;i keep up with a fake smile.Do you ever notice?



I FAKE A SMILE ALL THIS WHILE

DID YOU EVER REALISE?

It's me.So what?
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*Rena Heng
*aka Tiny,Nana
*17*
*30/5/89*
*TP,Hospitality and Tourism*
*PRSS,QNPS*

Her world revolves around...
*her friends
*family
*you
*her lovelies =3
*clubs
*drinking
*shopping
*bitching
*freedom

BEWARE,SHE SNAPS
I'm not who you think i really am. Don't like reading wat's here? Buzz off. =)
DO NOT JUDGE ME,period.

HER WANTS
*New navel stud*
*plain bikini*
*Waist belt*
*A pair of flats*
*Grey/white off shoulder*
*tan*
*Vintage dress*
*New phone*


THE ONES

Abigail
Adler
Arjuna
Audrina
Alpharian
Alvin
Boon Ern
Daphne
Daryl
Dixon
de-bonbons
Eugene
Genevieve
Hailing
Hakim
Hidayu
Hisa
Idy
Jacquelin
Jeslyn
Jingxuan
Justin
Jie Hui
Karen
Kok Sheng
Letitia
Pauline
Quan Zhang
Qiao
Royston
Stephanie
Shihan
Siok Wen
Sihan
Wei Li
Wei Jie
Weslie
Xiuqing
Yi ting
Yiwen
Yu Heng
Zhiyi
Zhu Xiaoming
Ziying
CUT THE CRAP

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Tuesday, January 31, 2006

1:13 AM

2nd day...Soon Leng didn't call, which means i won't have to turn up for work tmr. Sometimes i'd wish i could work all day...at least keepin myself bz would allow me to take my mind off certain stupid tots. =.= For once, i love workin.

To Uncle Henry's...then went off to Shihan's house. Slacked there the whole time round eating ba kua...lol. And crapping around...Talked bout underage sex...Lol~ Ziyi told me one of her friend had oral sex in school.When i heard i was like, "wtf!" Lol....Oh well....And guess what, she's only in sec 2....=.=

It was back home at 12...I'm feeling bloody tired but i just can't seem to get to slp...Dunno what's wrong leh...hmmx.Sho decided to come online. Chatted for quite a bit with Huey Wen and Daryl on MsN....You know, sometimes i'm glad i have such friends like em....They make my day with their words....=)

Nothin much now~ Gonna make my way down to Cynthia's house to visit tmr~ =) I miss their family. Haix. Tata~*
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Sunday, January 29, 2006

10:18 PM

Happy Chinese New Year ppl~ =D

First day of Chinese New Year. Was awaken by the loud voices of my two little cousins who arrived early at our house. -.- Sian half. Not enuff sleep. Reached home at 3am + last night from Pasir Ris park and slept only at 5+ this morning. Just wanted to take a walk alone. Sorry Daryl, didn't want to answer any calls or reply to any msgs. My sides still hurts like shyt. -.- Someone finally understood how painful it is to fall asleep crying huh?

To 2 places today...met a new friend name Wenhui. Just in case you find it sounds like a gurl, sorry, it's a guy. Lol. 18 years old...Also waiting for his results...=) This world is just so small...He's the son of one of da PRSS's office clerk. The one whom i named "cute auntie" during the cny concert. She was the line dance enthusiast. Yeah~ She's my eldest aunt's sister in law.=) He wanted to exchange numbers to keep in touch..wasn't very interested but...oh well, we did anyway.

Went to meet up with Daryl for dinner at Loyang Point at 7...Had Mac...crapped there for a while before goin to the park for a 'after dinner walk' Walked pass downtown area where there was a mini scale performance by two women. They sang bei ai de nu ren! =) Looked at the horoscope thingy. Sometimes i wonder why i even bother to look when i think they're kinda crappy. *rolls eyes*

Both of us wasn't in the best of moods...Hey dude, keep your smile on. =) I know i'm in no position to tell you to lighten up...It's hard. I knew you were waiting for Feb 14 to come...But all that you've plan have came to a nought afterall...I won't discourage you from being upset, but please don't bottle up all the pain you're feeling inside. It'll only make you feel worse ya? I'm here if you ever need a listening ear...Remember how adorable you looked eating ur watermelon? Forgot? lol. Here's to remind you.

Yes. So keep your smile on!!! =D Don't CS too much arh!

Hakim!!! It's been ages since i've last seen you...Ya also told me you weren't in the best of moods too...Haix. What's with this season man....Prata someday bro? =)Miss you dude.Miss the times we could talk under the skylight for hours. Sorry for not being able to meet up for so long...I know we'll be able to, soon. =)

Huey Wen asked if i'll be free to go clubbin tmr....Haix. You know, i'd die to go but i can't. Damn. It's to grandma's and to uncle Henry's tomorrow. >.<

There's so much i'd like to say but i can't seem to put them into words. Bah...I'd keep em to myself then. Wat a night again.Off to shower...

Sometimes, i'd wished i were a little more busy...

Till the next post people....and once again, i hoped you peeps enjoyed the new year...=) Gong Xi Fai Cai...Shi Shi Shun Li~ =)

[Rena blasts *Shi qu le ceng jing de yong you* Zai ni li kai yi hou, dai zou le xiao rong, zhi liu xia ji mo, wang le xing fu shi shen me.]

Stephy~! I miss you. =(
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Saturday, January 28, 2006

9:12 PM

This is one of the blandest Chinese New Year's eve ever. Come on, i'm online and am here typing out the entry of the day, waddaya think?~ I'm dead bored and feeling damn fuckin low.
I'm blasting the rockest of songs to overcome my darkest of moods. -.- It'll be to the park alone later or it'll be off to bed straight after this entry. Haix.

Work was ok today. Reached earlier than Soon Leng(A.M) who was munching on his Long John Silver's breakfast. Lol. I remembered walking two times up and down the building of Plaza Singapura before walkin to the boutique. =.=

Met a few fussy customers today...One of em wanted me to get him five different pairs of size 7 shoes for him to try. Damn. The store was fuckin messy i had to search high and low for that pathetic 5 pairs of shoes. Nike Dunk, Nike Series, Nike Dunk NS II, Nike Dunk II black and Nike Dunk NS in white. See? i can still remember. -.- Nearly fell off the ladder (and for ya information, the ladder ish even taller than me can?! I know you'll laugh. ) lookin for the last pair which to my horror, was on the top shelve. And you know what? That customer decided not to get any of em. -.- Pek chek. Climbing shelves became a norm.Some products were beyond reach. Lol. Now the boutique's store has become my playground. =) I've climbed so much my feet hurt, i have blisters and my ankle injury is acting up again. Oh well...I don't seem to wanna take good care of myself these days. -.- Skipping meals, climbing up and down riskin falls, crossing roads having vehicles slamming their brakes..I don't seem to care about anything once i'm just too tired..Please,somebody just slap me. I'm just not bothered.

Shiyou dropped by the boutique to pay me a visit and waited for me for work to end to pei wo take mrt home.. Really appreciate it dude...You're the first to visit me at work. =) But didn't have time for you, am sorry. He's the first! Others promised they'll come but until now i haven even seen their heads peek in. Haix. Oh well....Have been lookin out for familiar faces but it seems nobody is interested in visiting Plaza Singapura or rather, visiting me. =( Today may be my last day there before moving to Taka after CnY unless Soon Leng calls and says he needs me on this coming Tue. Oh well~

No reunion dinner tonite. Had it a few days before...Mum's at work, Dad's at downtown helping her out. Havin a shytty headache. Haix. A bad start.Bah...

bye. i guess i'll be off to the park.
some hearts are meant to be broken;;

12:02 AM

Fuckin tired.

Went to PrSS in the morn at 8...This year's chinese new year concert wasn't at all appealing. -.-
Went to wish teachers a Happy New Year. Proceeded to slack in Teacher's room 2 with Mr Ng and dudes...Then out to lunch at Thai Express at Siglap Centre with friends and a bunch of teachers(Mr Poh, Mr Ng, Miss Melinda Lim, Miss Zahirah,Miss Chia,Miss Ho). First time there newaes...

Chun Hong and i accompanied Miss Ho down to Fairfield Methodist Primary School in Buona Vista. Tat would be the place we would be conducting the thesis tests next Thur and Fri liaox...Will prob end early on both days. At 1pm nia...sho will decide when to go Ngee Ann's open house. Maybe after work bah.

It was then to work at Nike, Plaza Singapura. Some people just like makin fun of themselves in front of the public at the mrt station. -.- Some irritating kiddos got on my nerves while waiting for Qing before work. Skipped dinner. Didn't have time to eat, didn't wanna risk being late on my first day of work. Oh well...

First day of work was kinda fun actually.
1) Loads of shuai ges to bio! =p
2) Loads of customers to handle (no fussy ones thankfully today)
3) Japanese customers!
4) Great colleagues, Vincent(manager), Bernice, Ah liang(senior staff)!
5) Feet hurt.
6) Totally confused, i didn't noe where were the goods placed. Had to start work once i stepped into the shop. Blur i tell you.
7) Met "I not stupid 2's" actor. Actor acting alongside Joshua.
8) Couldn't wait to go home. Lonely journey home. Sighx. Luckily i met Peggy on the way home.

Oh well, tmr's work's from 10.45am - 5pm ...Tmr's only left with Soon Leng(assistant manager) and me in the boutique. Bloody hell...and it's a SAt...-.-

Wanted to cook maggie to eat, don't have the appetite anymore. Come home tio aunt kpkb. Kns~ -.-

bye~
[Sigh,i'm trying]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Thursday, January 26, 2006

8:22 PM

I remembered not being able to get to sleep for a very long time yesterday night just thinking about stuff. My head was burning hot. I had a fever. When i finally managed to fall asleep, i found myself awake before my aunt left for work at 5am.As soon as she left the room, i burst into tears so hard i found my sides aching and eyes puffy red. The crying indeed tired me out so much i dozed off huggin onto my plushie. I'm sorry i lied, but i guess, i did mind. I managed to treat it with an open heart that you've finally found the right one for you. I was happy for you. But you can't blame me for being disappointed and upset that afterall this while,i realised i was never the one made for you, even when i thought i was. I knew i was perfectly fine during the days when you told me you've fallen for her and your feelings were strong. But after today, i guess i broke down because i've literally felt your heart taken away from me. I'm shattered and emptiness fills me all over again. It's as if some part of me has been ripped apart. It dawned on me, i held on to false hopes and thought your heart was still with me. I'm wrong afterall. Perhaps it had already left me the day you said you didn't love me no more.It may be wrong to say this now, but i'm still goin to. I guess, it's because i still love you that i'm willing to let go. I dont want to lie to myself and pretend i don't.Friends told me to forget about you. But i guess, i just can't bear to do it, because you've always been the special someone and that won't change..This post is not to make you feel guilty, because i truthfully wanted you to be well and i'd rather not hide what i'm feeling deep down inside.Don't feel that you shouldn't have even confided in me. In fact, i'm really glad you did, and i hope you'll continue to do so...For now, i'd just hope you'll be happy with her. And i know you will,for she will be able to give you the type of love i didn't manage to...For me, i guess i'll only be a friend who'll always be there for you and lend a listening ear when you need it from now on... =)
Dear gods, you've granted me the X'mas wish i wanted most. Thank you.

This upcoming journey to know that you're gone won't be easy. It seems like a relapse over the emotional times i had. But i hope i'll grow with it, and learn to move on.I have to move on. To fulfill my resolution, to look upon opened doors and not closed ones. =) I would dare say that at least i feel proud of myself for being strong and for being so mature in handling my emotions.

It was great timing for Qing to ask me out for squash. At least i feel a little better now.

It's to PRSS to visit tmr, meet Miss Ho,and off to work at Plaza Singapura's Nike tmr from 6-10pm. Winston called to tell me to report for work for tmr and Sat. Lack of personnels i guess. Just as well. Anybody wanna come find me tmr? =)

tata~*
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Wednesday, January 25, 2006

10:18 PM

It's the 3rd time i cried because of you today. Fuck. Can't you just leave me alone!!!!!!!!!

Sometimes, i'm amazed at my abilities in lying. It scares me.
I'll be lying if i say i'm not hurt. But i'm glad you found your new love.
some hearts are meant to be broken;;

7:59 PM

Just came back from Pasir Ris Park after lunch at Loyang Point's KaffaCha with Daryl.Another low dude today...Haix. Sibeh sian. Sat at the park in silence for quite a while. Thought of loads as usual. Pictures flashed passed one by one it hurt.

WingTai person called me up to tell me about the job on 2nd week after CNY. Will be posted to Taka's Nike. It'll be event sales for a start i guess.They will need me to go through another interview.-.-.Why i didn't get posted to Adidas or Dorothy Perkins?!!! Waah!!! T.T Sian diao. Staff discount at Nike? I also donno what i like there man...-.- Sian diao...

Gonna be out to play squash tmr with dearest Qing. Good way to vent frustrations. Haix.


I'm bored...

Road signs all show there's no cause for leaving.And the weeping wind knows that I'm broken and beaten.For my love has just hurt me like nothing I've known.How can I step aside from the feelings inside.Let go when I know love will claim me again.Forget how I loved and my spirit would mend.Memories like a fireside that warms me when cold and chills me when i remember the pain.While it’s burning I don't wanna let go.Sweet bitter dreams gather gently inside.My love was my shelter my shore and my home.How can time repay what I gave away when i know i have to let it go. I've been in your shoes and I know how it feels.You say you loved me, but that don't make it real.I'm better off knowing that you'll be gone for good.Let's just let goodbye hurt like it should.One side of love doesn't get you anywhere.There's nothing worse than loving someone who's just not there...

tata~
some hearts are meant to be broken;;

2:06 PM

She cried hard. Sigh. It was a terrible night for us.I tink my cold got worse.
Met her at Pasir Ris Park at bout 1 am +. She was braving it all up at first but she ended up breakin down hard once i sat her down and asked why she wanted to see me. I ended up crying as well. Sigh. I just can't understand why guys can just brush the hurt they know they'll cause a gurl to have so easily. Ok, maybe i'm over generalising, but most of them seems so, so far to me. I can't help but wanna tag em a bastard at times. Haix. They can tell you how much they really love you before and they can just ditch you and pretended they've never said that. WTF. Her guy ditched her because he felt that she wasn't the right one after all and that he'd found another who suited him better. WTF. NOt the right one after being together for more than 3 years?! I saw the other gurl's pic. Ok, prettier than my friend. But she seems so much like a bitch by reading her blog to me. *rolls eyes*. *shakes head* I just dont understand. I really don't and i would hope to one day. Sigh. He told her he wasn't feeling any better by ditching her. Rubbish! He will be happily goin out with his new found pretty but bitchy gurlfriend. -.- Wasn't feeling any better? Fuck him. Haix, don't blame me for being crude in my words, but really, just forget it. You know all's over, don't hold on to any hope, you'll end up feeling more hurt previously and disappointed as well. I've came by that stage as well, i know it better than you do, so trust me. You might be crying so much over him but he may be well snoggin his new flame somewhere under the moonlight yesterday. He's worth waiting? Forget it gurl, fat chance he'll return to you. And you're still willing to take him back after everthing? Don deem yourself as a fool. Sigh...Your parents were so worried last night. Don't succumb to things you know wouldn't be worth it. If i see him on the streets, i'll make sure i'll stuff my shoe into his mouth and slap him upside down for you. I mean it so seriously. *boils* HumPh~ Guys. Some of them are shit i tell you. The better men out there who read this, yes, please help educate your other breed who're so much so ruining their image in front of ppl like me. They ruin the image of good guys like you. *palms head*

Now i've finally understood why i find falling in love such a meaningless thing at times. It's because of experiences and the several heartbreaking cases i've seen. Men have turned my life absolutely upside down for the past year and this year's beginning. They've made gurls i love around me cry and beg for them. Shit this is. >.<>

Phew, ok, so much for these thoughts...Some pics to lighten up! Photo-whoring last nite.

Tuckin in!!!


Chun Hong, Josh

EW~ Josh!!!! Wad kinda look ish dat!?


Waited for darling stephy to get off work! On the train...


Dearest Qing and her Mr boyfriend....=p Happy Birthday gurl!!!!

S.R.X


=D

You noe, i've been wanting to get my hair coloured for so long. -.-

I wonder when i'll really do it. Lol.

Tat's all for now...~

[I'll cry with you.]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;

12:30 AM

It's when the night falls i'm more awake....I guess i'm another nocturnal creature. =)

Some thoughts just ran across my mind and it disappeared there and then. I can't even remember what i wanted to even type. -.- *rolls eyes and shakes head*

Trip to Far East today wasn't fulfilling. Eyed a pair of high cut boots....50 bucks. Sharp pointed at the top though...hmm. My cny clothes haul isn't up to it's full yet...Urgh. Short of a pair of shoes and another set of clothes...Oh well...
Proceeded to Bugis for Seoul Garden....Bloody full!!! Took pics on the way home in the train~=D
Shall upload all pics i owe tmr!!! =D

Tata~
[maybe i really do]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Tuesday, January 24, 2006

12:20 PM

Slept at 3am+ ytd night to complete Qing's present. Hope she'll like it, cos i had to trim my nails short just to make it easier for me to do it! And before tat, one of them chipped. Sobs. T.T
It has been so long since i've last did something myself to give away. =D
Wanted to buy something but instead i ended up helpin Joshua to choose your pressie. -.-
Qing!!!B'day gurl tmr!!! =D Turning sweet 17 tomorrow!!! Woot...=D

I've caught a damn cold. -.- I look like the red nose reindeer now. Tissues are all over the table. >.<

Someone told me yesterday i seemed love sick after reading my previous post when he is too himself...-.- Dotx. I bwg man. Come on lar, my case is different from yours can?! -.- Yours is love sick as in, you have a target lor....mine is different lor.....>.< =X Lol, wat am i babbling about~*ah bish* ...Haix.

Miss Ho called from overseas ytd nite...will be helpin her out with some stuff next Thur and Fri. I need to find one more Chinese girl to help me!!!! Gurls! If you read this and you're interested, please please contact me!!!! ASAP!!! On one condition,Chinese standard cannot be very bad lar...$5 per hour!!!!Give me a text kk??! =D

Tat's all for now bah, gtg le! Off to prepare day out with darling Qing, Josh and Chun Hong.
Ciao~*
[Ai rang wo cong ming de du li, yong zi ji qu ai ren]
[Those dreams just doesn't go away no matter how bad i want them to. It's you, in my dreams again.]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Monday, January 23, 2006

10:09 PM

Today's work was easy. 37 bucks in no more than 3 hrs. Where do you get this kinda money man....lol. Trim Slim product at Aljunied. And it's only labelling for ya info. =p Too bad it's only temporary. KK called me up. Didn't make it for the AMD job. Oh wells....

Far East again with Chun Hong...-.- I seem to be goin there every now and then lor. Went to get some stuff from Beads Passion and then it was home after that...

I didn't know Victoria's Secrets Fashion show would be telecasted on TV today?! Until Wei Li informed me it's on now...Yesh, NOW. -.- Aunt's hoggin onto the tv...Oh wells...here are a few pieces i really like though...lol. Boys, make sure you don't start nose bleedin all over in fronta ya com screen~

I love the detailing!


Doncha wish ya gurlfren was hot like her! Gisele!!!Ribbons. Moreover it's yellow and orange! Fav!

Heidi Klum, one of my fav models around. She spots this delicate and classy piece with grace!

An oriental style piece? Looks of that to me...Beautiful!


Detailing!!! More! =D


Pink! Zhiyi will like it. =DFluffy fluffy de!!! I loike!~~~~


Art of an angel's...


Candy colours! This ish my favourite!!!! Don't you wish you've got a body like hers?! *jealous!!!*

Can i have the pair of red boots? =p


Woot. Angels!!!!

Hey guys, i've caught you drooling....lol...Really av my utmost respect for the designer. Great pieces this year. =D

Tata ppl! Off to celebrate dearest Qing's b'day in advance tmr....=D
some hearts are meant to be broken;;

12:49 AM

*low* I don't feel well suddenly.

It was day out to watch Memoirs of a Geisha and a few games of pool at Marina with bunch of friends...It's been so long since i've last caught a movie...I remembered the previous show i caught was Harry Potter.Pathetically long can...

The show wasn't all as good as i thought it out to be though. I'm dying to get the book though. =.=

I've finished reading all 6 books borrowed from the NLB already. Including one more Qing lent me. It's gonna be time to replenish my reading supply by this coming week le bah...=D

Proceeded back to Pasir Ris after dinner at Han's at Marina.Their sirloin was terribly done. =.= I prefer the one at V8 at Bugis. Suddenly the journey back home after friends got off at Tampines made me feel bloody lonely. Took a short walk at Pasir Ris Park alone till 12.30am when Shiyou msged me to ask if i was home. Lol.Don't worry lar, i got home safely =) Thanks. Sigh, you know....seeing couples holding hands, cuddling up under the moonlight sometimes just makes me feel damn lagi unloved can? =.= Haix, waddahell am i blabbing on about. -.- *ah bish* Nvm. I guess it's just another of those days i have...when all kinds of emotions comes tumbling down on me and a tiny little cry will make it all ok.

Listen to Landy's "wishin me a happy birthday'...i jus find these phrases meaningful...sorry to those who can't read chi imput...lol
"我知道伤心不能改变什么　那么让我诚实一点 诚实难免有不能控制的宣泄"
"还爱你带一点恨　还要时间才能平衡热恋伤痕　幻灭重生　祝我生日快乐"

You've caused me to think over so many things i suddenly realised i haven really benefited after going through so much with you. My advices av come to a nought. I ask myself why i wanna waste my time talkin about some stuff you won't heed. I just hope you won't revert to your old ways damnit. Nothing more. Fuck, yeah,my fault? Again? Knn. You make me wanna hate you more. Urgh. I shall not care from this moment onwards, period.

It's getting late. Work tmr...At Paya Lebar for one day....Tata~*
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Saturday, January 21, 2006

10:50 PM

Woot. The feeling of being able to blog lyk before ish good. Lol.

Trip to TP yesterday was fruitful indeed. Already know what course i'll most probably be considering...=) Met loads of ex Prss students lo....Qian...(liew! say i grow shorter!!! Wadda?!), Anson, Ching Wei, Shiyun(become [prettier le!!! Still with Nae...lucky couple. They've got each other for 2 yrs+ le), Boon Yee and his gf, Charlie, David, Cannonz (our tour guide for da day!!!) Wanted to look for Huey Wen but couldn't find her...wanted to ask more bout her course. Newaex~~~yeah. Saw a couple of eye candies...=x From design course de!!! =x K nth. Kan kan wu fang....=D

Rushed home for reunion dinner. Eat eat eat eat..I tink i'm growing fatter.And yes, i'm fat..blah. Off to club at Clark Quay. Only went for 1 hr. Machiam go in jiu come out le...-.- Bloody tired can?! No mood aso. >.<

Off to SP today. don't like the school. So well. Won't be considering at all i guess. Till later i'll decide lar. And yea, no eye candies. =.=

To Bugis with Qing, Josh, Chun Hong...shop shop. Find darling stephy. Met Qian and gang...Off to V8 to eat...Saw Xiujun and Val....To New Icon...new shoppin centre. Stuff mostly from HK. NIce~! Bought top. -.- Gonna be broke soon. Sian. By the time i reached home jiu low diao lex. Haix. Shan't elaborate. -.-

Will be out for the upcoming days. =.= A bit no mood go out. Rather stay home do my reading...Don't even know if i'll be workin nxt week. =.= Wait till KK calls bah...

tata for today ppl~ Bo mood lers. >.<
[Sometimes i feel oh so alone i wonder why i'm feeling this way. My feelings comes flooding back to me and drown me, i have to learn to pick myself up all over again.]

Delta goodrem,A little too late-
Cause I just wanna be loved
Just wanna be heard
Be lost in the feeling standing here
At the door to my life
They say I'm a little too lost without you here
They say I'm a little too soft and too sincere
Cause I never subscribe to who sir, me sir?
Gonna stand, gonna fall, gonna face my fears
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Thursday, January 19, 2006

11:50 PM

Com's back into workin order~!!!!! Woot...But my mind's sho blank i can't get anythin outta it to blog...well...got loads of pics to upload soon!

Worked at Expo EGL building for the past few days...under GMP for AMP...Lol. Confusing rite? Did labelling...bloody tiring can?!From 8.30am-6.30pm.Cannot bring hp in summore... Kns...Luckily ish contract basis which means work will stop latest next week. Had fever ytd...liew...Feeling a lot better now le...=) Pay's on 15 Feb!!! Yay~!!!!
Gonna go for interview on Sat after trip to SP open house...Sibeh sian!!!!It's to TP tmr...And it's reunion dinner tmr...-.- Wonder who will get drunk tmr. Lol...Family tradition...There will -definitely be someone who'll be drunk every year...Cousin says wanna sneak me into club tmr nite.=.= See bout tat. Seh diao lerx...haix.

Tata for now baby!!! More updates soon i promise!!!! =D
I knew you missed me. No..~ don't give me tat 'wotever~" look! I know you did miss me. Lol~i'm laming about...I'm getting crankier.. Till later ppl~ *wink*

[I'm so tired of always havin to tink thru it so carefully. It's killin me. I can't help it but want to chuck eveything all aside! And i guess, i'll do just tat. =) how's tat?]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Sunday, January 15, 2006

11:27 AM

Just as well, a hiatus from the blogosphere. So much has happened(as usual). So much on my mind(when has it ever been empty of tots before). Shan't elaborate. Bye ppl. Will be back when com is alrite. -.-

Tata for now~*
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Tuesday, January 03, 2006

10:50 PM

Bored...so some fotos for your viewing pleasure!!! Or mebbe not...=x

At kbox! Two separate occasions!!!

Benny did and i!!! Look at his mimi yan~~~lol!


Bleahx!!!Now we can't see his eyes! lol.


Peace!



OUCH!!!


Xing Yi jie~!!!Don't we got the jie mei look? lol...

Liew~ sho dark!


yaya~ you're prettier~ =X jkjk

Tat's all for now~!!! more tmr!!!=D K box again!!! Wif Vivian, Evelyn and Chun Hong!
some hearts are meant to be broken;;

2:55 PM

Read on....

[Rena blasts:My love don't stop]
There's a part of me that wants us to be
Just the way we are so we don't mess things up
But it's killin cos the rest of me
Wants to feel your body, babe, wants to tear it up
Do some things to you no one else can do
Cos baby i'm the one to make you feel real good
Being friends is cool i'm goin step to you
Cos now it's time that i start makin love to you
Time passes by for more than a lifetime
I wanna be yours
I would give up my life
To spend just one night with you
Cos my love don't stop

3rd Jan..Tues..Everyone's at school!!! And here i am rotting at home...Mum's naggin non-stop..
Gosh, i'd better find a job asap...-.-

It's been ages since i've last talked to Bling(tat's Mr Ng, my ex art teacher if you don't know)...Chatted for quite a bit last nite...Liew~! He went to MOS and Zouk for Xmas and New Year's eve!!! Liew~!!!! Am sho jealous~=X Promised him to contact him once i'm of age to club. He'll bring me! Lol.... Talked bout clubbin stuff..Being drunk and all..Lol, he told me why he was still single...-.- Dotx.I told him if there was nobody interested in him i'll cut off my head. And yes! I'm still around....so...yeah...=p And yesh, pleAse~ I don't av guys fallin at my feet. -.-
Can ya imagine!? He's ten yrs older than i am and we can still click so well...=D Jus wondering when will that Seoul Garden day out will finally come...=.=
Lookin forward to meeting!

tata for now~ i'm terribly bored...~*
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Monday, January 02, 2006

9:16 PM

Slept at 4am and woke at 2 this afternoon. Call me piggy woteva...lol.WAtched the show called, The Little Match Girl last nite...Bloody stupid show. =.= WAste my freakin time...Lol.

Was pretty much left alone at home while dad and mum went to visit someone hospitalised...Dunno who aso lar. Decided to meet Qing and Fidy at Bugis...Shoppin!!!!!Saw loads of aherm! Eye candies....=p
Bought stuff!!! Hur...Spent money....=.= Omg..i guess i'll never be able to keep to that resolution of mine....=.=
1) colourful colourful necklace! 9 bucks.
2) Fluffy bag tat can be used as clutch, sling. Qing and I each got one! 10 bucks.
3) Earrings. 6 bucks.
4) Pastamania!!! 10 bucks.

See? 35 bucks gone gone gone...and another 10 bucks for toppin up my card. omg~ 45 bucks today gone~ =.= Expenses gonna go up once Jan 14 comes....Adult fare. =.= Liew~

I've been itchin to watch a movie for so long can?! Haix. Tmr's school gonna reopen...sian half~ though i'm not affected, i am indirectly lar... Cos there'll be lesser ppl to pei wo le!!! T.T
I hope the job person, Stacie, or Angelia calls me up tmr...=.= I can't stand stayin home all day for too long...

O well, tata for now~*
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
Sunday, January 01, 2006

8:00 PM

HAPPY NEW YEAR ppl~! it's 2006 in such a blink of an eye

i just woke up...not feelin very well but i know i still am in the mood to go club and dance. Maybe cos i've been in the rain...Rain the whole morn lo...-.- Bloody freezing at the park.

30 December 2005:
Went to Eugene's house to help Hakim with his blog...Ron and Loong came alone soon after and proceeded to Pavilion for pool where Carmen,Freda,Steph,Derrick,Hisa joined us. Rushed to downtown for countdown bout 11.30pm...The place was so packed by the time we reached the the Marquee. Lol. Police Checks before entering. Woah, major scale police duty area. Everywhere we went there were police officers. Lol. Seemed like some high security area. -.-

It was then time to party!!!! Met Stephen, Joshua, Henry, April, Qing there! =D So happy to see Qing lar!!!It's been ages since i've last seen her and the moment she saw me, she greeted me with her spray of party whizzers. -.- Had foam all over my head. Wadda! Oh well...Danced the night away after 12!!!! Tio bua-ed for dunno how many fuckin times again. -.- This time, a Chinese guy, about 18 yrs old bah, dressed in red collared shirt, with his friends(some of which were quite cute =p) . -.- It's so obvious it's on purpose. Dammit. Lol, stephy told me he was tryin to show off. Diaox. Kept bio-in. Overheard his convo wit his frens, wanted to ask for no. -.-
Lol. I did something bad lar, erm, shouldn't say wot it is but come to think of it, i'll begin to laugh my heads off.. =X Who ask him to dance so close! =X

There were bangalarrs too...And some of my friends danced wit em! Wliew~! Bloody funny the way they dance i tell eu!!! Lol! Not forgettin a little boy, guess about 8 yrs old nia, he can dance so well ppl began to crowd round him i tell eu~! Eugene, Josh, Loong joined in. Lol! The ultra high bunch. Woot~!!!

However, the DJ was ultra lousy i tell eu~Made me regret not makin my way to Liquid Room with Huey Wen they all. Hesitated about not goin, but anyway, i couldn't leave my friends. Next time then! Huey Wen!!! If ya see this, eh, sorry wor! Next time join ya all....=D Thanks for invitin gurl!
Tmd...It's either they kept repeating the same songs over or the songs were not upbeat enuff.
-.- But i was still enjoying every moment of it in the company of such a great bunch of friends. Nyeheh! My night was fun filled but some ppl had to just screw it up for me. -.- Kena ap-ed by 2 persons. Dulan lyk shyt. However, everything was forgotten once i reached the dancefloor. =)
Eeyer, Ron didn't dance at all lo, sat outside...Fa dai....Daryl also lor...at least Derrick also joined in the fun despite not knowing how to dance lor....

Went to 24hr food court and proceeded to Pasir Ris Park to spend the rest of the morn.Steph and Jun Wei left early. To Cavana for breakfast and it was home sweet home by 12 noon. Bathe, watched tv, K.O to bed till now. Crazy frog has been blastin in my mind ever since last nite, and it still is. lol.

Rite...my new year resolutions:
1) Be Me!
2) Discover my new route of school life!
3) Meet more ppl!
4) Let things go...i've been lookin upon closed doors too often.
5) Be happy! And everyone around me as well!
6) Spend more time with friends and family!
7) Cut down on over-spending
8) Love more people around me!
9) Balance work and play!
10) Fulfill all resolutions made!!! haha~

Oh well...A new year, A new beginnin, A new start, A chapter closed, A life anew....Let's all make it work baby!

Special someone:
I just wanted to make conversation and you made it so hard. Your tone of voice made it even harder for me to forgive myself. Why the fuck must things turn out this way. It took me great pains coercing myself to go over and say hi. -.- I won't wanna say more. Perhaps you just don wanna see me around.Wednesday's chalet would be a qn mark if i would still wanna go since my prescence there would be no pleasant sight to you. In fact if you didn't know, i did care and i did feel. I just couldn't commit. I shall not try to make conversation anymore. I think i tried hard enough and all i ended up was feeling hurt inside all over again.

Haix. Now i'm all low talkin bout all this shyt. Dammit.

Someone was the first person i thought of in this new year. Well...sometimes i wondered if the words you said to me were true. I don't seem to trust you as much as before anymore.
Shall not go on any further. Would only take my mood to a lower level. It has already been a bad start for a new year...

Tata for now~*
[you told me you missed me for Xmas, i told you i didn't. For my heart said "i miss you so" while my head said,"no, you don't miss tat someone". I listened to my head, for it has been my heart which has always led me astray and make me get hurt even further. Now i miss you. But i know i'm not the first special one in ur mind anymore.]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;