;i keep up with a fake smile.Do you ever notice?



I FAKE A SMILE ALL THIS WHILE

DID YOU EVER REALISE?

It's me.So what?
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*Rena Heng
*aka Tiny,Nana
*17*
*30/5/89*
*TP,Hospitality and Tourism*
*PRSS,QNPS*

Her world revolves around...
*her friends
*family
*you
*her lovelies =3
*clubs
*drinking
*shopping
*bitching
*freedom

BEWARE,SHE SNAPS
I'm not who you think i really am. Don't like reading wat's here? Buzz off. =)
DO NOT JUDGE ME,period.

HER WANTS
*New navel stud*
*plain bikini*
*Waist belt*
*A pair of flats*
*Grey/white off shoulder*
*tan*
*Vintage dress*
*New phone*


THE ONES

Abigail
Adler
Arjuna
Audrina
Alpharian
Alvin
Boon Ern
Daphne
Daryl
Dixon
de-bonbons
Eugene
Genevieve
Hailing
Hakim
Hidayu
Hisa
Idy
Jacquelin
Jeslyn
Jingxuan
Justin
Jie Hui
Karen
Kok Sheng
Letitia
Pauline
Quan Zhang
Qiao
Royston
Stephanie
Shihan
Siok Wen
Sihan
Wei Li
Wei Jie
Weslie
Xiuqing
Yi ting
Yiwen
Yu Heng
Zhiyi
Zhu Xiaoming
Ziying
CUT THE CRAP

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Sunday, November 26, 2006

8:17 PM

WHEN I SAY I AM BUSY. I REALLY AM BUSY. JUS BUZZ OFF WILL YA'LL! #$%^#%%*...Grr. RaWrs. Some people just do not get it. It's not that i do not want to talk to you. It's just that your conversations keep popping up on messenger it's driving me nuts when i wanna get something done. URGH. THIS IS NUTS. TOTALLY DRIVING ME NUTS.

I'm so overwhelmed with the amount of things i need to do i can't breathe.

You're a damn jerk. Fuck off u bastard and stop harassing my friend or i'll shove your own shoes up ur mouth. NOW SHUT UP. YOU DON'T HAVE THE RIGHT TO COMMENT ON PEOPLE COS U'RE A BASTARD YOURSELF. I do not normally use this, but to me, "you're a ball-less sissy who thinks he's oh so handsome and popular". To hell with that.
Don't you ever get on my nerves now. Just hearing your name will make me boil hot with anger. *aherm*

Back to work now. Excusez-moi. Au revoir.
[Miss piggy is upset. you won't like her like that.]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;

2:03 AM

Boo. All pangseh me. Only i went for the briefing today. Luckily there was Fiona. =) U want me go jam and hop mar? Must sincere a bit ok! d= NI YAO LENG JING, OR WO HUI ANGRY DE. =X haha. Irritated her like siao today. =p

December's camp for GL and I-guides! OH my. My schedule's super packed for Dec. Help~~~~~!

Joshua gave me a ring in the afternoon and wanted me to accompany him get clothes for his cousin's wedding. It was to town yet again...People watched outside Mariott Hotel. Darn farni lar... Ok lar, jojo, u have "mei li" lar hor....can attract xiao mei mei. ONLY xiao mei mei =x *rofl* We were comparing the number of people turning heads. LOLS! Dumb. See lar, bored till like dat. *shakes head*
Met Hakim!! It's been ages since i've last seen him lar, we shall gather sometime nxt week eh! =)

Met up with Roy and friends at PS after that. =) So late then eat dinner!!! Tsk Tsk~! Went for a game of pool somewhere near ParkMall. I feel so 'sua ku' can..didn't even know there was a place near PS where we can play pool. Kuku me. I'm really kuku-fied eh!!!! *blushes*
Was driven home. =) Thanks eh kukuhead! =D I do enjoy the rides home lar!
I can't wait to turn 18!!! You must be my "street directory" if i get lost ok!!!! =D

There's so much to do tomorrow. CommSk's test on Monday. French test is on Thur. Leadership proposal is due Friday. *faints* I'm dreading the upcomin week. Urgh.

The days pass by so quickly...wat did i do with the time i had?

[ =) ]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Saturday, November 25, 2006

12:39 AM

Thank goodness it's friday! *big grins* Today was a long day. Towards the end of lessons, i couldn't stop laughin. Lol. Jie Hui said, " ni yao leng jing" like dunno how many zillion times to me today.

Met up with bestie today.Hope you're feeling better Stephy!NO more MOODY MOODY DUMB DUMBS! Haven gone out proper since school started. =) We made it to town again. Bought a new top .I loike!!!!!!!!!!! =x Haha. Steph wants to kill me. I'll let u rummage through my closet! Lols. And after Thailand trip, we can rummage through each other's closet! lols. Can't wait man!
29 Dec to 2Jan! I'm counting down!

It seems that everyone I know is interlinked to one another. It's scary. It shall just stop there. You're just another "one of the few".

[i miss those secondary school days]
[please don't be like the rest =(]

TINY IS DAMN TIRED. SHE WANTS TO CRASH IN BED BUT THERE'RE SO MUCH TO BE COMPLETED.*whines*
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Wednesday, November 22, 2006

12:34 AM

It'll be a busy week with project research and tests. And yes, I have yet to watch Green Mile. I don wanna watch alone leh, it'll be like so boring. 3 hr show for goodness sake!Anyone nice pei mi watch lehs..... =) The proposal's due nxt week. *wails*

FB was fun today. Talked about pasta! Wahahahah! Yummy yum. Didn't know there are dried and fresh pasta. I did learn some new stuff today!!! The discussion made us all hungry. Can't blame. It was already 5pm when tutorial ended. Lol.

Came across so many weird ppl today =.=
1) A girl kept staring at me on the bus today.As if i owe her money or something... =.=
2) Talked to a lesbo online. She happened to get my email through her modelling agency. WTH?
3) "What's your full name?" Someone replied, "My name's 'dear'. You call me 'dear' can le." WTF LIKE SUPER BU YAO LIAN!!!!!

Ok, my temporary name is called, "Rudolf". Lol.
Don't use the whiny sorta voice to call me "Nana". I like it low and deep. LOL. SOMEONE SLAP ME. *rolls on floor laffin*

[wo men xiao shi hou]
[i need a getaway]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Monday, November 20, 2006

9:31 PM

*edited*
Confessions? Not quite me, that's all i can say. And i admire your courage. =)

I'm so bogged down with god knows wat stuff is on my mind. It sucks when you can't express how you're feelin inside properly. It's been terrible feeling this way the past few days.

I never do get around things do i? sigh. Watever rena, WATEVER.

I'm irritated. I do not like strangers getting hold of my handphone no. To hell with those perverts. Boo ya'll!

I miss my bestie. =) Stephy!!! Our timetable's so f-ed up! Ya know wad i mean lar~ =(


I ate two tubes of Droste Chocolate Pastilles today. That shows how bad things are. I'm gonna grow like super fat...=.=


[you put the blue back into the sky]


some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Sunday, November 19, 2006

12:32 PM

Blogger ate up my draft i saved up last night. To think i fell asleep on the com table just to ait for it to finish saving!!!!!*RAWRS!!!!*

Now i have to recall what i typed last night. Hmm.
Here goes. Long post.
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currently listening to: Colour Everywhere-Christian Bautista (loves)

It can't find my usual self. The talkative me. The bubbly me. The seldom upset me. The old me.
It's gone. My twin within has left and i have difficulties finding her back. Sigh, now this change is no good. =(

I hate it when i can't help feeling gloomy these days.

Now, all those aside. Went with Roy and Weijie to the motorshow at Suntec City ytd. Honestly, i didn't understand what they were talkin about half the time about cars. Heh. However, i do like looking at nice cars. =D And i'm surprised at the ranges of cars Lexus has. Some, i've never seen before. My main purpose of goin there was to visit uncle Henry at Suzuki for a second time...Was too late when we reached there though. He knocked off and returned to the showroom le. Booooo~~

Went for dinner at Hans and slacked near the Esplanade. The dudes were scaring me with ghosts stuff lar! But it didn't totally get into me because some other stuff were on my mind. And let's not talk about that. Sigh. I did enjoy the day out though. =)

Roy: Tnx for sending me hope the night before even when you were tired after the movie!!! =) Yalar, your car's nice. Lols. *winks*

Below are some pics from the motorshow!
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Thursday, November 16, 2006

10:41 PM

Everything's changin.
It's changin so fast i can't recognise what's present anymore.
Things will never be the same again.
I want to look on the brighter side,
maybe those changes are for the better. =)
People do grow don't they?
*ponders*

Met up with Stephy to go for the GLs interview today. =D Hur. We were given a task during the interview.They made us find 2 ppl and talk to them in order to know them a lil bit and then remember the bits to report to the interviewer. Haha. Darn fun lehs the interview. I've never been to other interviews as fun as this one. =) At least we didn't need to do the cheer. Like 2 people do one cheer. =.= Crazy.

Loads of ppl are askin me to send em "step up" =) See! The song is darn nice can!!!!!

TMR IS MICHELLE TAN BEE KWOON'S BIRTHDAY!!! BAOBEI! UR BDAY TMR LEIS!!!! =x

[Did the Rena she was before die?]
[you left me standing here wondering]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Wednesday, November 15, 2006

11:27 PM

Don' say i'm crazy. I watched "Step up" for the second time today with mua darlings. LIke a OVALTEENIES!!! WAHAHAHAAH =X Dropped the kbox idea and went for a walk an movie at TM instead. We waited for 291 at a bus stop which didn't have that bus no. =.= Dumb can! We were busy photo whoring until i spotted that there isn't 291 at the stop. WTH~~~

MICH IS TURNING 17 soon!!!! =D

I can't stand the sacarsm. Fucking bitch. URgh. And she has no dress sense. Old witch. It's like ,not funny ok? Now scram. I want a change of tutor. =(

I've been procrastinating loads. It's time to stop. I still have my resume and cover letter to complete!!! OMGOMG...If the resume is not done up properly, we may risk "not being called up for the job interview" and have to do up observer's report. I dont' want!! Tat's like, more work can~ =( *whines*

[give it up to me]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Tuesday, November 14, 2006

2:18 PM

currently listening to: Step up
(Step Step Step Up) This is somethin for the radio
(Step Step Step Up) This is somethin for the radio
(Step Step Step Up) This is somethin for the radio
(Step Step Step Up)

[Chorus] Boy, no matter what we go through
You step up I'll step up too
It don't matter what the haters say
As long as you are my boo
And no matter how hard it gets
This love will have no regrets
As long as when we steppin on the dancefloor
It's me and you

Feel the rhythm of the beat, that's my heart
Cupid shot me with the arrow from the start
And you know that it's your love that's got me trapped
Everytime I try to leave you bring me back
So much water at times I cried a river
You dried my eyes and brought me back to laughter
And when I lay next to you I wanna wake up
And when I break up it's only to make up

And when I step any place,
I feel my feet Lifting from underneath
You grab my hands, spin me round
And right before I fall
You catch me and you say Baby, it'll be okay
Just look into my eyes
And we will make another day

And If we don't step up we'll loose our groove
So confused don't know which way to move
Pull my hand and let me know that you feel me too
Look into my eyes and tell me baby I love you
You'll never get wet cuz I'll be your umbrella
And we can make it through any kind of weather

If you step up I'll step up boy Cuz I'm tryin to be with you forever
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Monday, November 13, 2006

11:07 PM

HOT.

HOT.
HAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =x
Caught Step Up. Catch it if you're into mm zi! And if you're into dance. =D I loved it lar! Heh. I got the songs from the soundtrack le. So no need to buy ler! Hur! Channing Tatum is haWT.WOOT.....
[did it ever got off my chest?]
[Don't smile like dat]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;

12:33 AM

Currently listening to : Mi Xue Wei Qi, Du Li

Back from GodPa's place...

Was watching the National Geographic channel in the late afternoon, and there was this show on monkeys. The documentary was dedicated to a little orphan monkey(darn cute!) which was featured on the show. Damn sad lar!!! It had to pick up wheat grains within mud to eat when the rest of the bigger sized monkeys fought for potatoes to eat. It died in the end. I dunno the reason lar....But damn sad ok! I nearly teared watchin it. *wails*

I just can't get enough of weekends leh~ =(
The Monday blues is strumming in already~Sigh.

Royston say he's reading my blog before he sleep to see what good things i write about him. Ok, so here goes. Royston invited me to go for the car roadshow. So he's nice. =X lalalalalala~* Help mi lar! I'm so darn bored! See! I'm always telling you i'm bored. It shows the extent of how bored i am. Neh ni neh ni poo poo! BOO YA! =X

[sometimes i wonder......]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Sunday, November 12, 2006

1:55 AM

Tiny is damn tired.Her eyes are droopy~

Town-ing was kinda boring. It's been very long since the four of us hung out though.(joshua,henry, steph,me). STephy and I managed to entertain ourselves by tricking people on the streets into believing that there is a rainbown in the sky at night. Haha. Damn farni lar....




I somehow think this pic (above) looks like the one on the right is the reflection of the glass panel. But in fact, it's Stephy. We look kinda alike in some ways huh!

And bestie cut her hair short. NICE. =) We switched roles. My hair is now ash brown, while hers is black.

TAda!!!! I somehow tinks she looks nicer with short hair. =)-----------------------------------------------------------------------





Here are some photos from Ali's Birthday!!!
The birthday gurl!!!!
FJJLB ROX! (missing: Yang, Phy)


I can't resist the smell of Hugo Boss Energize!!! Damn nice lehs~~~~Guys who put on this cologne never fails to make my head turn. =) And Mr Joshua got it. =.= Hmm...ok, i shall take back the "make my head turn" statement then. =X

[Things won't be the same, ever again]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Saturday, November 11, 2006

1:29 PM

I shouldn't have went to bed at 6am this morning. Because i woke up with a bad headache at 12noon only to find that i'm home alone. Urgh. And the flu's coming in! >.<

[pls pls pls don't rain!!!!NOT TODAY!!!!]

Currently listening to: Hurt-Christina Aguilera, Back to Basics
Seems like it was yesterday
When I saw your face
You told me how proud you were,
But I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh, ooh

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
someetimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside
But I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide
'Cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, ooh
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, oh
If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself..
By hurting you
some hearts are meant to be broken;;

3:49 AM

currently listening to: Mouth Shut-loves.

I woke up thinking that it'll be a sunny day today. But it didn't seem so anyway.

It's like 3.50am and i'm here bloggin. Can't seem to get to sleep cos i dozed off while watching "Goong" till 7.45pm. Managed to wake up at 10.35pm. Coffee made things worse. Now, all the more i can't seem to fall asleep. Boo. Maybe i won't sleep anyway.

3 weeks of school have passed. Without knowing it, exams would be around the corner again. Bah~ I'm beginning to like marketing. =)

Meeting bestie tmr! Hmm, however,Sentosa trip's cancelled.

I'm beginning to get more "oolu" ppl adding me on msn. =.=

[it's nice to know you're missed because i'm just like any other girl on the streets. Thank You]
[i'll keep believing, but please don't take too long]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Thursday, November 09, 2006

11:50 PM

Fuckin bland life.Why don't things get more interesting?

It feels worse when you need to face it alone. All of it.

LALA~*ali's bday pics would be up as soon as i recieve em!
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Sunday, November 05, 2006

12:42 AM

Girl's day out at town. =D


Da tou~

Like Literally~

Fuckin sian. We left town by 7pm.

I went on down to meet qing qing and her boy at downtown for dinner. She cut hair. Huahahah! =D Cute cute~ Both of em tian mi mi wors!!! Hao xian mu!!!! Hur. Left for home after eating for fear of overdose of sugar content watching em. =X

When i reached home, i realised that my compact powder and blusher broke. TMD!!! wAAhSEH..uber sian. boo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WTF.It dropped on the floor =.= *WAilS*

[everything is f-ed up]

[I WANNA GO TO THE ZOO!!!! BOOHOO]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Saturday, November 04, 2006

1:40 AM

I'm so tired i know I'll fall asleep once i lie on the bed. YAWNS!.
Had fun, was out with Steph and Xinning at Far EAst Plaza. Like a 3 siao zabors. WAHAHAHAHA.
The hot pink vibrator was interesting looking.Lols. So many colours lar! GReen!!!Pink!!! ORangE!!! Many many!t was hilarious i tell you.Stephy and I bought a music box thingy! So cool! Mine plays the tune of Moonriver while hers, The Entertainer. Muahahah! We'e so gonna irritate ppl with it. =D
Renaissance fellow group members.
 Rena


When it all falls apart-The Veronicas
I'm having the day from hell
It was all going so well
Before you came
And you told me you needed space
With a kiss on the side my face
Not again
And not to mention
The tears I shed
I shoulda kicked your Ass instead
I need intervention
Attention to stop temptation to scream

Cause baby
Everything is f'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me, what do you do when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up, where do I start
Cause I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No, ohh Don't know where I parked my car
Don't know who my real friends are
Anymore I put my faith in you
What a stupid thing to do
When it rains it pours
And not to mention I drank too much
I'm feelin' hungover
Out of touch
I need intervention
Attention to stop temptation to scream
Cause baby

Can't it be easier?
Can't I just change my life?
Cause it just seems to go bad every time
Will I be mending
Another one ending once again

some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Friday, November 03, 2006

12:13 AM

No more black hair. =)

School's been hectic.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

[someone help]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;