Wednesday, February 09, 2005
8:46 PM
Happy Chinese New Year! Went to Chun Dao He Pan with teddy and family yesterday night...Fun! The fireworks display was spectacular...
Went visiting today...Visited 2 relatives...Bored the whole day...Adults chatted while i jus sat there and ate and ate and ate...Stuffed myself silly today...
Teddy wasn't in a good mood i suppose...Sensed it thru his tone of voice when we chatted over the fone....Sometimes, I really hope he could confide in me...I want to care...I want to help...I want to lend a listening ear...Was i given a chance to care as a girlfriend? I only knew what he goes thru day to day when i read his blog jus like everyone else do...I wasn't der when he needed a shoulder...Was i given the chance? Maybe i was...perhaps all i did was bitch around? I don't know...I can't seem to sort out my thoughts nowadays...I'm imagining stuff...I'm paranoid bout everything that's happening...There's jus too much for mi to take...I'm a girl too...I need assurance...I need care...I'm expecting a lot, i know.
There's jus too much for me to take...If jumping off the building can solve all problems...I'd do it...I simply HATE myself...
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
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