AM
Just friends. I guess that's the way things will be.
[wo hui fa zhe dai, ran hou wang ji ni, jie zhe jing jing bi shang yan.]
My emotions are a lil shaken up. I do not know why. Sigh.
Bestie's sick somehow and i wanna make her well again.But i just dont know how. I mean, not literally sick....Just.......sigh.
This bug is contagious. Now would this damn bug shoo and leave my darling alone. Humph.
Things don't often go the way we want to. In fact, they often turn out the opposite. They make people upset, and think why things happened that way. Regrets, and hell loads of afterthoughts comes pourin down at the same time, it's killin. You try to cast these thoughts all away, but it keeps running at the back of your brain. You do something to hopefully distract yourself from all those you're feeling and then wonder, why the hell am i running away from it when i know i have to face it sooner or later. You lie awake at night tryin to get to sleep, but to no avail.You cry until your pillow's wet and wonder what's actually making you tear so much. You find your pillow wet the next morning and think about the reasons why you cry and all those you've thought about creeps back into your head gradually. You know someone will eventually get hurt, the fact is, someone already is hurt. You. You want to say things but you can't bear to for fear of whatever reasons. You want to get things right on track but it just seems too strenuous.
I'VE BEEN THROUGH, DONE DAT. And i know this feeling sucks more than anything else.
Sigh. WHY THE FUCK DO THINGS HAVE TO BE SO COMPLICATED?!
I may not know how you're really feelin deep inside. However,know that i'm always here for you. =] You know you'll have my support no matter wad darling.
[IMU. But i guess, it shall just stop here. You're just .Cold.]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
12:05 AM
Shayne Ward. With those dark green eyes. =] Captivating eyes.
Went to collect imf pass at Suntec. WTF I'm so damn sick of Suntec City lers. Kept goin there these few days. Tamade. Damn sian i tell you. Qing was nice enuff to pei me....
Went on to Marina Square for a walk and all...This dance competition was on. And man! Those ppl can really dance!!!! Like a 6 year old kid can dance damn well can!!! Hip Hop, street jazz and all. Real fab. =] We stood there like for almost an hour watchin. O.O My eyes nearly popped out. And guess wat. I saw Shane, a pri sch friend, at the dancefloor. Damn! God, i didn't know he could dance. He did great. =] I was too shy to say hi though. And hehe, he was too far away. =] I kinda missed him. His jokes. His sister used to say, "hey gurl, u forgot about my bro already?!" WadaEff....I din ok. Didn't contact didnt mean I forgot. Glad he's doin ok. =] Hope he gets cutter by the day!
Tmr's Angel's birthday!!! =D Would be off to her chalet. But mum say die die gotta be home by 12 midnight. Sigh, cos IMF's on the nxt day. =[
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Saturday, September 09, 2006
12:13 AM
Sibeh sian. Woked up at like a freakin 4.30am this morning to attend IMF training. =.= Total seh can...Slept at 2+ so i had barely 3 hrs of sleep. =] congress kopitiam was fun...however, workin with the erms..."wat's his name" was fun though although nobody came to purchase aniting. We jus ended up crapping till work ended at 11am. Hiek.
Hur! Early in the morning meet yandao on the train!!!! Woohoo! I kept sneaking peeks at him lar!!! *blushes* and i realised we were both sneaking peeks at each other. The way the hiking bag dropped onto the floor and how he picked it up shyly is like . OMG. DARN CUTE CAN!!! However, his dressing din suit the...erm... bag. I mean. He was like whoa, in a casual jacket, inside, he 's wearin a white singlet, jeans, hair properly done up, sneakers. =] Cute. See! I scan ka liao!!!!But he had a hiking bag. =X Haha, I'm so hua chi cos it's been a long time since i've last seen such a cutie. And i mean it, he is CUTE. *swoons*Ok, Rena stop it. Shush. =x
Met up wit Xinning and Wen today =] it's been ages since we've last met up~ =] hee.
Then pool with Sharon,Ch,Stephy and Qing at Bedok. Omg, i ended up nearly dozing off....
Met up wit Wei Li, Cindy at Starbucks with Sharon. Wahahahahaha. Hey, wat's wrong with having a frenzy tiny ah?!! You don't get it often ok!!!! =X Ok, i was a little siao. Really! Just a teeny weeny bit of siao. hehe. =x ok. I shall diam diam.
Here. I'm home. And yea, gotta go down to suntec to collect IMF pass tmr between 11-3pm. Sian can. WTF. I'm never goin down there for as long as i can after IMF. =[ Sian. So yea, wat's for tmr??? No idea. Sigh.
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Thursday, September 07, 2006
10:14 PM
I hate lizards and cockroaches. ESP flying ones. Shrieks! Not when they are a metre away from me but once they come too close for comfort. NONONOONONONO~~!!!!
Mama rescued me from the lizard. The almost 6cm long lizard. She sent it to hell with Baygon. Hur hur.
I'm on to my last book. Finished the two already. It's on to 'Saint Valentine'... Sigh. See? I'm pathetic. Can't seem to find anything to do, anyone to go out with. Man, this sucks. I jus end up reading and spinning around in this stupid world of mind thinking about nothing at all. Fuck. Made me realise, where did all my friends go. Steph, Josh,Henry, etc are busy at HealthWise. Others are either busy workin or busy studyin for promos or jus too busy with their own stuffs to be bothered bout me. I sound pathetic eh. Sad. I am sad. Even George said i'm "kelian" . FINE.
Seems like i'm pretty left alone. It sucks feeling this way.
Tmr's imf training. From 7am-11am. And what am i gonna do after dat? NO IDEA. Sigh, can't my life be any interesting!?
Regrets. I should have gone over to Canada. Where everything would be different. EVERYTHING. And for sure, i won't be whining. In a blog entry. And get it, there is NO ONE I CAN WHINE TO, dat's y i'm here. Ke lian bah?
Hey, it's the second entry of the day, this shows how bored i really am. FUCKIN SIAN!!!!! T.T
[someone please push me off the building. PLEASE. This instant, i think i'm really goin crazy cooped up in this shitty world]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
3:41 PM
Woke up at a effing 1.30pm today.
No plans for the day=sleep more=laze around in bed=ROT.
Ha.
Bah~ been blog hopping for the past hour. Didn't find anithing interesting to begin with. Boo.
How nice it was to quarrel with mum early in the morning. And now, she doesn't allow me to stay over at Angel's bday chalet cos i got IMF early in the morning. Kanasai. Urgh.
I wanna find something to occupy myself with!!!! C'mon, who wants to accompany me to Little India. Lols. *screams!!!!!!!!*
Ciao.
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
12:28 AM
SOS!!!!!! Urgh.
Stephy came over today. =) Went to Far East Plaza. Retail therapy ended up being no therapy at all! It all ended up with two big holes in our pockets. Lol.
I'm feelin much better now. But it's contagious. Now dearest Stephy has caught it. Boo. I hope it goes away soon. Get more rest darling, and make sure u think things through in the right state of mind. And don go crazy!!!! Cos u'll end up like me having no crazy spells left when i even wanna be crazy. =( Bah...
It was then to pasir ris park to slack , YET AGAIN....yeah. *nods* See. My life's boring. Wake up, freshen up, eat, go out, go home. Routined life. I hate it. And now, i'm feeling so lack of company. Sigh. Wadever
I feel like clubbing. Jus doin something crazy. Hehe.
[i'm lost , you got me lookin for the rest of me, got the best of me. You got me losin it.]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
8:28 PM
Good show. Made me tink through lots of stuff. Haha. I love their dress-ups and all! OMG OMG OMG!!! =X Ok, shuddup.
Jus got back from the movie with CH, Sharon, and Angelia. Managed to slack at Starbucks for a while after dat. Was contemplating if i should take 3 all the way to Punggol and back. Haha yea. Guess wat, i've never felt so desperate for company before. I began calling up people from my contact list in my fone. But yea, to no avail.Seems like everyone is busy. Except me....Like a sai can tat type of feeling. =( OH well, and here i am....HOME. Haha. I feel like laughin at myself for my stupidness can....Oh well....And yes, i was telling ppl i didn't wanna go home.
And this person on the bus kept staring. I was dressed in black and he was too. And he kept staring. Like, he was sitting diagonally opposite me and stared can! O.O WTF. Like never see girl dressed in black before. =.= He did look familiar though. BAh~* Wadeva.
I think i should STOP dwelling in those thoughts. Jus makes me feel damn low thinking of em. Suan le bah. SUAN LE!!!!!!!!!!! >.<>
I miss my Karen and Michelle to bits.
[i never knew liking someone would be so painful. I'd rather not have this feeling ever again. Boo.]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
2:20 AM
sometimes i jus wanna laugh at my own foolishness. It's over.
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
12:14 AM
[it's gonna be me =)]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Monday, September 04, 2006
1:51 PM
I've thought it through. Thought stuff through while wailing the whole night through till i fell asleep. How nice. And i lay dead on the bed from 12pm till now thinking about nothin at all, just staring at my glow in the dark stars on the ceiling. Until mum called and told me to get lunch myself. Whatever, I have absolutely no appetite so i'll skip tat. Bah~
I had enough i guess. I'm jus too tired to continue thinking about what's troubling me. I feel like damn stupid can. Fuck. Nobody can help me for sure, for i can't put my thoughts out in words, i can't speak my mind because sometimes, you just don't know where to start. It's dat type of feeling tat's driving me crazy by the minute. I know i have to put it away, or else i'll never cross this barrier of mine ever. A part of me want to get things through, another part of me tells me to leave it all alone. What the fuck am i suppose to do?! I'm jus bound to be caught in the middle. All the time. All the fuckin time. It's not a good feeling when you can't solve your own problems and ppl still keep coming to you for "answers". Nobody will understand how it feels. It sucks in short. Sigh. Fuck it. What the fuck is wrong with you Rena Heng? Urgh.
Forget bout those unhappy stuffs. Stephy darl, thnks for being there. =) You're loved. =) And Qing, i'll be ok alright? =) I'm just happy for you. Ni men yao chang chang jiu jiu wor! =) Xing fu shi zi ji zhui xun de....you did it all.By yourself. Be happy. =)
As for me....oh well. Sigh.
[it's too c.o.m.p.l.i.c.a.t.e.d]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
1:38 AM
i've never felt so fucked up before. Seriously.
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Sunday, September 03, 2006
1:07 AM
[N.u.m.b]
[F.a.i.n.t]
ifeellikei'mfalling...
This feeling's like damn fuckin irritating. I'll get better. I hope.
Jus came back from Pasir Ris park wit Stephy darl. It's been ages since we've last talked like dat at the park. =D
My head's like spinning the whole time the entire day. It's a terrible feeling man. Like I can't stand properly for long. I nid my beauty sleep i guess. Spent my whole day watchin Kim Sam Soon and Full House all over again when i was suppose to sleep instead. Didn't eat. No appetite for the entire day. Perhaps this is causing me to feel all wobbly and giddy.
Things are getting complicated. I dunno wad should i do about it now. It gets on my nerves when ppl don't get what i'm getting at.
Oh yes. I don't like "FAKE PEOPLE". Don't pretend to care. I thought it was just me, but I guess i'm not the only one feeling that way. I'm just stuck right in between to act as a form of common topic between you guys and stuff. It sucks feeling like dat.
I hate it when people go through me to do stuff or get msgs across. LIke wtf. I hate it. I really do.
[the truth is, i never think i'm good enough. Perhaps i'm really not]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Saturday, September 02, 2006
9:46 PM
Urgh. I shouldn't be feeling this way. It sucks. Fjjlb member jiu shi zhe yang. >.<
Sometimes the situation gets the better of me. Why am i so prone to things i don wanna be prone to!!!AH........~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK.
I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody is breaking up
And throwing their love away
But I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say
Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me,
I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u
And now, ain't nothing else I could need
And now, I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me I got you, we'll be making love endlessly
I'm with you (baby I'm with you)
Baby you're with me (baby you're with me, higher)
[someone, jus make me feel better? sigh]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
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[it's gonna be me =)]