;i keep up with a fake smile.Do you ever notice?



I FAKE A SMILE ALL THIS WHILE


DID YOU EVER REALISE?

It's me.So what?
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*Rena Heng
*aka Tiny,Nana
*17*
*30/5/89*
*TP,Hospitality and Tourism*
*PRSS,QNPS*

Her world revolves around...
*her friends
*family
*you
*her lovelies =3
*clubs
*drinking
*shopping
*bitching
*freedom

BEWARE,SHE SNAPS
I'm not who you think i really am. Don't like reading wat's here? Buzz off. =)
DO NOT JUDGE ME,period.

HER WANTS
*New navel stud*
*plain bikini*
*Waist belt*
*A pair of flats*
*Grey/white off shoulder*
*tan*
*Vintage dress*
*New phone*


THE ONES

Abigail
Adler
Arjuna
Audrina
Alpharian
Alvin
Boon Ern
Daphne
Daryl
Dixon
de-bonbons
Eugene
Genevieve
Hailing
Hakim
Hidayu
Hisa
Idy
Jacquelin
Jeslyn
Jingxuan
Justin
Jie Hui
Karen
Kok Sheng
Letitia
Pauline
Quan Zhang
Qiao
Royston
Stephanie
Shihan
Siok Wen
Sihan
Wei Li
Wei Jie
Weslie
Xiuqing
Yi ting
Yiwen
Yu Heng
Zhiyi
Zhu Xiaoming
Ziying
CUT THE CRAP

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Tuesday, September 28, 2004

8:38 PM

AHhh ChOo~ Sniff Sniff* Hmmx...was already sneezing awae in da mornin...Sniff* Hmmx...not enuff slp lehx...can hardly pry my eyes open. -.-

Hmmx, today was alright larx...nothin much happened newae, except nearly dozed off during Math lesson today...=X. Not enuff sleep, din sleep well last nite, dunno y too...it was dreadful~ Had my Phy CA today...hmmx dunno larx, din reali study lor, only memorise the formula oni...Hope can scrape thru...=P.

Haix, my mood is sho f*#%in lousy today...damn!Some ppl reali dunno how to organise their time properly lorx, still dare to have the cheek to make comments behind my back. Think i dunno that you guys are talking behind my back? Ha! I"m not dat dumb MIND U!Stop thinking that you're the best and is the teachers' pet. PLEASE LAR...teachers don't look up to you and you're being despised by peers. Get this freaking clear manx! Who the hell they think dey are siax.Make mi wait fer so long, Kaox.Don't claim that you know me, cos, YOU DON'T!tink i got all the time in the world for them isit.Knn(i seldom scold bad words de lorx...when i scold u noe i'm real pissed).GrRrr!Ah! dun tok bout it lex, make my mood worsen oni!TMD! I'm not one to be trifled with.

Hmmx...reached home kinda later than i expected today...bout 4 plus reach home de bah...Hmmx...and i forgot all bout msgin Jordan...Hainx...made him worry, think he's kinda mad??Well...sorry kkx? I jus got too many things on my mind. Sorry dear~Kinda feeling fed up when i reached home lorx...hainx...cos of the peepx who made me sho freakin angry. Hmmx...sometimes, i really dunno what's wrong. Is it jus me or...aaahHrgH~ I dunno larx...damn! Haix, thot dat i would cool down and i wouldn't be feelin so *u$#Ed up after calling Jordan...but it kinda turned out otherwise lorx...He was soundin sho sianx and upset when called him. Hainx, things are changing...someting's lackin between us and i jus can't figure out what is it. I keep thinking that it's communication, but...that's not the case. We do talk things out but it always end up one party blaming himself/herself for what happened. What's wrong wif us...Is it mi? I seem to be always the one blaming myself...Self reproacH?? Why am i always blaming myself? Why are we always quarreling bout the same matters all the time? AAAHHH!!~ hate maself for this. kaoXx. Bad day.

Tata~signing off

some hearts are meant to be broken;;

Monday, September 27, 2004

9:00 PM

dAmn! my neck's aching lyk crazzieEE!!~* O-u-c-h! Hmmx...dunno why lidat also...woke up in the morning jiu lidat le. Adui~ hUrTXx...it's Monday AGAIN. yAwnZz. Hate Mondays.First two periods PA, ruin my damn day sia...Hainx, see the freaking teacher's face i no mood.Well, still got another year with her...gotta adapt...she horx, sumtimes good mood jiu very very nice...bad mood like crazy woman lidat, everything also wanna punish.

Hmmx..the other lessons today were alright bahx...well,what to do? Mondays fer me are always borin.

Met up wif Jordan today after school today...before dat, went chasing after all da councilors who din turn up for the mass meeting long long ago...HainX. Was sho mad at em manx...ask em see me sho many times but dey didn't bother, or maybe isit they didn't even noe that i want to see em...Well, my council teachers have already told mi to update the demerit point system...

Well, guess that's all fer today...still gotta read up on my Phy....Tata~

Signin off lex!~

some hearts are meant to be broken;;

Sunday, September 26, 2004

5:19 PM

Quizees!
You are the most important person in his life. He would do anything to see you smile. Actually, he would be the PERFECT boyfriend. Always getting lost in your eyes, always treating you
You are the most important person in his life. He
would do anything to see you smile. Actually,
he would be the PERFECT boyfriend. Always
getting lost in your eyes, always treating you
like a princes and always saying a joke to make
you laugh your head off while he smiles at your
hysteric laughter. Yup, he is the person you
were destined to fall in love with.


What kind of boyfriend would you have?(with pics and obviously for girls^^)
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HASH(0x8a07cf4)
You have Pink Wings! And, the name says it all.
Pink is a color which represents girly, young,
stubborn images, and you are a reflection of
it. Though many see you as spoiled and bratty,
you know its only because you know what you
want and how to get it. With adding on being
very stubborn, you are also very determined,
and you ALWAYS get what you want. People are
fooled by your girly exterior-you can prove
them wrong. Even though you seem young at
heart, you realize the world may not always
fair, and keep your distance with some.


What Color are your wings?(Mainly for Girls)Beautiful Pix!
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heartsick
You have a heartsick soul! Youre the type of girl
who always has a crush and is writing their
name on all your books. You are a hopeless
romantic. Waiting for that prince charming, you
take love seriously, but still play any chance
you get. You can have a lot if boys who are
friends, but waiting for that perfect
boyfriend. Sometimes you are discouraged
because there are no sparks but even if the
smallest thing happens, youre on Cloud 9. You
believe in true love and wait for it. Just dont
be afraid to take a chance. Love is all about
risks.


What Kind of SOUL do you posses? (For Girls only) Incredible Anime Pictures!
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pure
Congrats! Your a Pure Angel! Angels, as far as most
of them go, are all compatabile creatures, but
Pure ones simply are symbols of God. Pure
Angels always appear when a child is born, when
a rainbow is seen, or when someone shares their
first kiss. They never grow old, an can appear
in the shape of a naked woman with white, bold
wings. Pure angels are the carriers of god, and
show their love to everyone in the world.


What Kind of ANGEL are you? (For Girls only) This Quiz has amazingly Beautiful Pictures!
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darkblueeyes
Your eye color is dark blue. You rely on your logic
solely, and may have more mature interests than
many of your friends and family your age. You
can sometimes also be interverted and lonely
from a lack of understanding with people, and
can be rather frustrated with some types of
folke. Some may describe you as cold and
distant, and you are honest with how you feel
about things.


What Color Eyes Should You Have? ( With Anime Pictures ^-^ )
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4:47 PM

Butterfly
I won't hurt you
I’ll protect you
I won't let the rain fall down
I’ll always be around and baby
I will understand if sometimes you just want to spread your wings and fly and let your colours shine and everyday
I wanna be a risk you take make a promise that will never break for life
Chorus
you're my butterfly
don't fly away open my hands your free praying you'll come back to me
you're my butterfly
don't fly away you're my reality always be my gravity
you're my butterfly

come on and touch the sky you're my butterfly
I won't forget you or neglect you won't let no-one take your place in your eyes
I see my face and baby do you know that everybody watches every time that you take flight they're blinded by your light
every day the feeling's gonna be the same I can promise that will never change for life

chorus


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1:34 PM

MuaHahAhA...hmmX...this morning wake up a bit ki siaox...dunno y. Heex. Woke up bout 11 in the mornin....YAwnZz...still a lil sleepy,cannot blame...mi sleepy piggy marx...=X Sniff sniff~ Think i also a bit flu liaox...same as Jordan...AhH...ChOo...cuse me..=P...Hmmx...Jordan,must take care kkx? Exams le sick veri jia latt de...Muacks!

EhhXx....yesterday....spent the whole day....SLACK as usual...only finish doin my SS structured essay oni....den my Chem...hainx...forget it...see got time den do bahx...Gee...din realized i watched so much tv yesterday lor...watched a Korean show once i woke up,watched Grease II after dat...hmmXx...a lil geeky.The first one still nicer leh! Can't blame me larx....i yesterday totally bo control....nobody at home at first den my cousins came fer a while....Hmmx...luckily nv ask mi bring em go playground or else i'll pengx de. Locked myself in the room till about 3pm...Listened to a couple of songs on the laptop while lazing round in my bed...Hmmx....some songs really bring back memories...especially all the slow slow de songs.All the heartbreakin memories come back...hainX! Hmmx...erm..dun think yy...heartbreakin memories can be concerning other stuff besides bgr de memos. Yea...if ya realized, came acrossed some lovey dovey quotes on the net...Hmmx....mi cousin link mi to the webbie de. Well, reali pei fu all these ppl, can write sho well. CAme across a story too...kinda touchin if ya read the exact story...Hmmx...

Kxx...guess i'd better go...gotta go thru some work now...

Tata~*signing off

some hearts are meant to be broken;;

Saturday, September 25, 2004

5:59 PM


Hmmx...well, here are some quotes i came acrossed....Real meaningful...

"A guy and a girl can be just friends but at one point or another one of them will fall for the other, maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late or maybe, just maybe ...forever."

Love Is Like Quicksand: The Deeper You Fall In It The Harder It Is To Get Out"

" Never say goodbye when you still want to try. never give up when you still feel that you can take it. never say you no longer love a person when you can't let go.. "

Friends can help each other. A true friend is someone who lets you have total freedom to be yourself — and especially to feel. Or not feel. Whatever you happen to be feeling at the moment is fine with them. That's what real love amounts to — letting a person be what he really is. Most people love you for who you pretend to be. To keep their love, you keep pretending — performing. You get to love your pretense. It's true, we're locked in an image, an act — and the sad thing is, people get so used to their image — they grow attached to their masks. They love their chains. They forget all about who they really are. And if you try to remind them, they hate you for it — they feel like you're trying to steal their most precious possession. - Jim Morrison










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Friday, September 24, 2004

9:02 PM

Ah bish!~* so SIaNXxx!!!There's so much to be done but i jus dun seem to av the mood to do them...Exams are round the corner lex...nxt wk jiu English paper le worx...Hmmx...went home early, intendin to have an early start on my revision but ended up slackin. NObody was at home. Face the 4 walls oni...Hmmx...

Feeling so freakin irritated today...hainx. Wasn't feeling well this morning...Woke up bout 3am realizin i was havin a slight fever...Well, i still made it to school anyway...It was a bad start...SCreamt at my mum early in the morning...haix...sickening...well, but everything's well now...Guess it was a bad start for her this morning as well...She used to scold me for not doing my work etc in the past but now, she's naggin at me for not resting enuff...diaox...-.-" MOthers....

Here i am...punchin at my keyboard typin out today's entry...bored....gonna continue with my work later...Jordan's out with his friends...so good...promised my mum that I wouldn't go out till exams end...nvm! Hmm...guess that's all fer today....

Tata~* =)

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Monday, September 20, 2004

9:24 PM

"Chu Lian de Xiang Wei jiu zhe yang bei wo men xun hui...."heex....loving the song Qi Li Xiang by Jay Chou more and more manz....the song rawkx!~* The lyrics really very meaningful worx....Read it and u'll noe why...Hmmx...Jay Chou's songs are average bah...but the lyrics to his songs bear lots of meaning..~* (at least to mi it means a lot...)

Hmmx...wanna long piak liaox!!! Exams are round da corner and i haben even touch on my revision...Die Die le lorx...Hmmx...slack lyk hellx....Kaox...dunno how lorx...if i score badly fer my end year...haiX!~* Jia latt siax...

Cham liaox larx!!Long piakx dayx...

tata~*signing off

some hearts are meant to be broken;;

Sunday, September 19, 2004

6:00 PM

HmmXxx...yesterday was our PGA competition!!~* Well....heex....guess wat....we Won SECOND~!!* Hmmx....it's already an achievement larx...but....we were kinda disappointed lorx...we expected first....Serangoon SEc won first, and Bedok South, third....Serangoon produced a skit lorx...it wasn't that amazing larx....but mayb the msg put across was stronger than us bah....Hehe. The suspense was so great manz...when we waited fer the results...They announced the 4th to 8th position first mahx...den we were like crossing our fingers that they wouldn't call us!!PHew!~* There were so many hiccups yesterday manz....the sound system was totally out and they couldn't hear our actual voices of the song in the MTV. However, thanks to the lady luck that we managed to get a second chance to perform it again. Many other schools also faced the same problem lorx...So we decided to sing the song LIVE when the MTV was played at the same time. And everything went on smoothly....heex. PHEW!!!!! At the end of it....we had our phototakin and stuff...heex. We behaved as if we had won first place manz...kekex....We screamt...shouted....haha. Well, now that the competition is over, one load is off my mine now....heex. O ya...the prize was a 50 bucks voucher for reebok/royal sporting house for each person ....

Hmmx...went to Jordan's house fer steamboat yesterday night. It was supposed to be an early b'day dinner for him....Well, it didn't seem like it larx....It seemed more like a family reunion dinner....with his granny around too!!!Waah...i've always think that grannys are scarrry....cos my grandma is one scarry lady manx....she horx....that time keep naggin at my mum....aiyox....kekex...i hate naggerx..! Shoo!~* Hmmx...but his granny wasn't that bad...Found out that she's a Teochew too...Hmmx...she's quite friendly lorx...keep smiling at mi....Kekex. Hmmx...it was the second time i had dinner together with his family now...still a bit not used to it bahz...Was so tired by the time Jordan sent me home by bus...but couldn't really get to sleep lorx...worried....he went cycling with Miss Ho at bout 11pm....so late le still go...Tell him not to but he still insisted...well...nvm....as long as he takes care....=)

Hmmx...guess that's all that happened yesterday...there's nothin interestin to update on today....tata~*

TAta!~*signing off

some hearts are meant to be broken;;

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

10:37 PM

yAwnZzz...yox...guess i've not been updatin fer quite a long time already....well..computer's been down since the last time i updated. Damn virus~~~Well...The past few days were boring...Except for watching . Overall, it was okie except for the ending which i think it was too abrupt. Hmmx....

Well, exams are already around the corner...Waah...so fast manz...one year is almost over and before you know it, we would be goin onto the next level of education in no time. Scarrry~~~* Heex.

Our PGA competition is just around the corner!!!!It's this Saturday~~* Oh manz!!! Hmmx...Hope we would stand a high chance in achieving our goal!!! Hmmz..can't wait for the Saturday to come....

Nothing much happened today actually, it was just the usual school day...Met up with Jordan after school....Got into a row lorx....haiz....I dunno larx...it's either i'm too sensitive or what lorx..Haix, nearly made his house flood manz....Now my eyes are swollen dunno till like what liaox...=X... Hmmz...isit really me? Everything about me treating him as if he's transparent in school, not being concerned and stuff, is it really me? I didn't realize till he told me that he felt that i was someone different in and out of school. I didn't mean to do them on purpose. I didn't mean to ignore.Sometimes, it's just that....aw...i dunno....aRghH!!~*I'm sorry for everything...

Haiz, i really dunno...just feel that...i'm not the Rena i used to be anymore. I'm not smiling as much as i used to last time, yea...maybe i'm still smiling but it's not coming from my heart. Forcing it out???i don't know. I just find that i don't know who i am anymore. I'm just so bugged down with things around me. So busy and stuff...Hmm. Just don't seem to have time for myself....Well, maybe it's due to the heavy workload everyone is having at the moment. Every blog i go to, contents of the day would normally be about how tired they are...work...work...and more work. Hmmx... Wished i've more time....Everybody needs more time...don't you think so...

Well, but i believe that tomorrow would be a better day! When you wake up and watch the sun rise...everything just seem so right again!!!^.^ ...Tomorrows never end...



Guess that'll be all....TAta!~* gdnitex




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Wednesday, September 08, 2004

2:13 PM

hmmXx...com's been down fer a couple of days le sho cannot update blog lorx...haix...damnx! Grr..~* newae, think it'll be oki by the end of the week...(at Jordan's house updating blog lorx... ^.^)

The past few days were kinda hectic...with all school activities and stuff....Although it's da sch hols. still gotta go bac sch worx...sianz 0.5. Well, since i'm here, i might as well talk bout yesterday....it was our CO games day...Wah piangx...kena flour and water....sobx! heex...bout it was fun alright...Think the "Fear Factor" was the most fun de...Got little froggies,mealworms...EEee~!* They were supposed to get the coin in the bucket containing one of these. Disgusting..! In the end, most of the frogs were dead as they were squashed by the students! EwWW~* =S

Hmmx....k larx..gtg lex...tata~!* Will update when my com's in order!!!!



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Saturday, September 04, 2004

9:15 PM

yAwnZzz...got panda eyes now manx...it's nine plus at night and i'm alreadi feeling veri tired. Fell asleep on the couch this afternoon and my back was aching when i woke up.

It was and early start for mi today...Had to go to the Subordinate Courts for the PGA rehearsal...Met up with my fellow members and proceeded to Outram Park to meet up with Mrs Cross.

Mr Ou was already waiting anxiously for us at the Courts and in no time, it was already our turn to present. We actually came up with an MTV and a poem lorx....At the end if it, it turned out oki only lorx...It would still needs a little bit of a fine tuning.

Proceeded to Plaza Singapura for lunch and we went on the hunt for the lucky draw items needed for the prom. Well, i dunno lehx...got a bad feelin dat maybe the prom wouldn't be happening anyway...haiX, dunno larx! The proposal would sent to Miss Yeo when school reopens. Well, she would be leaving next year so i just hope that she would see the prom as part of her farewell party thrown from the SC lorx..(fingers crossed)

guess that's all..nothin much happened tody newae.

tata~*signing off

some hearts are meant to be broken;;

Friday, September 03, 2004

11:57 PM

Phew~* jus came back from Dixon's house after doin up our PGA...it was a hectic day fer all of us. Was in school till bout 6 plus after filming all the scenes and we rushed down to Dixon's house for the recording of the song.Waah..this project a lot of work sia...We spent like the past few days working on it and we're still rushing to complete it. Haiz! my eyes now can hardly open siax....

Hmmx...well,had kinda a few arguments today with our fellow PGA group members lorx...guess it was cos all of us were in a hurry to wrap up everything. Really feeling the stress now lorx...it's like we've so much to do...PGA, the planning of the prom night, our class projects,our class assignments,homework,and got other bits of work that i've to complete within a short time. I've practically no time for myself nowadays.Haix,and my dizziness due to my low blood is acting up a little again. Will have to go the the doctors at the end of the month to do a checkup again.Hope nothing's wrong...Nowadays also no time to go out with STeph lex...den like drifing apart lidat lorx...cos we seldom talk in school. The only time we used to have for each other was during recess and after school lorx...Then now, have meetings during recesses den have to stay back to do the PGA really no time to go out lorx. Haix, hope during the one week holidays can spend one day out together bah...But we'll still remain good friends no matter what it is right??!!

Hmmx...well, will try to sleep now....worried bout tmr's PGA rehearsal....

TAta~*

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Wednesday, September 01, 2004

9:11 PM

yAwnZzz....heex...woke up only at 10.45 today...went to collect my pair of contacts. Waah~ so scary!!!The first time i put it on and it was like....B~~L~~u~~R~~!!! kekex...but it turned out alright lorx...

HmMx...It's been half a year lex...heex...so fast worx....It's been half a year and we'll keep counting...oki???^.^ HuGx~*

Hmmx...kinda in a bad mood today lorx...shitty hell. PGA deadline is on Friday and we're still laggin behind manx...hAiX...Can't stand the way some ppl handle things manx...they did part of the work and me and Meng wasn't informed at all..Hmph! Work as a group? i don't think that's happenin lorx...hAiZ, still say tmr wanna do...we got CO lehx! Can't they spare a thought for us? Our schedule is so much tighter than theirs and....AaArgH!~* Sux. Guess tat's all fer da day...

Tata~ signing off

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