Thursday, August 24, 2006
12:18 AM
Blogger just won't start so I decided to post these thoughts on “word” first and copy it over when the host works again. I'm still contemplating if I should close this down. Blah….I've been blogging since 2004! What a long time. Time flies and it waits for no man. I finally knew what it really meant after so long. I've so many things I've wanted to accomplish but did not. Procrastinating. Sigh, I'll never change do I?
We often fall in love oh so quickly in a spur of the moment when passion overflows and when a gush of emotions fills our head so much so we can't think logically? We tell ourselves we've found ‘the one’ when we felt we have. We tell ourselves its L.O.V.E… But is it? So many breakups, so many take for granted, so many fights that never seem to be resolved, so many problems... What's love? Love is letting one go? Love is telling you to give up? Love is telling one that you let him/her go because you're not good enough? Now fuck tat. Love is all about compromising. Love is all about taking and giving but not to the extent of getting hurt yourself when you do so. Love is about being understanding. Love is about meaning the “I love you” when you say it. Love is about being matured when you deal with love. Sigh. Love? Too complicated, too much to swallow. Fuck love. But I’m missing that feeling….fuck tat. Sigh.
Eugene, if you read this, cheer up. =)Jocelyn, I may not know what has happened. But I guess, it's time to think it over, the both of you. The crying must stop someday. (forgive me for poking my nose into this, but i can't sit and watch the two of you crying all the time when this happens)
Sigh, feeling totally fucked up. Those suicidal thoughts won't go away. There is only one way to get it over and done with. Just plain jumping down the building and die. But I'm still vain; I wanna die pretty and may consider popping pills. Time will allow me to muster enough courage to do it.
I’m hooked onto this song.
Until I get over you
Woke up today thinking of you
Another night and I made my way through
So many dreams still left in my mind
But it could never come true
I press rewind
I remember when I close my eyes and I'm with you again
But in the end I can still feel the pain
Every time I hear your name
The sun won't shine since you went away
Seems like the rain's falling every day
There's just one heart, where there once was two
That's the way it's gotta be,until I get over you…
Walked through the park, in the evening air
I heard a voice and I thought you were there
I run away but I just can't escape
Memories of you everywhere
They say the time will dry the tears
But true love burns for a thousand years
Give my tomorrows for one yesterday
Just to know that I could have you here
When will this river of tears stop fallin'
Where can I run so I won’t feel alone
Can't walk away when the pain keeps callin'
I've just gotta take it from here on my own
But it’s so hard to let go
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
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