;i keep up with a fake smile.Do you ever notice?



I FAKE A SMILE ALL THIS WHILE

DID YOU EVER REALISE?

It's me.So what?
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*Rena Heng
*aka Tiny,Nana
*17*
*30/5/89*
*TP,Hospitality and Tourism*
*PRSS,QNPS*

Her world revolves around...
*her friends
*family
*you
*her lovelies =3
*clubs
*drinking
*shopping
*bitching
*freedom

BEWARE,SHE SNAPS
I'm not who you think i really am. Don't like reading wat's here? Buzz off. =)
DO NOT JUDGE ME,period.

HER WANTS
*New navel stud*
*plain bikini*
*Waist belt*
*A pair of flats*
*Grey/white off shoulder*
*tan*
*Vintage dress*
*New phone*


THE ONES

Abigail
Adler
Arjuna
Audrina
Alpharian
Alvin
Boon Ern
Daphne
Daryl
Dixon
de-bonbons
Eugene
Genevieve
Hailing
Hakim
Hidayu
Hisa
Idy
Jacquelin
Jeslyn
Jingxuan
Justin
Jie Hui
Karen
Kok Sheng
Letitia
Pauline
Quan Zhang
Qiao
Royston
Stephanie
Shihan
Siok Wen
Sihan
Wei Li
Wei Jie
Weslie
Xiuqing
Yi ting
Yiwen
Yu Heng
Zhiyi
Zhu Xiaoming
Ziying
CUT THE CRAP

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Saturday, July 31, 2004

10:29 PM

yAwnZ* heex..i was woken up by th sun's rays through my curtains...Still feel a lil tired from the Mega Concert yesterday night.Phew~* 3 days of training and before you know it,the concert has ended.Share the waiting room for the concert with Coral Sec...They reali noisy manx...Sux. Well,it was a good experience overall and i made a few friends there,exchanged numbers and stuff...Hmmx...This may be the last concert we would be performing in before our SYF next year...already got our 2 sets of scores for SYF...so stress...Os next year and got SYF summore~wah piangx...will pengx de...

Hmmx...Met up wif Jordan today at his house~Brought my homework there to do but in the end,nothing was done...kekex. Went for dinner together at BK at Downtown East before he sent me home~ Hmmx...haven gone out together for a while now..*^.^*

Now here i am...in front of my PC,typing out today's blog entry~*Hmmx...got loads to do tmr...gotta study fer my Chem test and PoA surprise test tmr...and got my 2 project meetings,gotta go get a new pair of black shoes,go Popular get some stuff...and not forgetting i have to complete my outstanding homework...Waah...like a lot to do tmr lehx...hmmx...wht to do?That's life...Everyday's filled with stuff i need to complete! Well...that's all fer today...

Tata~signing off nowx...

some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Tuesday, July 27, 2004

10:35 PM

Munch* mUncH~ mm...have a break,have a kit kat~*!
Haven eaten chocolate for almost 1 and a half weeks le...Jus finished revisin for my History test tmr...

Nothin much happened today newae...same old routine...Kept dozing off during Math lesson today(first two periods)...SianXxx...*Had art lesson in com lab today and we were suppose to do up compositions on our art topic on Adobe Photoshop...Aw manx...my eyes really hurt after sittin for so long in front of the computer..3 periods...Especially when you would need focus lots on the art piece.Barely took my eyes off the com monitor as had to rush to complete at least 2 pieces.Craziee~

Hmmx. Siok Wen and Angelia came to my house for project work after school.Dead beat by then...Sighx...~But had to complete our ipw as tmr is the marking day...Damn! I haven even read the booklet on how to grade other group's project work...Haix,what kinda leader am i manx,always last min de(irresponsible huh~).Sobx,forget it. Tmr den read =P

Our first SCO mega concert rehearsal of the month starts tmr!~* Oh no...haven finish practising all the songs...Damn it!!GrrR!~so many stuffs undone.Still av Chinese CA on Thursday...How to finish studying...gonna reach home so late as my dad won't be fetchin me home.Haix.* Hope i don't fall asleep in the SBS bus on the way home manx...kekekx...=X

Tata~*tat's all fer today....signin off!*
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Monday, July 26, 2004

10:23 PM

Heex~*Well...today was a day full of experiences...

Had our S.C investiture and it was jus the usual borin stuff...go on stage,get your certificate,get your badge(applauses and more applauses...). Well,got into the exco and was appointed the Head Of Administration...I wanted Head of Welfare but it was taken by Sihan.Didn't really wanna take up this post,but after thinking about it,we would be workin as a team newae sho it doesn't really matter what position we take on.Hmmx...the workload has obviously increased since getting into the exco.It's somethin to be proud of yes,but not to the extend of showing it off(Grr~someone is obviously trying to suck up to the teachers.Bloody boot licker =X).

Had to rush all the way to the Subordinate Courts/Juvenile courts to attend the court hearing straight after we got our certs.Kinda rush but we managed to get there on time,or rather,we got there early.(no proper lunch but managed to grab a sandwich to eat on the way there.Hmmx...had a conference with judge and talked about the contents of the court case we were handling before the hearing started.

It was jus sho scariee!During normal hearings, you could watch her question the accused and omg...sho fierce!Was kinda pressurising lorx..cos during the conference with Magistrate May Menusus,Mrs Cross and Mr Aw wasn't really allowed to make much comments sho we were the only ones whom could suggest to her what are the recommendations we can give as punishment to the accused.Well,i can't reveal the content as it's confidential...Was a good experience anyway,and our recommendations were recognise and she decided to add on more hours of community service work for the accused to complete which was part of our few recommendations.

Went back to school with Ming Li in a cab after that(sickening taxi driver,talk sho much...) and saw Miss Jiang with her group of money making comittee in the council room discussing some stuff...Haix*She kinda scolded mi before the investiture when i've done nothing wrong...hmmx...well,mebbe she's in a bad mood?Mebbe i was really wrong(which i doubt so)?Hmmx...Let it pass baby~^.^
Don't wanna ruin the good mood i'm in today...

After tat,Jordan sent mi home and by the time i reached home,which was about 6.40,i was kinda tired already...Still got physics test tmr...*pengx*

Overall,today was a day learning journey fer mi~Hope tmr will be a better one!~*

Tata~*Signin off lex...(^o^)
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Sunday, July 25, 2004

9:47 PM

YaWnz.I was kinda tired today sho i slept till bout 10 plus and fell asleep again after a while in the morning.When i woke up,it was already 11.45am.By then,my parents were already out.Sighx* I've been spending the last few days alone at home newae.Freedom yes,but bored stiff.(Boo*Boo*)

It's the last day of the week le~*Aw manx...It's sch day tmr.Gonna be busy tmr too.The investiture and the court session is held tomorrow. Which means, we'll av to rush to the subordinate courts in a cab after investiture. Hmmx..phew,not much homework for this weekend...(Thank goodness)But will av loads of tests this coming week.Tomorrow is the only day without a test.Wah piang~how am i gonna study fer my tests when there would be the SCO mega concert rehearsal on Wed, Thurs and Friday is our actual concert?! Worst still, the rehearsals on Wed and Thur is from 3-9pm.Friday, our rehearsals start from 12.45 and the actual concert ends at 11pm!!! Sighx*
This is craziee~~*Will drop dead when i reach home and no need to study liaox lor...haix...My whole week would be occupied and cannot meet up wif Jordan le lorx...Tue is the oni day free but he got HMT,and think i must complete ma IPW also.Will miss him...

Hmmx...Ella Enchanted is out...dun tink will av time to catch it newae...King Arthur is another i wanna watch but,neh..no timex...

Listening to BROKEN by Seether and Amy now while doin up this entry.Since i'll be sho busy the upcomin week,don't think i'll be able to update the blog fer quite a while...Well,I'll try to make time...

Tata~signin off lex~*
some hearts are meant to be broken;;

12:26 AM

Timeless~*

Baby come close, let me tell you this
In a whisper my heart tells you know it too
Baby we both share a secret wish
And you're feelin my love reaching out to you

Timeless
Don't let it end, no
Now that you're right here in my arms where you stay
Hold tight baby
Timeless
Don't let it fade out of sight
Just let the moment sweet us both away
Lifting us to where we both agree
This is Timeless Love.

I see it all baby in your eyes
When you look at me you know I feel it too, yes i do.
So let's sail away, and meet forever baby
Where the crystal ocean melts into the sky

We shouldn't let the moment pass
You're makin my shiver, let's make it last
Why should we lose it?
Don't ever let me go

Timeless
Baby it's timeless
Oh baby it's timeless

Timeless
Don't let it fade out of sight
Just let the moment sweet us both away
lifting us to where
we both agree
this is timeless
Love


some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Saturday, July 24, 2004

11:53 PM

Wahh~was a damn tiring day today manx..~Had co in the morning and had my council investiture rehearsal today after dat from 2-4.45...

Phew~had a rough day manx...Didn't have the time to eat my breakfast and my lunch today...Had to rush and complete the sorting of certificates straight after my Co..

Met up wif Wei Jian and Steph after the rehearsal and he treated us to Pasta...Had lots to catch up today and the food took quite long to be prepared.

Hmmx...went out wif Jordan today.Felt bad for makin him wait for my call before dat~Came to house and we went to the park for a quiet walk till bout 10.30 and he sent mi home after dat~Nothin special for today newae~*

Tata~ signin off~*
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Friday, July 23, 2004

8:48 PM

Hmmx...had a difficult time getting back to bed when i woke up with a startle at bout 3am in the morning...Well,this explains why i was dead bushed when i reached school today. Heng ah..got PE for first two periods,or else i'll really drop dead during boring lessons.

Heex!*Had traditional games today fer PE today...hehe,the ppl doin kite flying look sho weird running round in our sch field desperately tryin to get the kite up into the sky. Well,din feel like movin much today sho i decided to play a game of 5 stones wif ma friends aniwae.
Wonder if Jordan nearly injure himself again.Saw him kneelin down on the floor and his expression seems to tell me that he's in pain and kinda fell or somethin.I warned him to be careful but i tink he didn't hear mi anyway as he didn't look back where i was standin.Nvm dat...

On the whole,it was the usual Friday where time seemed to pass very quickly.Jordan sent me home after sch today newae and i was kinda quiet on the journey back home.Felt kinda bad when he commented that i was kinda quiet.It's not that i didn't wanna speak. My mouth jus couldn't open up...*breakdown* from the lack of sleep...=X
All i had in mind was to reach home quickly so that he won't be late for the date with his friends.

Hmmx...i didnt know what to do after lunch and after havin taken my bath when i reached home...i was practically staring into space the whole day after reaching home today and after taking my 1 hr nap.

And now...I'm punchin on ma keyboard fer the last 20 mins writing up this blog of the day and selecting another blogskin.Well...dunno wht else to do now...mebbe aunt's gonna go thru some work with mi in a while(dun tink i'll pay attention,no mood to)I'll wait and see what i can do or what's up next.Homework's complete anyway!~yay~^.^ Hmmx...but still got my project to be done up..Ahh...wadeva...


Tata~Signing off now...
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Thursday, July 22, 2004

10:47 PM

O my~i can hardly pry my eyes open now while i'm doin up this blog entry...

Well, today was a long day wif all the boring lessons lined up in a row...yea...wrote up the blog while i was at art lesson in the day~Heex.^.^

Hmmx...ma whole class went to the Arts SYF exhibit today held at the Singapore's Conference hall.It was reali an eye opening experience manx...Compare their works and ours...erpx...big difference(giggles*hee).Got kinda tired after the exhibit viewing and i decided to go home anyway and skip CO for the day.

When i reached home,nobody was in,*low* and i fell asleep gradually while i was watching tv.Too tired le bah...

Aw manx...I spent the whole night punching on ma keyboard and completing the certificates for the Investiture.Also had a terrible headache when Jordan called me...(well,when i'm having a headache,i normally get irritated very easily...sorry*)Hmmx...and he told me he's preoccupied tmr so think i'll av the spend the day on my own den...maybe take a nap when i reach home early?Stare at the walls?Complete my ipw? Complete the S.C herachy?Well, i dunno,we'll see how tmr...^o^

Guess that's all fer today...Tata~ Nitex =)
some hearts are meant to be broken;;

8:18 AM

Heex...now in school using the com in com lab 4...Sobx...supposed to be Art lesson now but the Adobe Photoshop jus didn't seem to load...Well...i managed to take dis time to write up the blog of the day...
 
Viewed Jordan's blog as well..soBx!!!couldn't view it on my home's com...maybe my com at home don't support the requirements needed to view it...haix...well...oki...gotta do some research now...Tata~*

some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Monday, July 19, 2004

9:44 PM

HmMxXx...beEn KindA bUsy dIs feW daEz sHo DuNch Av dA tImE to LoG oN...dIs feW daEx wErE kIndA heCtic nEwaE...

well...let me review the things which happened the last few days....

~*Friday,16th*~-->basketball match
Phew~ it was the end of the day and i went bac to sch to accompany jordan for his bb match...Was kinda borin at first cos i had practically nothin to do except to look on while emily,annabelle,and zhiyi complete their biographies.siAnZation!!is all i can say...In the end...zhiyi stayed bac to accompany mi lorx.kinda nice of her newae...^.^ Well,had some gal's talk while watching the match and i got to know the full details(oki..mebbe nt full but it's more than i should noe?)bout her and Aaron?Hmmx...can't reveal the content though but what i can say is, maybe Aaron only has one strategy to jio gals?kekex...and i wonder wht happened to da vow he made last yr and he gave me all the crap by sayin he can't get involved in a relationship?Aw manx...dun wanna give a damn liaox...dunno why i'm suddenly involved in this mess.I was caught in a situation after the match when i think Aaron was actually waiting fer Zhiyi and she dragged me along, pleading me to think of ways to shake him off?(oppx.=X)Well,thank god Jordan helped mi get out of the bad situation by pullin mi away...heex.=P

Worst, when i got home,i received smses from Aaron talking bout Zhiyi this and Zhiyi dat. I mean,he is jioing her ya noex...why get mi involved...sickening!!!I dun wanna be the middleperson ya noex!!!


*Sunday,18th*^o^
Wht sia~had a weird dream last nite. I couldn't really remember everythin but i jus remember dat i dreamt bout mi and jordan goin out wif his grp of friends? Then it was like, i was so left alone and he was chatting away wif one of his gal friends and they got all touchy in the train and it was as if i was transparent,and in the end i got down the train and left? yea...tink it was like dat...well...it was a dream all right...guess he wouldn't do dis to mi bah...Like some people say, dreams are the opposite of what is happening in actual life? Not a deja vu i hope...

^Monday,19th^=P
Hmph~he didn't seem to realize i was sitting der? well...here it goes,it was the usual mornin dat i was sitting at the spot where the sec 4s always were and jordan arrived in sch in his mum's car...Well,he was talkin to his friend and i didn't wanna disturb as he was also doin his work den?Dunno bah...jus felt i was transparent or somethin,we didn't talk to each other and when he called out for me, i jus gave a "hmph" and walked away...I didn't mean to do dat...It jus came out naturally. But no lorx...i wasn't angry at all...jus came outta my mouth. I didn't mind him not speakin to mi. Well,guess he tot i was unhappy bout it?Seem like a small matter huh and yea...like what i expected, when we met up after school,he went like,"sobx...you 'hmph' me today."Aiyox.I did't know how to react...
some hearts are meant to be broken;;

9:36 PM

Broken
~*I wanted you to know
That i love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain,away~
I keep your photograph
I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

Cuz i'm broken~When i'm lonesome
And i don't feel right when you're gone away

You're gone away
You don't feel me here,anymore

The worst is over now
And we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain,away~
There's so much left to learn
And no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

Cuz i'm broken~When i'm open
And i don't feel like i am strong enough
Cuz I'm broken~When i'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
(repeat 2x)

Cuz i'm broken~When i'm lonesome
And i don't feel right when you're gone(away)

You're gone away
You don't feel me here, anymore...




some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Thursday, July 15, 2004

10:33 PM

hMmx...it's 10.38 only and my eyes are already on the verge of closing...STill gOt 1 MoRe aRt PieCe tO ComPleTe...DuNcH NoE hOW lOnG I cAn bE kePt aWake~~~yAwnZ...Well...had co today and saw dat ding lao lao wear such a flowery blouse...so ah soh!!~=X(k nth...) hmmX...as usual, she didn't really bother bout the sec threes...treat us lyk transparent lidat...sickening~O yea~when i was on the bus when i was on my way home,i was damn irritated by dis pri 4 sch gal...so Rude manx!!!Keep shouting and shouting at her dad lyk nobody's business...feel like giving her a tight slap siax...=X(sowi...violent~)Pri 4 niax!!!Dunno how she will treat her parents when she grows older manx...poor father...

Wah piang~ received the merit and demerit points form from the council teachers today...10pts-->Probation...15pts-->SACKED...
So strict de...tink i will tio sooner or later de...(1)my fringe...(2)sumtimes sleep in class...(heex but so far tcher nver catch...heng ah~)Will start effect from next Mon...

K larx..~*will stop here le...or else will go on and on till 11pm...gotta continue wif my work liaox...^.^
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Wednesday, July 14, 2004

11:36 PM

HmmXx...feeling sho tired now...Jus finish rushin out ma art...yAwnX~*Hmmmx...today was as usual...the boring school day...Jordan and i managed to sort things out today after school...Glad we did so...hmmx...It was such a small matter yet we kinda argued over it for lyk...4 days already.~hmmX...well...everything's fine now~
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Tuesday, July 13, 2004

9:30 PM

HmmX...iT's bEeN a LonG~~~dAy...haix....dunno why...i jus felt sho cheated when i knew a dark secret of one of my friends...i feel betrayed...although i know i shouldn't think of the issue anymore as it doesn't really concern me directly, i jus can't stop cursing the guy involved.*HaiZ!!*
It has been a rough week fer me...all the quarrels and disagreements i had,no matter whether isit with my peers my parents or jordan,it's jus too much fer mi to take. I've been blowing up every moment since the VCH thingy happened.GrRrr!!! I need peace!! Will things turn out for the better?I have no idea...(sigh*)
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Monday, July 12, 2004

9:44 PM

HiYee~!* hmmx...Rena here...lemme do an asl bout maself.Here it goes....!~

Name: Rena
Birthday: 30/5/1989
Zodiac: Born in da year of the snake...Gemini
Hobbies: Listening to music...readin...sleeping...??(snore snore~kekex..)hangin out wif ma friendx and lots more!! >.<
Fave colour: Violet,blue,silver,black,white,baby pink

More bout me:
Well...i'm a very outgoin person who's always more than happy to make more new friends! I can be quite stubborn sumtimes though...hmmx...i'm also one who treasures the people around me and i hate liars! Dun eva lie manx...u'll regret...(muahahahha..-.-)All in all, i jus a plain simple gal who believes that life should be lived to the fullest!!~

some hearts are meant to be broken;;