;i keep up with a fake smile.Do you ever notice?



I FAKE A SMILE ALL THIS WHILE


DID YOU EVER REALISE?

It's me.So what?
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*Rena Heng
*aka Tiny,Nana
*17*
*30/5/89*
*TP,Hospitality and Tourism*
*PRSS,QNPS*

Her world revolves around...
*her friends
*family
*you
*her lovelies =3
*clubs
*drinking
*shopping
*bitching
*freedom

BEWARE,SHE SNAPS
I'm not who you think i really am. Don't like reading wat's here? Buzz off. =)
DO NOT JUDGE ME,period.

HER WANTS
*New navel stud*
*plain bikini*
*Waist belt*
*A pair of flats*
*Grey/white off shoulder*
*tan*
*Vintage dress*
*New phone*


THE ONES

Abigail
Adler
Arjuna
Audrina
Alpharian
Alvin
Boon Ern
Daphne
Daryl
Dixon
de-bonbons
Eugene
Genevieve
Hailing
Hakim
Hidayu
Hisa
Idy
Jacquelin
Jeslyn
Jingxuan
Justin
Jie Hui
Karen
Kok Sheng
Letitia
Pauline
Quan Zhang
Qiao
Royston
Stephanie
Shihan
Siok Wen
Sihan
Wei Li
Wei Jie
Weslie
Xiuqing
Yi ting
Yiwen
Yu Heng
Zhiyi
Zhu Xiaoming
Ziying
CUT THE CRAP

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TUCKED AWAY

Monday, August 29, 2005

8:28 PM

Had sci-prac todae~~Phy was tricky. Chem was straightforward. Shuldn't av much prob bahx. Tmr's English paper and i'm wondering why am i here now when i'm suppose to study..Urgh. Bah~


Went to Wb's house todae after prac. Didn't do much...Slacked the whole time...Slept from 1-bout 3~ and i'm still tired. Feeling giddy. Something's wrong wif me but i donno wot is it. YaWnx...I wanna be hugged for an hour~~~=p. Played Ps2 after dat. Guess i suck at gaming. Bah...whatever.


My moods av been deepin low...Dont wanna elaborate. Dont ask. Dont comment. Thankiew for that favour. I'll be ok, i guess. =)


It'll be teacher's day in lyk 2 days time...gotta go back on Fri....Sept hols for a wk~~And prelims continues~ -.- Low~

some hearts are meant to be broken;;

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

7:37 PM

help....my blog counter is siaox le~~ Dunno how to count onex~~~i wanna change!!!Links anyone?

some hearts are meant to be broken;;

Sunday, August 21, 2005

10:12 PM

Second post for the day! Felt lyk bloggin so here it goes...

Today was particularly a long day...Stupid printer couldn't work...Can't find the damn installation disc. Urgh. Went all the way to Wb's house to print...Spent 4 bucks on taxi fare..Broke....luckily it's the end of the week. Couldn't find anybody to help mi print online. Suay sia... -.- The taxi driver who drove me back home was crazy. His air conditioner was blast on the lowest...Siao one lor...Freezing cold sitting in the cab lar...

Was talking online with Ching Wei...it's been ages since we last chatted. Met him at KFC on saturday with doreen...Gosh. Doreen changed so much. She looks prettier with long hair...They say i slim down a lot, become prettier le. Ermx. Does dat come together or does each of the comment stands on its own. Haha. Mebbe cos i wear black seems thinner and black dark dark de mar,cannot see properly...so they tot i become prettier. The fact is the opposite...haha. Zits are popping up, happily settling themselves on my face and i tink i'm gaining weight. I've been stuffin myself with junk when i'm down. This habit started since the holidays and i'm trying hard to kick the habit. No fats....nono!I want my flat tummy back... Man...i gotta do something to it.
-.- I'll start emptyin my tidbits tray tmr! YEsh! I shall do just tat...eh...not by eating them lar, by putting em all aside lar.

It was a talk i've learnt some really important things from Ching Wei...He changed. He became more mature...God, his reasonings now are so true i can't stop thinking if he's the Yeo Ching Wei i've known...Well, i believe that when one grows older, one will look back and think to himself ,"why look back on the past when it's all over?" and "everything that happens in a relationship and friendship is always part and parcel of a life that we must go thru.If one's life is always so smooth sailing and trouble free, what's there in life that we can learn from?" True enough. Much that has happened in my life has indeed affected me. Both ways. Good and bad. I shall try to cope and learn from lessons in life from now on. I want to be confident that what i decide on will work out,despite how many objections ppl have or how friends or loved ones put me down. I shall stand by my decisions(and know that they're right)
in the matter of relationships or disagreements i face with fellow peers. I don't want to be swayed by how ppl judge me to be because i want to be myself, not one who's easily affected by others' views. It will be difficult, to be able to do all that but i don't want to look back on my life next time and regret about stuffs. I don't wanna talk about the content of our convo...But i realised that the seniors i know have made drastic changes in their lives...Perhaps it's the change of environment that has instigated their changes....=)


Been serving creative.com and ipod sites for the past half hour...Wonderin which mp3 to get.Comparing the features and prices..=D Daddy promised me...But until now...he hasn't shown any enthusiasm about really getting one for me....so i'm gonna bug him!!! =p

some hearts are meant to be broken;;


12:51 PM

Weekends...

Went to Marina wif Wb yesterday. Treated me to dinner after watching 'Bewitched' in reward for my Chinese results. Thanks dear, appreciated that. At least he bothered to encourage me, unlike my parents. Com'on. Putting me down will not push me harder to work for better results. Instead, it'll do the opposite.I mean, who wants to do better when your effort put in is treated as 'peanuts'. Seriously, the rewards aren't wat i really want. I just want them to be there for me when i need em. Not leaving me home alone all the time and expect me to like my 'freedom'. You guys are the result of my rebellious nature. Sigh. Whatever, man. I sound like a little kid who's tryin to gain attention.


I do not know what's happening to my lyfe, really.Nothing seems to go the way they should be. Sometimes, i feel lyk ending it all.

some hearts are meant to be broken;;

Friday, August 19, 2005

11:09 PM

sacarstic. yea. i am i admit. right.

some hearts are meant to be broken;;

Thursday, August 18, 2005

7:24 PM

Felt irritated the whole day. Headache till buay tahan. Had math test. suck.

I miss you.

some hearts are meant to be broken;;

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

5:16 PM

Yippi~ Com back in use...Got a new lcd monitor. ^.-

It's been so long since i've updated that now i do not know how to start. Wonder if does anyone visit my blog. no tags, no nothing. Bah. Maybe i should jus shut it down in time to come. Sigh.

Life's been such a bore lately. No mood for anythin. My days have been filled with work, mock exams, oral exams , announcing of results. It's no better during the weekends. My grandma's in the hospital...gotta go visit her. Besides the visitings, my days are filled with arguements,unhappiness and irritations during the last week. Urgh. What's my life turning to? A wreck. I'm becoming a dull person. I don't wish to talk.Even if i want to, nobody is there for me to talk to. I jus want to sit in a corner and 'stone' for the day if i'm given a chance to now. Close ones are drifting away from me. Friends are preoccupied with heavy workload, boyfriend is busy with his schoolwork. Well, both categories of people share the same interest anyway which makes me feel even more left out. Gaming has become a 'necessity' in their daily life. It's work, gaming, sleep. Whether is it in school when i'm with my friends or whether i'm out with my boyfriend, these categories of ppl are equally addicted in their indulgence of gaming. I would call this an addiction even though they deny it to be one. I'm feelin left out, yes, but i guess i don't want to get addicted too for i think more important issues at hand should be accomplished first. Exams.I guess i'll just stick to reading during my leisure time. I'm not directing this issue at anyone so dont get offended or whatever reading the above. You know who u are...and i must explain that i'm NOT unhappy. Yea. I sense the "whatever" look already. Ya. Whatever.


Results for O level Chinese 2005 were released on last Fri. Obtained an A2. Erm...i feel numb. No sense of satisfaction, no sense of disappointment as well. Practically stared at the results pinned on the notice board for a coup of mins. Initially, i tot i scored a D7 cos there was a D grade on the slip of paper. Turned out to be my oral results. A2 for overall, Distinction for oral. Right...One subject less to take care of....However, i will continue to work towards the goal of having an A for English as well. Of course, not forgetting other subjects la....Set my target already. Will keep it to myself till next year when results are announced. I'll reveal my targets compared to my actual results then.


Took my O level English oral exams on the same day when chinese results were released. English was alright i guess. However, i was very nervous. Reading the passage was a breeze. Picture description wasn't very well done;not as good as i expected i could do. Conversation topic was tricky.

some hearts are meant to be broken;;

Monday, August 01, 2005

7:39 PM

Bytch. You disgust me. Stop your freakin whining in class can? Bloody noisy la! I wish i wish i wish for you to shud da %&*^ up . Nobody irritates me as much as you do. Your prescence irks me can??!!! Bytch. Thankiew to whichever god who grants me the wish. Phew. *Rena prays that her ears will be spared from tmr onwards* **Rena prays real hard!!!ReAlLy hARrd!!!!!* =X Ok. I feel so much better.


Wakakx. Wootxie~~Monday~~~~Today a lot of ppl ki siao onex...Come sch jiu face black black...Went for combine lecture today den Mrs Sam veri fierce leh~~Scared sia....Pms...=p k nth....lalalala~~~ Whole class tio scolding from Ms Jiang. Sian 1/2. She say we don't take our remediations seriously...Say how cum last Fri 10 ppl absent for lessons. National Day parade rehearsal ma!!!! They didn't play truant leh...Mr Pay didn't inform the teachers in charge den we tio scolding. -.- Den say we trick teachers into releasing us earlier at 3.50 for pe. Waah~~~if the teacher don't release us we can go meh??? Mr Goh released us at 4.10 ma!!! Moreover we're all in different band leh!!! -.- Den other band de ppl released earlier, den we tio scolding. =.= i nth to say lo. =(


Bb~ back to my muggin. Tests up again....More assignments to go!!! (breathe Rena...b...r...e...a...t...h...e...) =p


Sowi..i'm ki siaox today. =X

some hearts are meant to be broken;;