Wednesday, October 12, 2005
10:03 PM
I'm bloody tired. I got acrylic pain all over me. My hands, my uniform...Fuck it. -.-
Yay...it's the end of the post-prelims activities by this fri~ No more school from nxt Mon onwards....Prom night....I'm still deciding if i should go...9th of Dec....Orchid Country Club....in Yishun. So damn bloody far. No mood to go...Sian 1/2
Headache the whole day...Lectures suck. Homework sucks. Bloody hell, i suck.
So many people are falling in love these days. I feel sick. I can't commit but want to be loved. I had a dream last night. Somebody was huggin me from behind. The touch seemed familiar.It seemed so real but when i opened my eyes, i realised it was just a dream. It was 4.15 am by then. I cried. I hugged myself to sleep.I clutched the plushie tight.I wanna be a child again when my mum used to hug me to sleep every night... If only my nights were not so painful...
Tonight shall be another sleepless night. I'm cryin again...I'm beginning to think about stuff already. I'm scared. Something is wrong. It's me. It's...sigh... I can't tell. I'm sorry.
I'm sorry i said you lied. I knew you didn't. I can feel it. But it doesn't matter now anymore. Does it?
I still hate myself, It didn't change. I made myself feel so miserable.
Gdnite.
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
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