;i keep up with a fake smile.Do you ever notice?



I FAKE A SMILE ALL THIS WHILE

DID YOU EVER REALISE?

It's me.So what?
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*Rena Heng
*aka Tiny,Nana
*17*
*30/5/89*
*TP,Hospitality and Tourism*
*PRSS,QNPS*

Her world revolves around...
*her friends
*family
*you
*her lovelies =3
*clubs
*drinking
*shopping
*bitching
*freedom

BEWARE,SHE SNAPS
I'm not who you think i really am. Don't like reading wat's here? Buzz off. =)
DO NOT JUDGE ME,period.

HER WANTS
*New navel stud*
*plain bikini*
*Waist belt*
*A pair of flats*
*Grey/white off shoulder*
*tan*
*Vintage dress*
*New phone*


THE ONES

Abigail
Adler
Arjuna
Audrina
Alpharian
Alvin
Boon Ern
Daphne
Daryl
Dixon
de-bonbons
Eugene
Genevieve
Hailing
Hakim
Hidayu
Hisa
Idy
Jacquelin
Jeslyn
Jingxuan
Justin
Jie Hui
Karen
Kok Sheng
Letitia
Pauline
Quan Zhang
Qiao
Royston
Stephanie
Shihan
Siok Wen
Sihan
Wei Li
Wei Jie
Weslie
Xiuqing
Yi ting
Yiwen
Yu Heng
Zhiyi
Zhu Xiaoming
Ziying
CUT THE CRAP

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TUCKED AWAY

Friday, October 06, 2006

9:38 PM

Rest in peace Mama(godma), I LOVE YOU.
Mdm Ng Siam Hua passed away on 1/10/2006, 12.28am.
Cause of death: Fatal accident, 2 dead, 2 injured.
(reported on newspapers, 2/10,3/10,4/10)

These few days have been difficult for me to get by. It was heartbreaking. My heart dropped. Daddy rushed Mummy and I to the hospital upon receiving a call from my uncle on 30/9/2006 night. I didn't believe my ears. I refused to accept the fact until i reached the hospital and saw my dearest Godma lying in the mortuary of Tan Tock Seng Hospital. No words can express how i felt at that instant. I could only remember breaking down in front of the dead body and crying my heart out. My god brothers were by my side and seeing them appear strong gave me a reason to be strong as well. " Mama don't want you to cry. She didn't suffer. She was unconcious after the accident happened. She felt no pain. Ger, dont cry." were the words they said to me. I hugged them tight and wailed. Recalling these moments are making me tear this instant. The funeral ended on Thursday. Mama died a wrongful death. It's too painful to be typing this out, not to mention wanting to describe how the accident took place. Ask me personally if you really want to know. The funeral was hard to pull through. We had to control our tears. And i literally bit my lips through the process. Through the several rituals, through the several times i had to explain the cause of death to relatives, through the several times i needed to call up her colleagues to inform them of the fuenral.

Breaking the news to Papa(godpa) was the hardest. He had suffered minor injuries in the accident and he didn't knew Mama had passed away until my brothers broke the news to him on the first day.

Mama was a loving mum to my brothers. She was a loving god mum to me. She'll forever stay in our hearts. Her loving smile, her soft touch, her spendid cooking. EVERYTHING. We lost our mum, but we made it through stronger as a whole family combined, as an individual. She taught us a precious lesson. CHERISH THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU WHILE YOU CAN. FOR YOU'LL NEVER KNOW WHAT HAPPENS TOMORROW.

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Dear friends, thank you for the well wishes. I won't say i'm fine, but i know i will be. And I will grow stronger. =)
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[it's time to be selfish]
[so much to say, so hard to express]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;