;i keep up with a fake smile.Do you ever notice?



I FAKE A SMILE ALL THIS WHILE

DID YOU EVER REALISE?

It's me.So what?
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*Rena Heng
*aka Tiny,Nana
*17*
*30/5/89*
*TP,Hospitality and Tourism*
*PRSS,QNPS*

Her world revolves around...
*her friends
*family
*you
*her lovelies =3
*clubs
*drinking
*shopping
*bitching
*freedom

BEWARE,SHE SNAPS
I'm not who you think i really am. Don't like reading wat's here? Buzz off. =)
DO NOT JUDGE ME,period.

HER WANTS
*New navel stud*
*plain bikini*
*Waist belt*
*A pair of flats*
*Grey/white off shoulder*
*tan*
*Vintage dress*
*New phone*


THE ONES

Abigail
Adler
Arjuna
Audrina
Alpharian
Alvin
Boon Ern
Daphne
Daryl
Dixon
de-bonbons
Eugene
Genevieve
Hailing
Hakim
Hidayu
Hisa
Idy
Jacquelin
Jeslyn
Jingxuan
Justin
Jie Hui
Karen
Kok Sheng
Letitia
Pauline
Quan Zhang
Qiao
Royston
Stephanie
Shihan
Siok Wen
Sihan
Wei Li
Wei Jie
Weslie
Xiuqing
Yi ting
Yiwen
Yu Heng
Zhiyi
Zhu Xiaoming
Ziying
CUT THE CRAP

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TUCKED AWAY

Friday, July 14, 2006

1:28 AM

I've been selected for IMF. Eh, but surprisingly, i don't feel as elated as i expect myself to be. And yes , i've moved on to the second round of interview for PaceSetters. The "someone" just missed my name out and didn't call me so i thought i wasn't chosen until Rahayu sent me an sms saying that there is an AGM this Sat. Oh, and she told me i'm actually selected. Erpx. Ok. And yea, did i mention? I think i wanna quit dance. It's just not me to be in "modern dance". Like ballet cum jazz. Eh. A little "so not me". Oh well, we'll see how it goes. Schedule getting packed for the following days of the week. And Candy emailed us to say that there's a class gathering for my Primary 6 class on sunday at Mdm Teo's house. I wish to go! I wanna see how everyone is! WE'll see...

I've been totally drained outta my energy for the past few weeks doin up my projects,etc. Urgh. Good news, I would have been able to clear MOST of my projects by the end of the month. Hur, i completed CommSk oral presentation on happy slapping. Glad that classmates found it interesting. =D Stupid video couldn't play. Wasted lar. Used one whole night to locate it and ended up failing to show it. Saddened. Sigh. Oh well...IntHT would be cleared by tmr. Rushin like mad. OB is due next week. AH!!!!!!! Stressed ah~* *faints*

Met up with Aaron today. Was surprised he initiated to meet up. Oh well...I was so afraid i'll be utterly late i left my pencil case in the labs(hey, the late queen do make attempts to meet up on time k). =.= Luckily my dearest IntHT members retrieved it for me. Or i would need to get a new thumbdrive . BAh~*

It was dinner at PastaMania and then we caught Pirate's of the Caribbean, the Dead man's chest. Great movie. However, i still think the first was better as compared to this. I'll be waiting for the sequel though. =)
Then to STarbucks for a chat. It's been AGES since we've last seen each other. Our chat made me ponder over loads of stuff. And i mean LOADS.

Maybe Aaron's right. I should stick to my boundary. Thanks for offering to send me home. But like i said, I'm old enuff and stop saying i look like a 13 yr old kiddo can! I don't and i'm not the Rena you knew earlier! Waliews...

The wait for the bus was long and i was actually reviewing over the contents of the chat. I couldn't help but have flashbacks i didn't want to have. Those memories just won't leave me alone no matter how hard i try to forget em. Well, like they say,memories are not meant to be forgotten anyway. Aaron's right, i've gone out of my boundary and perhaps it's time to get back into the circle i used to be in. I couldn't help but started tearing on the bus. Luckily there weren't a lot of ppl on board or else it'll be utterly embarassing. Those feelings I don't want to have are coming back again. All the "why didn't I" started to resurface. AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HATE THIS FUCKIN FEELING.

[Those were the days i felt thankful having you around.
Those were the days which when i look back on, i think i felt so stupid.
Those feelings i had would not be given to me by some other someone.
Those were the moments i would recall and laugh and cry upon them.
Those were the times, i felt so heartbroken i could die.
Those were the times, which made me change my perception of myself.
Now, my perception of YOU has changed. Totally.
My head is clear, my heart has been wounded. And the scar remains till today.
I don't want to lie to myself believing that time heals all wounds.
For it doesn't.]

I love my KRMs...=) you know we love each other.
some hearts are meant to be broken;;