;i keep up with a fake smile.Do you ever notice?



I FAKE A SMILE ALL THIS WHILE

DID YOU EVER REALISE?

It's me.So what?
Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting .View Friendster Acc.
*Rena Heng
*aka Tiny,Nana
*17*
*30/5/89*
*TP,Hospitality and Tourism*
*PRSS,QNPS*

Her world revolves around...
*her friends
*family
*you
*her lovelies =3
*clubs
*drinking
*shopping
*bitching
*freedom

BEWARE,SHE SNAPS
I'm not who you think i really am. Don't like reading wat's here? Buzz off. =)
DO NOT JUDGE ME,period.

HER WANTS
*New navel stud*
*plain bikini*
*Waist belt*
*A pair of flats*
*Grey/white off shoulder*
*tan*
*Vintage dress*
*New phone*


THE ONES

Abigail
Adler
Arjuna
Audrina
Alpharian
Alvin
Boon Ern
Daphne
Daryl
Dixon
de-bonbons
Eugene
Genevieve
Hailing
Hakim
Hidayu
Hisa
Idy
Jacquelin
Jeslyn
Jingxuan
Justin
Jie Hui
Karen
Kok Sheng
Letitia
Pauline
Quan Zhang
Qiao
Royston
Stephanie
Shihan
Siok Wen
Sihan
Wei Li
Wei Jie
Weslie
Xiuqing
Yi ting
Yiwen
Yu Heng
Zhiyi
Zhu Xiaoming
Ziying
CUT THE CRAP

Site Meter

TUCKED AWAY

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

12:13 AM

Keep reading...

Heaven Knows
She's always on my mind.
From the time i wake up, till i close my eyes.
She's everywhere i go.
She's all i know.
Though she's so far away, it just keeps getting stronger everyday.
And even now she's gone, i'm still holding on.
So tell me where do i start, cause it's breaking my heart.
Don't wanna let her go.
Maybe my love will come back someday, only heaven knows.
And maybe our hearts will find their way.
And all i can do, is hope and pray.
Cause heaven knows.
My friends keep telling me, that if you really love her.
You've gotta set her free.
And if she returns in time, I'll know she's mine.
But telll me where do i start.
cause its breaking my heart.
Don't wanna let her go.
Maybe my love will come back someday, only heaven knows.
And maybe our hearts will find their way.
And all i can do, is hope and pray.
cause heaven knows.
Why i live in despair, cause wide awake or dreaming.
I know she's never there.
And all the time i act so brave, i'm shaking inside.
Why does it hurt me so ?
Maybe my love will come back someday, only heaven knows.
And maybe our hearts will find their way.
And all i can do, is hope and pray.
cause heaven knows.
Heaven knows.
Heaven knows.

I'm fallin in love with this song..=) Rick Price...and resung by our very own Wei Lian....Not many singers are able to bring out the meaning and feelings of this song with their voices...This phrase especially, holds great meaning to me, "Why i live in despair, cause wide awake or dreaming.I know she's never there.And all the time i act so brave, i'm shaking inside." Reminded me of myself when i was so down and out i tried to be brave but i ended up knowing i couldn't hold out for long. Bah~~~ I'm getting emo for the night again. Haiz. What's with tat man~ -.- Must be the pms lar...*rolls eyes* Haix,but i think i need a hug. Badly. =(

Read someone's blog. Came to realise you're such a fool. You don't even know you're being used. Or is it that you've been putting on a mask in front of me all these while too? And now see how u're being hated after so much you've done. I'm washin my hands off you. Totally. I've tried my best in letting you understand it's all not worth it. But you turned my words onto deaf ears. WTF. Be gone. I shall shake it off. Don't expect me to helping you understand them anymore. Cos they're not worth it. And so are you. You just make me wanna shout "Fuck you" in your face. Let's keep our distance for now. You make me wanna not understand you from this minute onwards.

Work was alright. Did packin up at Taka square..Weird...I somehow already miss the people workin there le lor....>.<

I just wanna spend one day out playing squash, workin out at the gym and slackin at starbucks...Or even doin a facial at home in my homespa.-.- i need a break badly. Sometimes i just wish i can run home to someone who's willing to run my shower and give me a hug when i need it. Sigh. But all i get once i return home is naggin from my mum. -.- Shyt this is. I need something more to life!! -.- For once i hope school reopens quickly.

haix. Ciao~ Low diao le...Freakin tired. Zzz~ I think i'm falling aslp in front of the com man...yAwn.
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Monday, February 27, 2006

12:22 AM

Last day of event sales...Hiek..Mummy and Daddy came down to "spot-check". Lol...Wot sia...tot they so good come find me at work...in the end ish they no mahjong session den come down walk walk one lor~!!!! Diaox...

Was an early start lar...Didn't have enough sleep. Watched "Peach Girl" on tv last nite till bout 2.45am mar...den got up at bout 7am. Seh diao...Not enuff slp! I want my 10 hours of beauty sleep!!!! =p Eyebags..Sian. Zits...Sian. All because of insufficient slp!!! >.<

Hmm, had fun at work today lar...talk rubbish with Daniel and Idah from Piero..Lol...Today Benson's hair is still so farni lar...Can't bring myself to say him lar...lol. His "esplanade" styled hair ish just so odd for his face lar...=X I pity him sia...got despo gurl after him. Lol..I'd long have ran away if i were him sia!!! Sibeh despo lar!!!-.- And yes, i somehow find that the Levi guy ish not dat good lookin afterall lar...lol. Oh well...*rolls eyes* Sia lar!!! Daniel ish siao i tell you...chatted bout some bian tai stuff...-.- Eek! He ren bu ke mao xiang lor!!! Outside dao dao de...budden he ish a siao gina i tell you....=) Haish. Last few days of event sales then we have so much fun...Now i kinda miss talkin to em liaox...>.<>

Folded clothes till Yani, Qing and I siao sia..Lol. From 7 plus fold till 9 plus still cannot finish. -.-Then ki siao..Kept laffin and all. Take raffia string make a cross on wagon...Then put " Stock taking, pls do not touch!" sign lor...Some ppl ish dunno cock eye or wot lar....Write so big still cannot see...Some purposely gey siao lor....Tmd...I pek chek till i did away with the "sorry, we're having stock take" and went," sorry miss (point at sign)" when ppl still tried to rummage through the folded clothes. Knn~*watever*

Tmr's packin ish at 8.30am...till 10.30am then gotta proceed to Marina to do unpackin for new boutique there!!!!Dunno tmr do till wot time sia...Hmm, where ish Nike at Marina?! Eric said it's at Topshop's men level there...level two...Hmm...Tat one ish boutique meh?! Oh well, shall call Vincent tmr...

Lol, Qing Qing say i notti gurl!! So late still online don want go sleep...Lol. I'd better go to bed soon!!! No eyebags! No zits!!! No!!!!!!!!!!! Ciao ppl~ Muackx.
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Saturday, February 25, 2006

10:27 PM

사랑해요 means i love you, dai biao zhe wo, li bu kai ni~ mei fen mei miao mei yi ge shen ying,zhi you ni sa jiao hui rang wo wei xiao.....JJ's zhiduinishuo nice nice nice!!! =D I love bu si zhi shen and cao cao also!!! nice leh~*

Morn shift today...Got home round 9+pm..

I've never seen such desperate gals before leh!!! Waliew~Diu wo de lian!!! Diu wo men nu hai zi de lian!! >.<>

Eric and Siti today siaox one!! Kept tokin to themselves when i was eating at the shop store...=.=

What the hell's with the 17 year old girl's sex video man....Read the report on Zaobao online link Miss Ho gave me...The clip's already duplicated into CDs and sold. -.- Wadda??! I don't know how to describe her. Maybe "stupid" isn't really enough.. -.- However i still believe there are still many other cases similar to hers. I personally know of one friend who had an ex-boyfriend who wanted to film a sex video of themselves. WTF. She broke up with him on the spot. =) He's a fuckin jerk who just wants to have fun and who knows what he'll do with the clip after tat man. This issue has triggered some thoughts...but oh well, i shall kip em to myself....>.<

I'm friggin tired...Zits are popping up due to late nights and insufficient sleep!!! =( I'd better slp early! Ciao ppl~*
some hearts are meant to be broken;;

1:06 AM

Worked full shift today..~Slacked my morn away...not a lot of ppl mar...=p

Hur hur~ Event sales ending soon le!!On Sunday! Yay~~ Phew~Two weeks there is enough to kill sia..I prefer to work in the boutiques. -.- I'm sick and tired of listening and watching the same cartoon and mtv clips played at taka square. I'm sick and tired of havin to serve shitty customers who say, " NO, i don't nid help" and continue to rummage through your stack of newly folded clothes. Tmd. I'm sick and tired of facing some lame gurls who go around askin for numbers from their self claimed "shuai ge". But besides tat, i kinda like my collegues and the non-despo ppl der...=D Rum, Aishah,Aaron, Ah Joe, Solomen, Yvonne,Iris, Idah, Ye Ling, eh tat Hush puppy guy(i forgot his name!!!ish some thing -son one..)Oh ya, Benson...., Yani, Joanne, Ria, Junita, Siti!!! Okok, Eric ok lar....Lol...My manager i/c. Kip calling me xiao mei mei...Wot sia~ -.-

I just know i can't stand girls who go around askin people if they're pretty or not.-.- Obviously we will say pretty right...where got say not pretty one sia...break heart oni. -.-

Some are so despo i dunno if i should admire their courage of walkin up to a guy and get his no. or to say that their just plain, "bu yao lian". =X I mean, i'm not tat type lar, that's why that may be the reason i'm feeling this way. However, i just tink it's a little "over" le lor...And tat guy is not even a teeny weeny bit cute/handsome. -.- Sibeh diao. Short summore sia...-.- Smoker also...I mean, k lar, i don't like lar... lol..=p

Met Stephy at Tam starbucks after work at 10.30pm. My new york cheese cake and frap.!!! Muahaha~ Lol. We found interest in their "Ugly curry puff" Lol...Funny name. The puff so ke lian let ppl eat den they still name it "ugly" .So unappealin can. Wot sia...lol. It was home after tat...Seh diao le lar...tired. YAwnZ...Tmr morn shift...

Kims!!! Daryl!!! Dinner!!!!!!!!!! =X

Tata babe~
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Friday, February 24, 2006

12:14 AM

Tmr's full shift! Qing's right. i work ka i've lost track of time and watsoever le...-.-
Sibeh sian, today alone at night at taka square..Yani went to shop to take over early den i one person der..Seh diao. Lol. Today got one male customer very funny. I was standing opp him, den he took a shirt and threw it on a wagon. I was like. "O.O" de he looked at me, den i smiled while cursing him in my mind..I just fold nice nice nia lor! %^&$*%*& ."^.^". Lol, den he took the shirt again, den pretend to look at it one more time and helped me fold nice nice put back. Lol...Nyeheh~ Then a cutie came by to get shoes. Air force II grey/white. Lol, i don't dare look at him in the eye sia! Then he also very paiseh...Then dropped the box of shoes...Kept sayin sorry. -.- I bwg. Lol...but he was cute lar...I tink bout 15 years old nia~

Zhiyi came by with her mum!!! =D Chatted for a bit jiu go le...

Wanted to go supper with Laura Ashley ppl...Went to find Angelia instead. Sob..!!!!The shoes i want only left the display pair..Sian half...Don't want buy liaox. >.<

Haish!So broke man..I wanna get a new pair of glasses...With cool frames!!! Lol...And i need to replenish my contacts...Sian lar...Haven gotten pay jiu spend money le....>.<

Tata~* nth much today lar...Ciao.
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Thursday, February 23, 2006

12:10 AM

Sarangheyo, means i love you,dai biao zhe wo li bu kai ni...lala~* JJ's new album not bad lar...i like 'CaoCao' and 'Zhiduinishuo'!!!! Bloody nice!!! My mp3's rawking with these two songs on repeat. Lol...=D

Met Chun Hoong in the morn,went for breakfast at TM and went for job assignment at Aljunied...Met Belle, Junwei and Hilmi on the way..So qiao sia..Junwei so dao lor! Nver say hi...
-.-

Job was ok lar...I only know Chun Hoong very stress, cos i do the labellin very fast...Lol..Wo you lian guo de ok!!!! =p Sally so good. Rounded up the figure to 180 bucks...hur hur~ 6 hours for 180 bucks...den split...one person 90 bucks. Not bad lor. =D She say will call us again if she needs help. Lol. Good money leh~* =X

Went to find Qing at work. She morn shift...Lol...Then went to Heeren to visit Sharon. Waah! I want buy the URS Inc de sandals!!! I like~~The brown one!!! After much consideration, i think i'll get it tmr...=p Hiek~Hiek~* (^.^) Hopefully Angelia will be around...

Got my Loreal foundation le...the lady so busy sia..Then she gimme one free mini lippie..lol. So cute sia..The box so big, then the lipstick so small -.- .

Met Aaron on the train on my way back to TM to meet Xinning, Yiwen, Yiwen's bf for dinner. Yiwen's bf look different from the fotos lar...Lol. Met Henry, Stephen, April, Belle at Pasta mania. Lol. We started counting peas from Belle's leftover...

Slacked at starbucks with Xinning and Aaron after dat...Sian lar...Haish. He say i gettin fatter. WTF. >.<>

Fa dai at the station before he sent me back to Pasir ris before goin back to Simei..reached home bout 10.30pm den fa dai till now....Lol. Tired...Tmr still got work. Afternoon shift! But at night i'll be alone!!!! Yani darling workin morning nia~ Sibeh sian arh! Hopefully Qing Qing will be nice enuff to pei me tmr...lol...

Ciao~* bed time....
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Tuesday, February 21, 2006

9:19 PM

*~[Lo Que Paso, Paso entre tu y yo]~*
-wat happen happened between you and i.

Today's sales for shoes was good for weekdays. Sold 10 pairs today.My highest record was 16 pairs...At Plaza. Sibeh dulan. Today got 4 *bleep* women. ASk if they nid help say no nid, den come and anyhow dig out all the clothes.Tmd. Then i have to fold em all over again. *sob* Then one of em bang into me nver say sorry. >.<

I think only the Caucasians and Koreans there are more polite....Hee, tat's when my "aneohaseayo!" comes into good use...Nver fails to put a smile on their faces man...And yesh, Korean guys are cute...And so does the Dockers and Levis guy...Lol....I'm not hua chi!!! =X

I'm falling in love with Rain, the Korean singer/actor lar....Wat more can i say? He's total gorgeous lor....Lol..Even my mum thinks so. Great body, great face...=D

Woot! Dat's my man boy!!! So handsome!!! Swoons..


No eye candies at Taka. Lol. Ida, from Piero was telling me tat all the cute guys are gone. Lol. Tio sacked sia! Diaox...Yesh, i'm not hua chi ok...say say nia....=x

I found the promotor at watsons very amusing. He kept talkin to himself and he doesn't realise his mike is on...Lol. Laffed ka peng...

B & Lomb contact lens thingy so serious sia! Changed my contacts solution today. Waste my money....=(

Out tmr...for Slim trim assignment! Go town slack..i'm craving for coffee....=.= I was so tired i got knocked out on the train on my way home from work. Lol...

Tata~* I'm gonna update my wishlist!!!! My wants!!!!
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Monday, February 20, 2006

11:32 PM

It's been work wOrK and WORK these few days since the last post. And i'll reach home feeling fuckin tired and restless.Oh ya, not forgetting, hungry. I eat loads during break hours and after work i tink i'm growin fat.*sob* The couch is my best friend. And i tend to spend longer time in the shower now. Fa dai in the bathroom. Lol. =.= Sian. Work is ok. Collegues are ok. Shikin is leavin this friday. She tendered her resignation last week. This upcoming days of the week will be shit. Won't be able to handle so many customers especially during Sat and Sun!I full shift on Sunday summore!!! But there's no diff whether she's around or not, cos she'll always be slippin off to smoke. -.- Sibeh sian. Oh yea, i forgot to say, the guys at Taka square are lame. -.- Sibeh sian. Solomen ish lame. Aaron is lame + vulgar. The other two guys from Piero and Fila are erm...erm...sian. I duno how to describe em. -.- However, i know two of the Dockers and Levis promoters are cute. =p Nope. No conversations were exchanged, cos they were too far away. Lol~ Jus jokin.

Met Huizhen today. She was around with Raziff's brother at Taka....She's goin back to Adelaide (ish dat how you spell it?) on Wed le..Offered to send her off....She said there was no nid to. Oh, just as well, gotta do the Slim Trim thing assignment on Wed....Suppose to be off day leh!!! Then still workin....*palms head* Nvm! More work! More money!!! =D More work! Lesser slackin at home! =D Talkin about money...hur hur~~~ I've so much stuff on my mind i wanna get!!! Shall change my wishlist items soon!!! =p I wan the Adidas active bag!!!! 100 bucks! =D I want!!! >.<

Nth interesting these few days...Oh well. Morn shift tmr...ciao~* Muackies. I know you'll miss me. =p
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Thursday, February 16, 2006

10:08 PM

Terrible morning. Daniel's teacher called me to inform that he got his asthma attack and was sent to hospital. Was so scared i didn't know what to do. Both his parents were at work. Rushed to Changi Hospital in a cab. Glad he's ok. Was tearin all the way there. Panicked like shyt.

Off from work today...So met Chun Hoong in the afternoon for lunch and movie. Sorry again! Didn't mean to be late...let ya waited for sho long...My apologies. >.<
Saw Huimin, Cheryl and Yingshuang at Pastamania...I just hope they don't misunderstand!!!! I'm just afraid Michelle will get the wrong idea about CH and I. =.= To think i used to be so mad about my ex goin out with another girl alone in the past for movie dates,etc. Haix. Now i'm the one goin out with someone's boyfriend. Can't a pair of friends of different sex go out as plain platonic friends? Why must others think so much into it?! I finally know how unreasonable i was in the past. I pray for no misunderstandings to happen! Or else it'd be difficult for us to go out and not let others get the wrong idea bout the whole thing. =.= Sigh. Chun Hoong! You better explain to her!

Went to Orchard Cineleisure to watch "I not stupid too". Not bad lar...Both Joshua's and Shawn's acting skills have improved. Certain scenes really made me tear. Ppl, you should get your parents to watch it. =) Had to leave halfway. Mum kp me, ask mi rush home. TMd....She told me Aunt Peggie wanted to treat me to dinner. =.=

Rushed to Changi Village in a cab. Waliew~ Spend so much today cab-bing. >.<

The place was beautiful lar!!! I love it. Ambience. Music. Scenery.Food(reasonable prices!). Woot! Great....The Terminal Bar/Restaurant. I got a hunch i'll be goin there more often!!!!!

Back home now...gonna watch Full House!!! Splendid show....Ytd watched till 4am+ this morn. Certain parts of the show made me cry and xin tong like shyt ok. So i must watch when nobody is around. =p

Work morn shift tmr...yAwnX....7.3am wake up...sho early leh....>.<
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Tuesday, February 14, 2006

11:39 PM

Met Stephy and Chun Hoong ytd in the morning for breakfast at Starbucks...=D Yummy! My new york cheesecake!!!! =p Caught Casanova with Chun Hoong after dat...Good show. I love Venice!!! The city's so beautiful!!! It'll be so much of a fairytale to be able to live there with someone you love. *swoons* The story revolves around the irresistable seducer Casanova, and Francesca, a talented Venetian maiden. Sienna Miller suits the role of Francesca perfectly!!! I love her style~ One thing however, it's kinda ironic how someone like Casanova finds true love with Francesca. Casanova,someone who used to bed all beautiful women throwing themselves at him. Someone who never fails to make women long for him. He finds true love, with someone who used to write against his every actions; Francesca. Against his sexual desires towards beautiful women. Lovely story. =D A suitable Vday movie ya?!=)

And yes, i'm telling myself i'll love myself more by makin time for me to watch movies...=p

O yeah..i forgot....HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
Couples holding hands, strolling under the moonlight and stars shining oh so bright. I love the sky tonight.I couldn't stop staring at it on my way home. It's been so long i've just spend my time staring into space. I imagined myself at the beach with someone i love, both of us staring at the sky and whispering sweet nothings to each other till sunrise. Hey, i said i imagined. I have quite a wild imagination so...yeah.And yes, i'm still single and swingin! =p. Imaginations...Lol. =x

Was workin at Taka event sales full shift today with Yanni(morn),Qing(aftern)...=D Morning was quite slack...Nth much to do, only needed to do coding and stuff.Eric kept askin if i was attached.He's so sweet can?! Bring one big bouquet of flowers home for his wife!!!! Lol. Siti(I/c) kept calling me "darling" today. Not used to it sia..Lol. Crowd began pourin in at bout 2...Loads of couples....So sweet lar...Flowers....Teddy bears...candies..Aw. Wat a day man. Lol, witnessed loads of lesbian pairs too...It just seems to me that lesbians tend to be more open about their relationship huh..They just snog and cuddle like how a normal couple do in public. I don't see gays doin that. Hmm...Met up with Angelia at Heeren after dat...Sweetie pie she gave Qing and i Hersheys!!! =D And in return, we gave her a stalk of rose, from Nike. =p Siti told us to grab some flowers home. Pink roses! And i gave em to my mum. =) I still remember seein two more bouquets in the store...Lol.

Yeap. Spent my first eva single Valentine's day at work for once within these 4 years...A bit xin suan lar..but, oh well...*shrugs* I still had fun at work. =)

Special someone:
I was in shock. Sometimes i'm just afraid. It's the distance i want to keep between us. I don't wanna hold onto something which i think is impossible. The reasons are clear. There shouldn't be any queries anymore. I've held on to too many false hopes given to me, i guess i don't wanna take another anymore. I'm sorry. But you know i'll always respect you. And yes, i'll always treat you "differently". =p Happy Valentine's day....I'm sorry i didn't call and f.y.i, i can't use the phone when i'm workin. lol.

Wenhui:
I'm sorry, just wasn't convenient....And was bloody tired...Hope you'll understand! And hope you've enjoyed your day! =)

Tata~ I'm gonna do my application for JAE now and go to bed...~* Afternoon shift tmr...*faints!*
Anybody wanna come visit? lol. ciao~
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Monday, February 13, 2006

12:29 AM

Back from GLK's chalet...just ate and aTe and ATE. Lol. Nth much le. Mr Neo dropped by!!!!!!!!! LOL. He began the "oh no, i made my gf pregnant leh..HOW?!" nonsense again....=.= Sometimes i wish he can just be a lil more creative and whip up something different. Lol...

Haish....you noe...i just wanna change my workin schedule!!!!!!!!!!! Sigh...

Lol...ppl kept telling me Vday's comin,this and tat...blah blah blah. Somehow kept me thinkin if love should actually be marked on a specific date...I still believe that if two persons are in love, everyday can be Valentine's Day...=D lala~*

So many of my friends av already sent in the applications for JAE...liew~ I havent! Sian diao~ Haish...

Meeting Chun Hoong and Qing for movie tmr morn...lol...9am sia! I feel so freshened up now i don tink i can get to sleep...Shall finish reading my novel by tonight bah.....

I didn't know how to explain how i felt the moment i saw you. I was worried. I felt that i do care. I'm feelin so messed up inside i don't know how to explain that feeling. Haiz. >.<
It's getting harder to even be plain platonic friends. Shit it is. Sigh.

And sometimes, really, i do get quite irritated by you. Urgh. I'm sorry.

Ciao peepx~ boohee~!
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Saturday, February 11, 2006

11:22 PM

Haix. Really strugglin with the choices of the courses..There're 12 choices i must make! But i've only come up with 3. =.= Haix. Consulted Miss Ho for advices lor....She told me to go for the interview....wAaH~ sibeh stressed leh. Sobx~!!!! Oh well, i told myself i must have all 12 choices by tmr lar...So...yeah. Sigh~Struggle struggle~!!!!

Jus came home...from cycling at Pasir Ris Park in the late afternoon and dinner with Hakim,Daryl and Derrick at BK tam...Crapped loads as usual lar...Daryl was siao~=.= Think too much think till siao le~ =X And he still doesn't noe how to pronounce my name properly!!! Only dearest Stephy darling and my family members does it the correct way...R-E-N-A is pronounced as, "ree-ner" NOT "ree-na"..Got it idiot?! =p *poke! poke!!!* Urgh...

Stephy!!! I'm sho happy for eu can?! I shall see if i'm able to tink of another song tat suits ya voice...lol...Must tell me the next date kk?!! MUST!!!!!!!!!!

My days are getting boring as time passes by lor...I dunno why i'm feeling this way but....well, i am. Lol. Wanna pick up something new...shall go sign up for a class that interests me...=D Mum told me to take up makeup courses/hair grooming/ culinary classes. Liew~ Shall think about that. I still feel like taking up Street Jazz and guitar lessons. =p

Makin my way down to Ngee Ann City to collect work badge for event sales tmr at 3pm. Liew~ sibeh mafan..still must go all the way there to collect one stupid badge!!!! -.- Meeting Qing...=D

Chun Hoong called to inform me that there may be work on Mon morn...So most prob will work at Hannah in the morn and proceed to Taka at 8pm...I got a feeling i'm gonna be ripped off all of my energy...lala~ whatever~

ciao~*
some hearts are meant to be broken;;

12:37 AM

Was Angelia's b'day the day before...liew~waited for Sharon and her at Whitesands for almost an hour...I from hungry wait till i not hungry liao lor...-.- Diao. Nvm! B'day gurl...sho...oh well....yeah. Lol...

As usual...didn't have a specific place to go to after Pasta Mania...so just anyhow walk and waited for the rest to come. Charles and Keith having sales!!! =p Bought a new pair of heels...muahaha~! I wanna get nice nice wedges next time!!!Miss Ho's recommendation...wedge heels. =D And i realised they suit me ok...=D

Zi lian at Century Square toilet...Hur hur~B'day gurl!!!!=D I realised she's getting prettier!!!

Went to slack at Starbucks. Lol, the staff there were putting up deco for Valentines day...sweet! Made the whole place looked so romantic~ =) Guess there was a function at night or wotsoever lar. I'm fallin in love with New York cheesecake!!!! And i'm craving for it now...=p

Wanted to have dinner at Swensons de...then in the end all the others ate le...so went without dinner...=.= Sibeh sian~

Bai Kun and Chun Hoong joined us later..Went for pool..Angelia picked up sho fast as a beginner lor!!! =D And i got my "kick" in pool back again after scoring a few shots. Wee~

Home after dat...diao.Was dyin to watch a movie...Haix. And after i got home, i just kept thinkin about how today's results would be like!!! Urgh.

I even dreamt about Mr Ng can?! Waliew~*rolls eyes*

Woke up with a start at 9am..Got startled awake by people's smses... -.- Sian~! Couldn't go back to sleep after dat.

Met Stephy,Xinning, Wen, C.H, Bk, Siok, Ting, Qi,etc and had lunch at Sumo house. Proceeded to play pool at Princess.=D Tension began building in lor....Waah~Excited as well as nervous about it all can?! Raining summore....Lao tian duo zuo guai!!!! -.-

Results were released around 2.30pm lar...liew...received so many calls before tat my handphone kept hangin. Diao! Kns...stupid phone~

This year's results were better as compared to last year's batch de lar...the percentages for passes and distinctions were both higher...=D *claps* However, overall the results kinda disappointing bah....Sigh. I was terribly disappointed with my results lar...But, oh well, couldn't do anything could i? L1r4-14 points, L1r5-18 points. Shitty lar.I dunno why but i feel so stupid.Haix....Heard from the teachers there was moderation done in Mathematics.Sian! I was quite surprised with the better classes' results actually. Thought they would be able to score better but ended up, their scores were around the same as ours, some their points were even higher lar....Haish~! WTH man... Witnessed several cryin lar....Sian.

Dunno how to describe my disappointment...Now in a dilemma in choosing between courses.I'm just too tired to think now lor...Shall start workin in out tmr bah...I only have tmr and Sunday....Starting work on Mon =.=

Lunch with Piao Kias and Fclan after tat....All tio low lor...-.- Haish! Make me *low* also lor...liew~ All 4/8 de...den all so low....then i only 4/4 de...den only gal somemore, i bwg lor -.- To pool again...Then rushed to meet Ching Wei, Dennis, Kok Wen, Kelvin, Angela, etc at Marina Bay. Was late for almost half an hour. Shitty me. Sorry!

Steamboat for dinner....Fireworks were on display..guess it was from HongBao river de....Pretty...but not as good as the ones last year...anyway, today ish Chinese Valentines...=) I didn't know until someone told me...

Home after dat...tired lyk shit now...Was thinkin about what Ching Wei said...Haish. Tio low again le...>.<>
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Wednesday, February 08, 2006

11:23 PM

gosh. I'm hungry...>.<

I'm sho tired i wished i could jus sleep the whole day off without any disturbances. Didn't sleep well last night. Woke up with a bad headache...

Eh. I had loads in mind to blog about initally but now, my whole mind has turned blank due to hunger. Lol....

Anyway, i bought 60 bucks worth of clothes today at work. Lol. And to think i was to go there and earn money! lol.

Long day tmr! Fotos comin up yeaH?

Tata~*
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Tuesday, February 07, 2006

10:39 PM

Yesh, second post of da day...=.= I just came back from Suntec with Qing...Met Daryl for dinner before tat! Yay~~~ Hershey's Sundae pie ish sho nice~~~ =D I like! But i'm craving for tiramisu and chocolate mousse leh~~~ >.<

Was sho hungry i bought Mac home for supper...Wei Li! You lar! Idiot! Say i will get hungry on train! See lar! suay mouth! I will grow fat eatin supper ya noe!!!! =X

Noe wot? I'm kinda fully booked for the week~
Tmr-->Work at Kovan, gotta wake up sibeh early lar! 7.30am lar!!! Kns.Must reach der at 11.30am. Meeting Daryl for dinner at 9pm. (hiek~ tnkiew! got somebody pei mi this poor gurl for dinner liaox or else i tink i'll just go home to cook maggie mee again!!! =p)
Thur-->Angelia's b'day!!! Out for celebration!!!
Fri-->Damn results day...back to prss...urgh. Damn.
Sat-->Sentosa???
Sun-->GLK's one day chalet..-.- One night rather...
Mon-->Travel to Takashimaya 8pm for work till 1am in the morn after chalet. (yesh, you didn't see wrongly, it's 8-1am. Gotta do set-up for the next day's event sales at Taka square...)
Tue-->report for work....
And it'll be just work, work WoRk till Mar 1. Wootsie! Just depends on the shift. It'll be full shifts/half day shifts for certain days..Woah...How nice...fully Occupied. =D

And i found out i won't really have much time to apply for the courses i want after the results are out. Hopefully i'll be able to squeeze out some time during the weekends before work starts...phew~*

Wei Li, if ya read this, hur hur~ ya see! Your this xiao mei mei like to b busy! =p Will take care of myself...don worry lar.If sick den too bad lor...=p =D If ya Vday free can come down Taka with ya gf come find mi lar!!! I want my milkshake leh!!!! >.<

Wenhui, sorry....don't worry tat i'll ignore ya or wot lar..We're friends rmb?? =) Ok, i admit your posts did freak mi out a lil..But oh well...if i didn't take it to heart, you shouldn't too. We won't lose our connections de lar..so don worry...=) Save your sorrys, because you don't need to apologise. And yeah, don't worry, cus you're nice to tok to lar..Lol. It's not that i'm ingorin you,I'm just busy with stuff, tat's why...=p

lala~* off to chong liang! and i nid my sleep...ZzzZzz
some hearts are meant to be broken;;

5:04 PM

Was pondering whether i shud blog now or later after coming home from Suntec...But guess i'll be too tired later...Still got work tmr...Seriously need more rest. I tink i'm gonna fall sick soon..=.= AGAIN. Tat's right....*rolls eyes*

Just got a call from Vincent. Told me to make my way down to Suntec City to collect uniform later...waliew~~~ Sian lar...Av been goin to town too often liaox...Until i a bit sian..=.=
Hiek~He told me he needs someone else too...Hee~So got Qing Qing!!! Woot!!! Yay..can work together at event sales from next week onwards at Taka le!!! =D Muahaha! And yeap...ppl, EVENT SALES AT TAKA!!! FROM 13th FEB ONWARDS. I tink will be until 1 Mar bah..if i didn't hear Vincent wrongly... And yes, i just signed up for the job at Sentosa online. Good exposure...=D Jus wonder if i'll get chosen. Oh well...Reply's within one week...

As expected...Will be workin on Vday...At least got something to keep myself occupied with lar...No nid stay home stare at walls liao...=X So yea, Ching Wei, if ya read this, lol, no nid worry liaox! I already got myself occupied le...lol..=) And don't always say ya guilty...Now my turn to be unavailable le!!! =X I'm sho happy...lol~ I like to be busy =p

I guess i've made clear my choices i'd choose once i get my results on Friday...Uh huh...Av been serving webbies of Moe JAE admission and webbies of the several polytechnics..Well, i'm definitely gonna av insomnia the night before...Ah...

Thur's Angelia's b'day!!! =D anybody wanna come along? We wanna go out celebrate together!!! And also to keep each other occupied so we won't get reminded of getting our results the night before...=p

Fallin love with "li kai wo de li you, and she de..." =D great songs...Never fails to make me fall asleep oh so soundly. =p

Ciao boos~
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Monday, February 06, 2006

9:17 PM

Only managed to catch about 2 hours of sleep since last night. Have been sleepin so little lately. Woke up at 5am+ to prepare for Miss Ho to pick me up in a cab...=.= Bloody tired, i fell asleep on the cabbie on the way to Fairfield Methodist.Siok Wen was already there waiting for us when we reached. So early sia..Yawn... Phew~ managed to complete all the tests. Yay!!!! Sometimes i just can't get enough of kids. I don't know why. I love em but hate em as well...They tend to drive me up the wall so bad ya noe...but their calls of "Jie Jie~" just makes me so wanna smuggle them home can?! =)

=D Finished it within an hour.... Proceeded back to Tampines in a cab and had breakfast at Ya Kun's...Miss Ho went back to pack and left Siok and I strolling round in tm for a while before goin to the airport to send her off...3.45 flight...

Talked loads lor at Marrybrown's at T2...as usual...blah blah. Something we talked about reminded me of this...
You know you like someone when you adore his/her perfections.
But you know you love someone when you accept him/her for who he/she is because you also adore his/her imperfections.
True or not? Up to you to judge...lol.
No worries Siok Wen! Ya Vday nobody pei can find me...Lol...

Was late in meetin Qing..went to Shaw house GMP office to return uniform...

Recieved call from Mr Ng on my way home on the train...Fuck this Friday...Results will be out...
-.- it's gonna ruin my weekend! And to think i thought of goin to sentosa....Oh well....*rolls eyes*

Sian..Mood a little affected cos of some reasons liaox...bAh~

Got work this Wed...To Wingtai HQ...Kovan...Liew~so far lar...haix. Another lonely long journey back home. -.- but i tink will be damn slack...So few ppl go der shop de lo!!! Lala~*

Wanted to stay home rot tmr de...haix, lazy to make my way to the bank. Go open new acc. Oh well...tata ppl~*
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Sunday, February 05, 2006

10:42 PM

Collide.
It's because we did, that's why we grew. =)

There you go! The pics we took at Fairfield Methodist with the kiddos... The ones on my right and left are twins!!! cute hor??! Little shuai ges i tell you!!! Jerald and Joshua....Goin there again tmr to complete the leftover thesis tests...then go send Miss Ho off to airport lo...

Met up with Qing...Went to NLB borrowed some novels to read...Now can only borrow 4 nia!!! >.<>

Went home after tat...Nth much le...Iron clothes....sweep floor...=.=

Then met Daryl to go Pasir Ris park...Kns..Started to drizzle...then jiu go fa dai near arcade there....Haix. I really fai dai ok....-.- not enuff sleep bah...didn't really sleep from last night. Or rather, this morning. Cos i remembered staring at my bedroom's ceiling at 5am+ after switching off my com at 4am+.

Guess i'm really addicted to eating the Mai Ya Tang le!!! >.<>

I'm beginning to stone in front of the com like nobody's business again...

This ish my blog, i say what i like, i express how i really feel deep down inside. So, yeah. Read it if you want, get lost if you don't or if you find it offensive to you...Blah...Shoo.
some hearts are meant to be broken;;

2:59 AM

Woot. Another tiring but enjoyable day...YAwnX...

Woke up early to accompany my dad to company to settle some stuff...Proceeded to Uncle Tan's house to visit..Was practically there just to collect angbao...lol...watched tv...dat's all

Met Qing and walked round tm...saw a couple of familiar faces, didn't say hi...but oh well...=)

Played pool. Kns lar. Today's pool session was the worse i've ever played in this year. Haix. Fuckin lousy. Was so pek chek with myself can?! Couldn't even score easy shots. =.= Perhaps i just couldn't concentrate. Some thoughts just kept revolving in my mind i couldn't really pay attention to the game....Met Huey Wen and Angel at Pavilion too! =D Miss em lar....Was nice to see em after sho long...Pity didn't really chat for long..Chun Hong came after his work. Lol

It was to Starbucks with Miss Ho and Ace.Chat...Chat Chat...lol...Huixin was workin there as well...=D. Eh, feeling kinda guilty now, perhaps shouldn't av mentioned certain stuff to Miss Ho..Sorry Ace, if ya know what i'm referring to. Lol. But she just wanted to know how you were...So i guess i felt it didn't matter. I'm sorry if you did mind....=X Oh well, but i'm sure she's happy for you as well...She did say Jolin was pretty...=p
Proceeded to Safra for bowling..As usual, i didn't play lar..Don't really like the game actually...=p...

And back home it is after tat...Was already 3am when i reached home and started bloggin...=)

I'm quite happy for you actually. It doesn't hurt as much as it did last time. I guess, i've managed to try and look upon open doors now...=) I'm kinda proud of myself...=p And i dare say, i've gotten over it all now,gotten over you. =D I've learnt that i've been kinda foolish actually. Oh well...I need a new start. And i guess, it's time. =) Okok, i sound very ermx...corny. Haha.

Gdnite ppl~*
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Friday, February 03, 2006

10:59 PM

Let me tell eu...the kids in Fairfield are so adorable can?! =D Had fun...Totally mesmerised by a pair of twins...I got pic...but haven managed to upload it yet...stay tune for it soon! =D Small shuai ges...lol...=X Another boy named Wei Shen also beri cute!!!! I just wanna carry em home i tell you...=X American born chinese lai de!!! Lol! Lookin how cute he is makes me wanna marry a American/Caucasian husband in future....=X

Phew...didn'tmanaged to finish everything and will still need to go back again on nxt Mon to complete the rest, some of which were absent. Oni Siok and I will go back lo....together with Miss Ho...She's gonna fly back to HK on tat day le wor...Sho fast. Oh well, hope we've been help to her. =)

Proceeded to Sumo something to eat today at Bedok...Didn't wanna accept the money when Miss Ho wanted to pay us, so instead, she treated us to lunch!!! =D Went back to PRSS again...had a chat with Mr Wong. Haix. Learnt tat the CO isn't doin very well at the moment. Sad to say, but i'm kinda disappointed lar...Haix.

Met Daryl for dinner. See i so good! Pei ni for dinner leh! Liew~Still say wot sad this sad tat! Haix... lol..Say i buy ice cream for eu ya don wan~ Then force tears out! Liew! I will scared de leh! >.<.. =X To Loyang Point again. Their red ruby dessert at the food court taste horrible. =.= Pui. Ate at KaffaCha again. Tat's the only place where the food seems appealing enuff for me in that entire Loyang Point area. -.- Pathetic. Was lookin for doughnut. But dont av leh...=( Nvm! Doughnut makes me fat...=p
To the park again...Daryl kicked a crab! Which he assumed it was a leaf at first on the ground...O.O Tried to use a stick and see if i could guide it back to the sea but oh well, its pincers couldn't grab hold of my stick. So left it at the grass patch. lol. I pray nobody will step on it!!!! Poor crabby...

Daryl began laming about in the middle of nowhere. His boardshorts kept falling.He pulled it up to look like a nerd and pulled it down to look like he's...ehh....a self claimed basketball player..=.=

I'm beginnin to like Mai Ya Tang.I took the Lemon flavoured one! Lol. We were like two small kids like tat lor....Lickin our Mai Ya Tang thingy...lol. Often findin the whole stick of it stuck onto our teeth. -.- Hur~ now i know wot else i can bring into movies....it's Mai Ya Tang!!!! =X

I wanna continue watchin Full House...but I'm tired lar...maybe visiting my Dad's boss tmr afternoon,go out for dinner with Qing and Chun Hong, then to coffee with Miss Ho and some other peepx. Oh well, we'll see how it goes tmr....-.- Gonna be knocked out any moment.

tata~
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Thursday, February 02, 2006

9:13 PM

I'm super sad...because i can't seem to load the song "Xiang Ai" into my mp3 player!!!!!!!!! Urgh!!!! >.<

Went to Fairfield Methodist Primary School today to help Miss Ho conduct her thesis tests. Was put in charge of Visual tests with Ting mama....=p Hiek. The kiddos there were so cute can?! But they were very mischievous. Run here run there...Oh well, which kid isn't huh...=) At least they were nice to me, no crying, thank god. Lol...P2 nia leh~! I was very afraid of scaring them...>.<

Went for KFC with Miss Ho and pals after that...crapped loads. Lol! Talked bout bird flu,SARS,and matchmakin sessions. Lol! Headed down to Ngee Ann Poly's open house after tat...No "rah-rah" feeling at all siah.Unlike last year....Sian lor~ Took brochures of courses i was interested in. Namely only, Mass Comm, Business Studies, Child Development thingy or what course(i was attracted to their child psychology =D Huizhen was in tat last time!), Tourism and management. Bo liao. I guess i'm just the most interested in their Mass Comm. But Eng A1-2 leh~!And last year's cut off point was 15. Sian half. Doubt i can get this type of results de lor...>.<

There's nth much on tmr...Haix. There was suppose to be work on for me tmr at Plaza but Vincent called me up and told me it was ok as one of his permanent staff re-drawed his leave. =.= Sibeh sian. Left with nth on after the thesis thingy which ends at 1pm. Mebbe shall make my way down to the National Library and return the fine and borrow some more new books,visit Stephy...Or i shall just make my way home and continue watchin "Full House". Ahh....shall decide tmr...-.- Haix...

I have a craving for Strawberry Meiji milk~~~ =p

Ciao~ >.<
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Wednesday, February 01, 2006

10:37 PM

>.< Was woken up by Vincent's(shop manager) call in the morn at 7am +...Liew~ asked if i could work today...lol. Replied him a cold "no". Lol...Sorry lar, too sleepy...=p

Went for pool in the morn before K box because it only opens at 11 today.We were early.Woah...pavilion empty sia...=D shiok feeling...=D had da whole place to ourselves...=) Off form today...Kns sia...Lol..finally got yiwen and xinning to play...^.^
They were playin some old old songs...lol. No Jay Chou for once...-.- I remembered goin there and listening to his songs over and over again. lol.
K box was fun ok....=D Yiwen and I were practically hoggin onto the mike for the whole time..Qing didn't sing.I guess she was bored to death hearing us sing...our screeches must av deafened her..=.= liew~lala~ Their chicken rice was horribly salty...Pui~=X Drinking coke made me feel bloated. >.<>

Fearless was kinda good. =D Jet Li's so swift in his gongfu moves. Impressed...=) Ehh...but the story seems to be kinda missing out on how little Huo Yuanjia picked up his gongfu skills since young...Hmm...And wow, it's based on the life of someone real...I used to tink most gongfu movies stories were all made up...=p Good movie, worth a watch. =)
Wanted to catch I not stupid II de...but oh well.Guess i'll catch it sometime next week bah...Ya noe, Shawn(the actor acting beside Joshua Ang) is much better lookin off screen...=D Yiwen is goin crazy over him...Lol...

To prata..Xinning was nice enuff to pei me go with Daryl and Hakim....Waited for their soccer training to end at 8pm....-.- Crapped...Egg Prata!!! =D Began laming about under the block near the bus stop after eating....lol. Laffed ka peng...=) A pity they've got school tmr....Or could av stayed longer...I gotta go Fairfield Methodist Pri tmr anyway,so went home early too...Meeting Miss Ho there at 8.50am...Woah...sian...gotta wake up beri early leh...=( Thingy ish from 9-1pm...goin to make my way down to Ngee Ann's open house tmr i guess...Or else jiu no time le...Wanna keep my Sat free...

Shytty bom bom...my library books av overdued...-.- Better return em tmr...Will tio fine...haix...

Was chatting up wit some friends on msn when Yande suddenly told me, "xiang ai jiu qu ai~" Lol...eh...It's just a nick la pal....A song's title...I'm just temporarily falling in love with this sad sad Korean song....tat's all, and the title of it ish, "xiang ai"...So yeah..Lol...Surprised he knows me...hmm..from the previous batch de...4e2 guy i guess...I couldn't make out who he was at first though...I'm bad at names.Lol.Not forgetting, my memory is indeed failing me.I'm getting old...Bleah. =X Sorry.

Sometimes i feel so irritated. But i just can't bring myself to tell you i'm really not interested. -.-

Haix, Ching Wei left me a msg on MSN before he appeared offline...I'm feeling kinda guilty now...Haix..Don't worry, I'll be fine...=) Don't worry about me too much, i guess i've known how to handle stuff now...Don't say sorry, i know u're busy...it's ok yah? =) I hope u're coping well too...

Tata ppl~*
some hearts are meant to be broken;;

12:38 AM

Lol. Feelin hungry, so here i am eating my Koko crunch while typin out today's entry...But the more i eat, the more i feel like pukin. Wth's wrong with me man...Been feelin giddy nowadays too...ERpx, if you're thinkin that these symtoms seem to be the ones of pregnancy, hur~ nope, i'm not pregnant. -.-

Stayed at home in da day to watch Full House...WAtch until disc 6 nia~Bloody nice i tell eu~=D
Watched from 12-6pm and went to visit Cynthia and family till 9+. Haven had dinner at their house for a very long time...Felt pretty different this time around. Didn't know how to describe the feeling...Was pretty left alone la...but oh well....*shrugs* Aunty said i've slimmed down a lot...O.O Erh~~~hehe. No comments. And yes Cynthia...this Fri...good luck and yesh, i would like to hear some "updates" yah? =p good luck gurl~~~

Met up with Wenhui after that opp my house...To the park again. I've been frequenting the park at night pretty much lately...He told me it was the first time he went to a park with a girl at that hour. Lol....Looked at stars...blah blah....talked for a bit...Slacked. Told him what i said to someone else when he wanted to chill out together on this year's Valentine's Day...Lol. Tat's bout my assistant manager. I said i may have a date with my assistant manager at Nike Plaza Sing/Taka on V day...Lol~ If you still didn't know what i meant, i meant that perhaps i may have to work. Lol. =x Blah blah blah... lala~
Mr someone, it was sweet to offer the delivery of a cup of chocolate milk shake on that day but there's really no nid to...Lol~ =)

My finger ish bleedin...T.T kena cut by stupid hook...pierced right through. Ouch~ Haix...

I can't wait for tmr to come!!! Meetin up with some friends to kbox and to the movies...Hur hur~~~ Pls remember to bring ur earplugs tmr...=p=p And yes,yes, of course, there'll be photo-whoring....=X

Miss Ho haven contacted me regarding Thur and Fri....whew~ guess i'd gotta give her a call tmr or something...Maybe for a cup of coffee again or somethin after that....

Tata for now babe~*
some hearts are meant to be broken;;