Friday, November 04, 2005
12:06 AM
It's torturing to have to deal with dreams i shouldn't have. It's shyt. I can't stop dreaming.It's becoming an everyday issue. It makes it worse when i wake up and realise they aren't true, and that everything goes back to normal. If this were to carry on, I'm definitely goin to go crazy. Damn it!!!
Was browsing through blogs. One of Huey Wen's entries about guys are oh so true.I've become so agitated after reading it. Sighx. Men are heartless creatures who'll treat you so coldly after a break up. But looking back on the days when you were still together, he's a beautiful soul who's always there safeguarding you, showering you with all the love you can possibly have. You want him back but knows that he doesn't feel the same about you and you draw away from that intention,wanting to be still good friends. Guys. WTF do they really want. WTF do you really want from a girl who wants to be still good friends and is trying to be a good one to you!? Yea. You treat her right with cold replies. You treat her right by telling her you feel uneasy about her being around you. WTF?! I know it's not easy but if she's putting her heart in to do it, why can't you guys do it as well?! T.T
Sighx...It makes a girl lose faith in love upon thinking that she'll lose his friendship if they were to break up. Well, at least that makes one here, tat's me. It's been these few days that everything is haunting me again. I realised i've become so reliant i feel uneasy even walking home on my own, taking a bus home alone,even being home alone is so frustrating. It's not a habit. It's just the emptiness you have inside just thinking about the person who used to do lovely things with you. You pass by spots you used to hang out together, you go to places you used to go to together, you do things you used to do together,you see shadows of the both of you everywhere and you start thinking if the other someone will think of you when he/she passes these spots and does those things as well. Haix. Forget it. It just gets more frustrating the more i continue...
I'm waiting for Stephie, Qing and Josh to come while bloggin...it's just another 2 days time to Big Os...Thanks for all the encouragements you seniors gave...I greatly appreciate your care and concern for me all these while...I promise to work hard!
Bb~
[wo men de ai zhen de yi bu chun zai? Ni shi fou hui ou er xiang qi wo? Ni zhe yang zhuan shen li kai, shi bu shi hai you hua shuo bu chu lai? Dang chu bi ci dou bu cheng shi dui dai...wo shi bu shi ying gai zao yi li kai ni de shi jie? Wo bu yao zai cai ni dui wo shi bu shi yong le zhen ai...Ying wei ji ran wo gan jue de dao...wo xiang xing ni...Ni de xiao rong wo hui yong yuan ji de...Ying wei, wo zhi dao, ni shi wo de zhen ai. Wo zhen de hao xiang ni, dan shi, wo hui xue zhe duo kai.]
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
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