;i keep up with a fake smile.Do you ever notice?



I FAKE A SMILE ALL THIS WHILE

DID YOU EVER REALISE?

It's me.So what?
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*Rena Heng
*aka Tiny,Nana
*17*
*30/5/89*
*TP,Hospitality and Tourism*
*PRSS,QNPS*

Her world revolves around...
*her friends
*family
*you
*her lovelies =3
*clubs
*drinking
*shopping
*bitching
*freedom

BEWARE,SHE SNAPS
I'm not who you think i really am. Don't like reading wat's here? Buzz off. =)
DO NOT JUDGE ME,period.

HER WANTS
*New navel stud*
*plain bikini*
*Waist belt*
*A pair of flats*
*Grey/white off shoulder*
*tan*
*Vintage dress*
*New phone*


THE ONES

Abigail
Adler
Arjuna
Audrina
Alpharian
Alvin
Boon Ern
Daphne
Daryl
Dixon
de-bonbons
Eugene
Genevieve
Hailing
Hakim
Hidayu
Hisa
Idy
Jacquelin
Jeslyn
Jingxuan
Justin
Jie Hui
Karen
Kok Sheng
Letitia
Pauline
Quan Zhang
Qiao
Royston
Stephanie
Shihan
Siok Wen
Sihan
Wei Li
Wei Jie
Weslie
Xiuqing
Yi ting
Yiwen
Yu Heng
Zhiyi
Zhu Xiaoming
Ziying
CUT THE CRAP

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TUCKED AWAY

Monday, January 31, 2005

10:10 PM

sigh~I really dunno if i should feel pissed or what lo...Sighx...makin me repeat wot happened over and over again won't make mi feel better.So...i shall not type the content here...Jus kinda felt upset with teddy lah...told steph and zhiyi wot happened...Well, i really didn't know how i should react and how i should feel bout this whole thingy. Only girls will understand how girls feel...haha..Teddy went to watch hotel Rwanda with Caseline, someone he got to know at work...sobx...i wanna watch it too...i'd better drop the idea anyway.At first, i really didn't feeling like initiating to meet up, but i felt that some things must be talked thru... Sighx...Rena Rena...what's with you...you can tell this whole lotta crap to your friends but it just seems so hard to get it thru to teddy. Why don't you jus tell him how you feel? Mebbe things would work out to be better? Or mebbe things won't turn out pleasant, but at least you got to tell him wat ya need to.

Bah...talked it thru a lil...well...today's bitch fit didn't make me lose my cool in front of him. After so much of hinting, i doubt he knows what i'm trying to get at...Cos most of the time he was concentrating on finding the stuffs he need at challenger and sportslink. Mebbe it was because my hints were too vague for him to understand me? I don't know. Knew he was tired...kept yawning when we went to the park...

I'm tired too...tired of this whole world that is revolving...tired of having to make promises that i may not be able to fulfill, tired of havin him to keep promises that he may not fulfill...tired of having to slog my heads out everyday without him saying a simple,"Rest more"...tired of having sleepless nights...tired of having to put up a strong front in front of everybody and tell them that i'm fine...and that i can cope...I'm tired of being myself...I don't wanna be the way i am now...Sigh...

I don't wanna talk about this anymore...Teddy...take care of yourself at work oki? Muackx.

Tata~*...

some hearts are meant to be broken;;