Tuesday, November 29, 2005
12:57 PM
My head felt all heavy and my throat was sore from all the coughin. A terrible night. Another night of tears, another night of memories i just couldn't put away. What's my world becoming?!
Benedict(pri sch mate), called me up last nite. Oh, yea, i met him at my cousin's wedding by chance...He was my first boyfriend. *rolls eyes*....He started with all the "hey you got a bf" talk and things started to get a lil outta hand when i repliled with a "no". He started to tell me how much he missed me and all i was pretty much disgusted.Ok, VERY DISGUSTED, PUT OFF. Bah... It seems ironic to be disgusted by your exbf eh, but well, i was..-.-
I shocked myself when i hung up on him. Ok, i'm feeling a teeny weeny bit guilty about tat now. I guess, it's even more difficult to even continue as friends after dat phonecall last night ... Seriously, i don't even wan to be friends with him now. He pissed me off so bad i wondered why did i like him in those previous years. Ah. Whatever.
Ok, if you didn't think that was bad enuff...
I was chatting away on Msn last night when someone(ok, he's a frend of someone close...he should have known ok..) asked if i was still attached. (WTF do these people want -.- ) Said no. He told me he wanted to know where did we used to go on our dates when we were still together. (WTF!) I told him i forgot even though all those memories of places we went together flashed in my mind one by one. *POOF!* My mood was gone.Tio low diaox. Wanted me to give him advice on this and that...blah blah blah....-.- How to please his gf lar...blah blah...-.-
*POOF!* My mood became more jialatt...
Sometimes, i'd wish these people were more considerate and smart to know better not to ask these kinda qns when they know how heartbreaking just reminding me about it is. I'm no love expert, I'm no love consultant or whatsoever! So, get off my back. -.- Call me selfish or whatever, i just don't like it. Even couples getting all touchy gives me the lows nowadays. Yea, i'm jealous, you got a problem with that?!
Shit. My mood was ruined totally.
So much ran through my mind last night, i've come to realise. Only victims of a broken true love know how painful it is to fall into it all over again. Haix. A crappy post. tata~
[i tried hard to put all the pain all away. But a different stranger came along everyday and rediscovered memories i thought i had forgotten.Now, i have to pick myself up all over again.]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
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