Sunday, February 06, 2005
1:20 AM
Had our reunion dinner with my uncles, aunties and all mua cousins(all 20+ de) jus now...It was fun...had great chats and all...Learnt a lot from their love experiences they told mie about..Food was great...Feeling bloated...Had a coup of glasses of wine...3 i tink...not dat bad la...i don't drink all the time....Underaged...~~~
Went to look for teddy after my project work..Wanted to give him a surprise but...well...it didn't work out afterall...Crap. Was expecting a "Dear! How come you're here!" with a big smile..Kinda disappointed though...but still, at least I managed to see him....Stayed there for bout an hour and set off for home to help mum prepare for the dinner...We didn't talk much...Well, the uncle selling ice-cream asked him if i was his girlfriend...Well, he told him i was jus a friend...Jus a friend indeed...If it was the supervisor who asked him, i'd understand why he didn't want to tell...However,it doesn't matter to me...If he thinks that it's not convenient to tell, so be it...I'm fine with that...
Blah...had a row with him after the dinner...He called when i was jus about to bid gdbye to my cousins...called my hp but i wasn't available...He was kinda angry...Well, I didn't do it on purpose...Said sorry...but he didn't care..."whatever" was the word he used. My heart's shattered into a million pieces...Was it really my fault? Why do i have to give in all the time? Do things really go the wrong way jus because of me? I'm too demanding i suppose. Too sensitive. I'm selfish. I'm always the one causing the unhappiness...It's that true? What should i do? Am i going to weep late into the night all the time? Is it because he's tired from work and that's y he's treating mi like that? I've totally no idea...I don't wanna know how you're doing thru your blog...I wanna hear it from you...We don't talk anymore.....
A simple "gdnite" and "hugx" was all i need...
tata`
some hearts are meant to be broken;;
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