Friday, December 09, 2005
11:43 AM
Today's prom! Felt lyk bloggin sho here i am! I gotta pick Mickey and Michelle up to help me do my make up and hair at one...Nyeheh~!
Sigh, i'm totally confused i don't know how to describe my fears. I'm now left alone to make my own decisions. It's the second time he's asked. Everything inside me is now all mixed up and i can't seem to think rationally. And i won't want to make rash decisions. What should i do?! Stephanie! sobx...My darling ish of to Malaysia...sho there's no one around for me to take it out on at the moment.
I don't want to hurt you and i don't want to take you for granted. I enjoy the times being with you but there's just something lackin between us i can't seem to discover.
Perhaps it's me, because since i've lost faith in love, i'm not able to pick out the choices that i must make. Everything's in a blur to me but i believe i will definitely give you the answer when i know tat's the choice that i've made. However,no matter what my answer will be, please promise me that no matter what happens, we will always remain as friends and there shall be no hard feelings ok? I want to continue enjoying the moments spent together,and i'm afraid to lose a friend. Don't doubt yourself not being good enough or anything like tat.You're doin it so often it makes it seem to me that you've very low self confident.
I guess it's time to think about what i really want. However, i'm in such a confused state i can't seem to think properly. Sometimes, i do hate myself...
I need my Stephanie badly...=((
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
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